Temptation [ Min Yoongi | ENG ]

S I X T Y S I X

I got out of the shower to hear my cell phone beeping non-stop. I decided to get dressed before I saw what was going on.

I was done when I felt under my pillow and found the noisy object.

I unlocked the screen and saw the notifications dripping. Apparently Yoongi released a mixtape in which he raps and sings. He told the group, after thanking all the compliments and congratulations, that rap was something he hadn't really done in years, since he entered university, and had all the issues he had. He only kept composing and recording guides for other artists. The vocals were a new experience, encouraged by the boys he is producing.

I clicked the link he sent on impulse and saw the song titles: Intro: The Most Beautiful Moment In Life; Hold Me Tight; Run; People; Interlude: Set Me Free; Save Me; Make It Right; 28; Other: Love Is Not Over (full length version).

All the English titles made me think. Some were a statement, others were a request. I was curious and opened the link to my music app, saving the album to my library.

I looked at the clock and saw that it was almost time for me to start working. I ran down the stairs and took the bike that was in my little shed.

I managed to get to the publishing house in time to find out that a fuse had blown at some point during the weekend and an electrician would be needed to fix the problem.

I went up to my office, took my computer and put it in a returnable bag that I left on my desk.

I smoked a cigarette while listening to everyone talk about what they would do. The initial proposal was to work from home and I strongly supported it. I had to submit some chapters and there was very little work left, I didn't want to waste time talking about something that would be fixed soon and that I couldn't do anything about.

I sat at my kitchen table and sank my face into the computer. A few hours later my belly started to bother me and compromised my concentration. I went to my counter, got some raisin bread and my phone and went to sit on the terrace.

I unlocked my phone screen for the first time in hours and realized that it was still on my music app with Yoongi's mixtape open. I selected the first song to play and deactivated the shuffle.

The first thing I heard was his wheezing breath and memories invaded my mind, but soon a piano and a soft melody started to play, being accompanied by his voice in a steady stream. There was irritation in his voice, it was anger. I heard him exclaim "God damn it" and I was curious about what he was talking about.

That first song ended quickly and then a new melody on the piano started. This time I felt terrible sadness. Anguish. Other people were in the music, a rapper with a voice thicker than his and vocalists with a voice like honey. I heard him harmonize with one of the vocalists. It gave me goosebumps. They asked me "can you trust me?". What was he talking about? When he finally rapped I didn't understand what he was saying, but I felt my heart get heavy.

In the third song there were still mixed feelings, almost ambivalent, but the energy was mostly positive. I would need to hear those songs again after reading the translations for the lyrics. The rapper with the deep voice said "love is a lie", but I didn't understand the context.

The energy changed again in the song that followed. Its flow was more melodic. He asked "why so serious?" and then I was surprised by him singing in the chorus. His voice was also soft, but so different from his spoken voice and I felt calm.