The 10th Commandment

chapter 60

CHAPTER 60

ANGELARRA’S P.O.V

Saya dikejutkan dari tidur apabila saya terasa nafas yang hangat di leher saya dan tangan melingkar pinggang saya… 

Reflex saya tersentak dan menampar tangan tersebut… I screamed…
“go away! don’t touch me!”

I heard a sharp intake of breath… then…
“sayang…”

“Sy… Syd?” suara saya bergetar… I’m shaking…

Ini bukan mimpi kan?

Suasana dalam bilik saya sangat malap… saya sengaja mematikan semua lampu… gelap dan mati seperti hati dan perasaan saya beberapa saat lalu…

But I can still see Sydney’s silhouette in the dark of the night…

Dia nampak kemas, bersih… like he’s not hurt… were Nielson and Lilia just a dream? a bad nightmare? I throw my self into Sydney’s arms…

Please… please… let this be real… let Sydney be alive…

“sayang…” tangis saya pecah…
“sss…” Sydney meringis… kesakitan?

Rupanya di sebalik baju dia, he has a bandaged over his left shoulder…

Yes, Sydney is real… he is alive… No, this is not a dream… and yes, Sydney was nearly killed… Nielson and Lilia were real afterall…

I cringed thinking of the incident that afternoon…

“I love you, Angelarra…” Sydney whispered… his eyes burning into mine…

“I love you more, Sydney…” saya membelai pipi Sydney dengan penuh kasih sayang…

I love you, Syd… I love you so so much and how I wish I have met you first…

How I wish Kurtis never came into my life…

How I wish I can turn back time and never fell for Kurtis…

But none of my wishes can be fulfilled…

I remembered Lilia… how she left you for her family… she chose her family…

And I remembered I promised you that not so long ago…
“if we were to fall in love, I would never let my family get in the way…”

Saya tidak akan meninggalkan kau kerana keluarga saya, Syd…

Namun… namun… saya terpaksa…

-flashback-

Saya menjerit-jerit untuk dilepaskan… saya mau berada di sisi Sydney… he was shot and losing blood! Saya menendang-nendang dan menumbuk belakang Kurtis yang sedang mengangkat saya tanpa kerelaan saya…

“let me go!” I screamed again and again… until I saw London and Holland…

Then di luar bangunan using ada Hudson, Jordan and Jason… I calmed down a little… no, a lot…

I calmed down a lot thinking that Kurtis called them for help…

“I’m sending you back to your house…” setelah beberapa minit Kurtis akhirnya bersuara…

“I want to go to…” saya mau pergi rumah Kimmy… I want to wait for dorang London sana… and I’m sure Sydney will be there or at the hospital…

“no…” he cut me off…

Saya mengernyit… I didn’t like his commanding tone… I’m not used to his commands anymore… dulu mungkin… sudah lebih sedekad lamanya…