First Signs of Fall (COMPLETED)

Epilogue

"Has anyone said to you that you look shit right now?"

I shook my head as we walked to on-call room. I can feel my body is so damn tired because of our internship. But I don't have a choice to do this. I'm already graduating in a couple of months. I just need to push myself forward until I get there.

Layla immediately lay down to the bed as soon as we got there. Kinuha ko ang isang upuan at umupo roon. Walang nag-salita saamin dalawa. I know she's also tired. We rarely see each other here. We're both busy to chasing our dreams but I felt like any time soon, I'm going to passed out because of exhaustion.

"Let's go and grab something," sabi ni Layla. Naramdaman kong nasa likod ko siya.

"No, I'll rest."

"What? Kumain ka na ba? You always skipped-"

"Rest is more important to me right now, Layla. I'll just take a nap."

I place my arms on the table and place my head there. I closed my eyes. I wish Layla let me go this time. I'm really tired. Alam ko naman na hindi na ako minsan nakakakain sa tamang oras. As if I have a time. As interns, we always need to be on standby.

"Alam mo bang pumapayat ka na?" Rinig kong sabi niya. I chose not to respond her. I'm recharging. Sinusulit ko ang bawat minuto dahil hindi ko na alam kung anong oras ko maipipikit ang mata ko. "Do you want anything?"

"No, I'm fine." I whispered.

"I'll buy you some. Rest well."

So stubborn.

Nang maramdaman ko na nakaalis siya ay muli kong dinilat ang mata ko at inangat ang ulo ko. Kinuha ko ang papel na lagi kong dala mag-mula nang internship ko. I unfolded the paper and read again the words that always remind me why am I taking this path again.

It's been what? 5 years? I don't know. All I know is I miss her. I'm longing to the woman I love the most in this planet. Kamusta na kaya siya? I hope she's happy where she is right now.

Dear Micheal,

This is my first time writing a letter to someone. I haven't done this to anyone. Never. As in not once. I'm more straightforward person but not that vocal. Gets mo naman ako diba?

As you read this, I was writing this the same day our hearts collide to each other. I still remember everything. From how we start and as where we are now. A year of falling to your arms, officially.

Thank you for loving me, Micheal. Thank you for everything. Hinihiling ko na sana maraming taon pa ang lumipas na mag-kasama tayong dalawa. I hope we're still holding each other hands towards to our dream.

I'll promise that I hold on tighter to your hands. Whether the darkness come to us, I won't let you go. I pray you too.

Alam kong marami pa tayong pag-dadaanan at sana'y hawak-hawak pa rin natin ang kamay ng isa't-isa patungo sa kanya-kanya nating pangarap.

As always, I said, keep pushing forward to your dream. Your own dream, Micheal. A dream that you can see yourself smiling and enjoying. Not for anyone else.

And if you feel giving up, you can read this letter and I hope it motivates you in the future.

Imagine you're wearing your own doctors robe and me, the nurse. Together.

Are you imaging it? Ang ganda diba? Then, keep moving forward! We'll get there.

Lastly, I love you, Micheal.