Temptation [ Min Yoongi | ENG ]

T H I R T Y F I V E

He had been in South Korea for a few days now, and I honestly wasn't dealing well with the time difference.

In the first three days talking to him was brutally hard and when I was already plunging into frustration we decided to pre-set times.

I woke up half an hour earlier to talk to him, who would already be in the middle of the afternoon, with the difference of eight hours between us. Then, during my lunch hour, we exchanged more messages, in addition to the single and random messages we sent during the day.

I was sitting on the couch in the living room, holding my iPad like a lifeguard, waiting for him to call me, it was finally Saturday and we would have time to talk.

When his face appeared in front of me, I felt all the emotions that I felt during the week hit me hard. I couldn't stop a tear from falling.

His smile soon disappeared and his eyes, before two lines on his face, became big.

"Hey, Roos! What's going on?"

"Argh! Don't worry!" I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes and meowed "I didn't know I missed you so much."

"Ah! You're so cute!" He smiled again "I missed you a lot too."

"But it's not the same. You have busy days and I'm here all alone, just missing you."

"It is unfair that you want to compare." His countenance had changed again, this time his brow was furrowed and he was clearly uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry." I took a deep breath to put my thoughts in order. "You're right."

"Other than missing me, how are you?" He changed the subject to prevent our frustrations caused by our longing from spoiling our virtual meeting.

I told him about how I was managing to keep interactions with Theo under control at work. Jaap was being a good shield for me and the extra weekly therapy sessions were still enough for me not to be so distressed by the whole situation. After two months, the more time passed, the more successful I felt about it.

He told me about the relatives he visited, the places where he ate and a mountain outside the city that he had gone for tracking.

We hung up when he was no longer able to keep his eyes open and I went in search of my cell phone.

"Normale vrienden"
June 11

Dirk
PH TODAY !!
11:23

Maud
What is it?
Why are you screaming?
11:29

Dirk
I have news!
11:45

Evi
Aaaaah what is it?
11:46

Tulip
Ah there we go! You just have to mention
a mystery, that Evi appears hahahaha
11:46

Evi
You too!
11:51

Tulip
=P
11:55

Dirk
You need to be there to find out!
11:59

Yoongi
Yaaah!
Tell it in this group too!
12:04

Dirk
Sorry, buddy!
I'll tell you later.
12:05

Timo
What time at the PH today, then?
13:33

Lotte
Dirk and I are thinking
of arriving early. About 16:00
13:36

Timo
Sweet! I can do this timer.
13:42

Maud
See you there!
13:57

Grietje
Oh no! I've just seen this now!
I'm also curious.
I'll be there in an hour.
15:48

Roos
I just hung up with Yoongi.
16:58

Maud
COME
17:03

Dirk
COME!
17:03

Evi
Come on already!
17:03

Timo
Come
17:04

Roos
WOW! Wait!
17:04

Tulip
COMEEEEE
17:04

Roos
I'm leaving the house,
I'll be there shortly.
17:12

The Netherlands decided to have a summer day and I was able to go out in the street wearing only shorts and a T-shirt. The forecast for the night was at least 18 degrees. I felt like I was in paradise.

I found everyone at the table, but it, like it had been the last few days, looked empty. I pushed that feeling away. My head made it look like Yoongi would be in Korea for 10 years, when in reality in two weeks we would be together again.

Dirk was waiting for me to arrive to tell his news. Which was, in reality, to summon us to help Lotte moving to his apartment.

After hearing this non novelty, since I was going to help anyway, I got up to fetch a beer and sit at one of the tables outside the bar.

I was leaning against the back of the seat, with a cigarette in my hand and my face to the sun with my eyes closed when I heard someone sitting next to me.

"Hey kitty..." I opened my eyes to see Grietje beside me.

"Hi kitty." I smiled back at her.

"I don't want to be nosy, but how are things with you?"

"It's okay to ask... but why do you ask?"

"You've been kind of weird since before Yoongi went to South Korea."

"I am?" I reflected a little on what she told me "I think I'm not dealing well with the fact that he is so far away... which is stupid."

"I don't think it's stupid. These matters of the heart never are."

I kept thinking about what she was saying.

"What we feel is not stupid. Stupid is what we do with what we feel." She continued "throughout my history with Dirk, I don't think that anything I felt was not legitimate... but I know that I made a lot of mistakes in the choices I made."

I listened to her in silence. And I think I understood what she was trying to tell me. I took her hand and intertwined our fingers. Grietje was my most reserved friend and I always felt privileged when she shared something with me.