In Another Life

Chapter 101/ Levi POV

Authors note: Reminder that I will be tweaking the story line. Not all of it, but some ! Sorry for the delay in updating, I'm normally really good about updating numerous times throughout the week but this weekend was absolutely INSANE for me, it's been crazy hectic. I just didn't want to update with some half ass chapter that I threw together in a few minutes, I wanted it done right! So I apologize, I'll be updating a lot more, now that we are moving past this arc..... 🤭🤫😉

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Levi POV

I knew I shouldn't have said anything. I just got so carried away and wrapped up with her, it came out. And then again when I saw how confused she was. All I was trying to do was reassure her but it ended up back firing.

I just had to tell her I didn't want to keep it bottled up anymore. I said Rize was it for me, but I lied. Secretly I knew there would never be enough of them. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, maybe it was the shit childhood I had that I was fighting tooth and nail to fix. To build something great for myself.

I wanted our children to have brothers and sisters, something I never got to have. Someone that's always there no matter what, through the lonely nights and hard times. To keep one another company. I just wanted them to have better, what I always wish I could.

I wanted to have many, so when me and Y/N were finally gone, they weren't left all alone in this world...without anyone. I wanted them to take care of one another. To save my children from the pain and disappear I suffered.

And maybe that was wrong to project that wish on Y/N. But... she was my wife, the only I'd ever lay with again. Or wanted to, I just wanted to have as much of her around as possible. I wanted our love to live on past us, breathing examples.

Despite how reassuring she was back at the river, in the short amount of time it took us to make it back up the hill she had put at least 10 feet in between us. Something was wrong, she was was running from me.

And in the state I was in, I wouldn't stand a chance at catching her if she was persistent about putting any more distance between us.

"Y/N." I knew she could hear me, her body froze up momentarily as my voice hit her ears.

But then she kicked herself into high gear, pretending not to hear a thing.

Was she really ignoring me?

I could feel the pit in my side aching, it felt like I had just ran a marathon.

I didn't regret a thing, the feeling of Y/N and her ass was the best in the world. I'd do it to myself all over again if it meant I could be inside her. And feel what we feel when we are with each other, just experiencing each other.

Seeing more distance come between us I bring the back of my forearm up to my forehead and then lean into a tree. I was a panting mess, the explosion definitely fucked me up. More so then I was leading on, it was taking everything in me not to buckle over and vomit.

But I needed to get to her and fix this.

I watched as her black wet hair swayed side to side, barley brushing her ass as she disappeared into camp. Yup, she was running.

She knew there was no point, I'd catch her eventually. She was never really good at hiding from me for long, I'd always find her.

Taking a deep breath I push myself up off the tree and force my legs forward.

Coming into camp I can see Y/N grabbing a bowl. She was getting in line to grab some stew that Hange was distributing to the others.