Temptation [ Min Yoongi | ENG ]

T W E N T Y N I N E

I was sitting in the cafe across from PH. Grietje and Julian were sitting at one of the tables that were already set out on the sidewalk.

Spring, as always, was shy, but the sunny days already convinced us that we should take advantage of all the vitamin D that is possible. Evi arrived, greeted them and headed inside the bar.

I was so distracted by the scene and immersed in the music that I was hearing that I got startled when I heard my name being called so close to me.

"Hi... sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." He said standing next to me. His eyes on mine.

"It's okay, Nanook."

"Can I sit with you? It's been a while since we last talked."

I took off my headphones and moved a little aside for him to sit in the seat next to me.

"Are you all right?"

"Yes, Nanook, and with you? Do you need something?"

"No. I mean, I'm fine, but I don't need anything. I saw you out here alone and decided to come and talk to you."

"Ah yes. I usually come here when I get there first and wait for some of my friends to arrive at the bar before I join them."

I looked out and saw that Evi was already sitting outside, with her usual glass of sweet white wine. Maud and Lotte had also arrived in the last few minutes.

Nanook followed my gaze and observed my friends sitting together.

"I always found the dynamics of your group interesting." He said disinterestedly.

"Yes?" I turned back to him.

"How long have you been friends?"

"Hm... Maud, Lotte, Timo and I have been studying together since we started Basisschool. Evi and Tulip came to our school when we were about 10 years old. Grietje and Dirk met us when we joined HAVO."

"And Yoongi..."

"He studied with Dirk at the university. But what interests you in our dynamics? "

"The fact that you all date each other." Your answer made me feel strange.

"I wouldn't say that." I replied defensively.

"Hasn't Dirk dated Maud, Grietje, Lotte, Grietje again and now he is Lotte again?" He asked, well informed.

"Hm... he has, but he dated Maud for a few weeks when we were 13. I don't know if it counts. The thing with Lotte and Grietje started a few years later, when we were 16 years old. "

"And now Evi and Maud are also together."

"Yes."

"And you and Yoongi." His voice was casual, almost disinterested, although he was the one who started this conversation.

"Yes, for 3 months now..."

"Yoongi has hooked up with Evi before, right?"

"Oh, yes... I didn't even remember. It was when we were still at the university, I lived in Groningen at the time." I turned to look outside again and saw, through the window, Yoongi drinking his beer with his eyes fixed on me. His look was hard and made me uncomfortable, as if I had been caught doing something wrong. "How do you know all this?"

"I studied at the same schools as you all my life. I was two years ahead of you, being older, but I had some friends from the Field Hockey team in your class, don't you remember me? "

"Um... no."

"It's all right." He smiled and continued. "I think I already told you. After I graduated I went to study in Amsterdam and stayed there. I only came back at the beginning of last year when I started at NEP. "

"But even so, you know things that happened when you were already in Amsterdam."

"Ah yes, a good friend of mine, Renko, studied with Dirk and Yoongi at the University. He is their friend today, have you met him?"

"No."

"He lives in Amsterdam, he comes here very little." He paused briefly. "Are you and Yoongi really serious?" He returned to speak and I looked down to roll my eyes. I was already tired of this conversation.

"Yes." I made no effort to hide my disdain for your question.

"Hm..." he noticed and studied his next words. The silence stretched, increasing my irritation. "I find it interesting that you never gave me a real chance, but now you're dating someone that as far as I know, you couldn't stand."

"Do you really think this is interesting?" I spat. "Really? Interesting? Is that the word you want to use?"

"Well, maybe not. Maybe I wanted to use the words jealous and curious."

"Nanook, you are a great guy. You're cool, good looking and good in bed. But I didn't know that you were looking for a chance. And I will not say that it is your fault. We met at a very bad time in my life and I honestly wasn't paying attention to you. Then Yoongi seized an opportunity he had and showed me that my opinion of him was wrong and since then has been good to be with him."

"I could have shown you that it's worth it to be with me, if I had the chance," he said and I realized that he didn't hear much of what I said.

"Nanook. I am not worth it. Really. I'm with Yoongi now and he created the opportunity that I talked about, but he always knew that it was not worth waiting for an opportunity with me. I'm sorry that you're jealous right now, but you don't deserve me to be the cause of that feeling."

"You know he's crazy, right? He had to stop studying and everything." His speech made me feel an absurd and instantaneous rage.

"He and I have more in common than you think, Nanook. You should be careful about the arguments you choose to use with people you don't really know."

I stood up without giving him an opportunity to answer me. As soon as I left the cafe my gaze sought Yoongi's, which I knew was still in me. He got up and came to meet me around the corner while I crossed the street.

He stopped beside me, studying my face, my expression irritated, my lips in a thin line. I looked at him and saw him lighting a cigarette, which he offered me after it was lit. He lit one for him too and followed my gaze, who was already looking at the street, but nothing specific. After a while I broke the silence.

"Fucking asshole."