In Another Life

Chapter 43 Levi POV

It had been only a few days but it felt like weeks. I was at war with myself. My actions. Everything about the situation was shitty.

"I hate this." The words fell from my mouth as a quite whisper. As I brought my tea cup back to my lips.

Kaneki was different. He was distant. I knew this was hard for him. It just seems like a never ending cycle. Just when he gets his mother back she's gone again...... just when I got her back.

Not that any time was her fault. They had all been my doings. If I was quicker on my feet, faster to stop her.... just anything... I could have prevented all this pain and trauma.

Getting up from my desk I quickly cross the room. Slowly turning the door knob to my chambers, I peak in to see if Kaneki was still sleeping.

He was asleep on our bed. Curled in a ball clingy tightly to Y/N's pillow. He missed her. We missed her.

Quietly making my way to the bedside to reach out my hand to brush back the lose black strands of hair that had fallen into his face. He truly was my son. He was my spitting image. I had to fight hard to find Y/N in him. But the little I found was beautiful.

Kaneki begins to stir awake as his eyes flutter open. I drop down on one knee so I won't have to speak loud.

"Are you hungry?" Pushing the last few strands of hair behind his ear.

He just shakes his head to signal yes.

"Stay here I'll come and get you when your food has arrived." Bringing my lips to his forehead.

He just continues to nod and cling tighter to his mother's scent.

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After sending for Kaneki supper for what felt like over a hour ago I was beginning to grow annoyed. He was going to fall back asleep before I was able to feed him.

Standing from my desk I made my way to my office door. Determined to find out what was taking so long. Grabbing ahold of the door knob I swing the door open a little to violently to find Samantha standing on the other side with a plate of food in her hands.

A plate of what I could only assume was for Kaneki. Her eyes looked like they were about to pop right out of her head.

"Samantha?" Opening my office door further to allow her access.

"Captain." Her voice was shaky and low as she keep her head down. She almost ran across the room to set the food down onto my desk. She was shaking. I could see it from across the room.

Closing the door behind her so nobody from the halls would hear our conversation.

"Samantha are you alright?" Stepping forward to my desk. Keeping my eyes on her as I take a seat in my chair.

She was bright red. A red I've seen before and was fairly familiar with. She only gets like this when she wants something from me. But this time she was shaking violently.

Pushing myself back from my desk I lean back in my office chair to study her better.

"Saman-" I was cut of by her lips smashing into mine. She had thrown herself over my desk. And was now crawling onto my lap.

She was straddling me in a second. Her fingers were quickly fumbling open my zipper. And her hand was already down my pants.

Grabbing ahold of her wrist I squeeze it tightly stopping all motion. Placing my hand onto her chest I push her back off of my lips.

"Samantha what is this?" I look back and forth between her eyes searching for some answer. Still completely shocked by her actions.

"Is this some sick joke?" I can feel the anger rising in me. But I'm distracted by her hand shoving itself into my boxers grabbing ahold of my member. She squeeze it. I can't help but to groan out into the silent air.