Forced to live with Sway LA

Chapter 67

Tuesday (3:00 am)
Dream
Jake: guess who's back (smirks)
Lexie: w what are you doing here? You've been gone leave me alone
Jake: you didn't actually think you could get rid of me did you (laughs)
Lexie: your not real, I am dreaming your not real, your not real I am in control of my dreams
Jake: if that were true and I wasn't real would I be able to do this (strokes her cheek)
Lexie: (closes her eyes) please don't touch me
Jake: aw babygirl come on i know you probably miss my touch don't you? (His hands travel down) I know you miss the feeling I give you when I do this (starts to rub her through her panties)
Lexie: (tears streaming down her face) please stop this isn't real I am going to wake up and I am going to be in the bed with Jaden and josh
Jake: you and I both know that's not true your not even at home anymore, your family fell apart so looks like your stuck with me (looks her in the eyes)
Lexie: no no no that's not true!!
End of dream
Jaden's pov
I woke up to an ear piercing scream and quickly threw the covers off of me and ran into Lexie's room to see tears streaming down her face and trying to kick the sheets I quickly walked over to her and pulled her into my arms and started rocking her back and forth hoping she would wake up soon while also whispering in her ear trying to get her out of the dream and a few minutes later her eyes opened and she looked around the room, and her breathing was intense. I held onto her hands and stroked them in little circles trying to get her to calm down but when she finally looked at me she quickly pulled her hands away and got off of my lap.
End of pov
Jaden: Lexie I know you don't want anything to do with me right now but you just had a nightmare please just come here and let me comfort you
Lexie: no your right I don't want anything to do with you... this is your fault Jaden! You took me away from the boys, you took me away from my home and you took me away from everything that I knew once again you fucked up!! Don't talk to me I don't want to even see you (walks out of her room tears streaming down her face and opens Quinton's door and lightly shakes him)
Quinton: (opens his eyes) hmm (looks over at Lexie) what happened?
Lexie: I h had a nightmare c can I s stay with you I d don't w w want to be n near j Jaden (cries)
Quinton: aww come here (picks her up and holds her) it's okay shh calm down (runs his fingers through her hair)
Lexie: I i t t took e everything I in m me n not too g g go into h his arms b but a at the s same t time I a am mad at him and I don't want to be (cries)
Quinton: I know it's okay you have every right to feel that way I promise but I am sure Jaden's feeling hurt that you pushed him away...
Lexie: I d don't c care h h he hurt me b by t taking a away e everything (wraps her arms around his neck)
Quinton's pov
Lexie finally calmed down in my arms after an hour and closed her eyes and fell asleep and eventually I closed my eyes and fell asleep too.
End of pov
Jaden's pov
I couldn't sleep, I missed josh and Lexie's words just kept playing over and over again in my mind I knew that this was going to affect her, it's affecting all of us but I don't know how to get out of it and it's killing me. I picked up my phone and saw it was now four in the morning and decided to see if josh was awake since it was eight in the morning in Miami which is still rare but he might be up working out. I called him and three seconds later he answered the FaceTime.
End of pov
Josh: hey babe what's up isn't it like three in the morning over there
Jaden: four actually
Josh: damn what are you doing awake? Did Lexie have a nightmare is she okay?
Jaden: she woke up screaming so I went to go check on her and when she finally opened her eyes and realized it was me comforting her she immediately pushed me away and walked to Quinton's room,
Josh this is killing me (starts crying)
Josh: hey please don't cry because if you cry then I am going to start and we are both going to cry (jokes)
Jaden: (cracks a smile) what do I do?
Josh: take her out for the day, she has to see Callie today anyway so after just try and do something fun show her that your still there for her no matter how hard she pushes you away
Jaden: she wants nothing do with me josh... what if I lose my little sister for good? She's my baby I can't do this to her
Josh: do you want to tell her the truth...
Jaden: of course I do but I know that she's going to go off on the managers and the record label and i can't have that happen either
Josh: you know how people say you can't have it both ways... this is that kind of situation you either deal with Lexie being angry at you which will go away eventually I promise you or you lose the chance at releasing the album you've worked so hard on and i swear Jaden we didn't not go through a fake public break up, moving out of different houses and dealing with Lexie's emotions just for nothing, all of this has to be worth it and mean it and if you release this album your going to change so many people's lives and it would have been worth it don't lose sight of that
Jaden: wouldn't that be selfish though? Putting my career and my dream before making sure Lexie's okay?
Josh: your still making sure Lexie's okay, you still love her and taking care of her she's just angry right now it'll go away
Jaden: are you sure?
Josh: yeah now I gotta go because we are going to the marlin's stadium so I'll catch up with you later I love you
Jaden: I love you too (blows a kiss)
End of phone convo
Jaden's pov
I put my phone down and closed my eyes and fell back asleep after.
End of pov
A few hours later
Quinton: Lexie time to wake up (lightly shakes her shoulder)
Lexie: (whines) no
Quinton: come on you have to get up, Jaden's waiting downstairs for you
Lexie: tell him to fuck off (pulls the sheets over her head)
Quinton: Lexie get up and get ready okay? I know you don't want him to come up here so just listen
Lexie's pov
I thought about what Quinton said and i decided to get up because I know exactly what I am going to do when I get to therapy today... and let's just say if it all goes well I'll never have to go to therapy again. I got out of the bed and walked into the room where my clothes are and walked into the closet to pull out one of the outfits I bought yesterday which was a red top similar to the one last night except it's attached by four really thin cross strings and white short shorts that had silver chains around my thigh and some sneakers and walked downstairs to see coop, Q and Jaden in the kitchen and Jaden looked at me.
End of pov
Jaden: I give up where what you want
Lexie: seriously?
Jaden: quite frankly I don't have the energy to fight with you today so eat some cereal and let's go
Lexie: okay.... (looks at him strangely and pours a bowl of cereal and sits on the couch)
Fifteen minutes later
Jaden: alright let's go what are you guys going to do? (Looks at Q and coop)
Cooper: probably the skatepark since we don't have to go to the studio today
Jaden: alright we'll catch up with you guys later
Quinton: good luck at therapy and don't give him a hard time okay Lexie?
Lexie: no promises (walks out of the front door)
Jaden: thanks for trying
Lexie's pov
Jaden got in the drivers seat and tried talking to me but I every time he did I just turned up the radio and started singing to whatever song was on until he eventually gave up and I felt my phone vibrate in pocket so I took it out to see I got a text from Mike.
End of pov
Text convo
Mike: hey lex what are you doing today?
Lexie: forced to go to therapy but I kind of don't want to go why?
Mike: want to meet up after? We can go do something
Lexie: sure actually why don't you meet me at the therapist office, I won't be long and you can be my scapegoat 😂
Mike: something tells me you have something up your sleeve
Lexie: don't I always?
Mike: I want to see this just text me the Addy and when I should head over there
Lexie: okay
End of text convo
Lexie's pov
We pulled up to the therapist office and i unclipped my seatbelt and got out of the car while Jaden looked at me curiously probably wondering why I haven't made a run for it or given him a hard time and that's probably because i have some tubing better up my sleeve that he doesn't know about. We walked into the building and he signed me in while I just sat on the chair waiting to get called in when I got a text from Clare who I haven't spoken to since I found out about the podcast.
End of pov
Text convo
Clare: hey lex I just wanted to check in and see how you're doing, I saw the Hollywood fix video of Jaden and nessa's date last night I am so sorry
Lexie: it's fine, I am fine
Clare: no your not but I am here if you want to talk
Lexie: no thanks anyways I just got called in to see Callie so I'll catch up with you later
Clare: okayyy
End of text convo
In Callie's office
Callie: so Lexie how are you?
Lexie: fine
Callie: you know you don't have to pretend to be okay right? I may be a therapist but I don't live under a rock I know about josh and Jaden and I know about the
Lexie: let me guess Hollywood fix video right? Yeah I have heard about it too and you know what if Jaden wants to date emo Barbie instead of blonde Barbie then that's his choice I don't give a fuck (crosses her arms)
Callie: really? You changed your hair style and clothing because you don't give a fuck?
Lexie: exactly
Callie: people don't make these random decisions just because something in their life triggers them and you know what I think
Lexie: no but your probably going to tell me aren't you? (Pulls out her phone and texts mike)
Text convo
Lexie: start coming
Mike: I am on my way
End of text convo
Callie: I think you felt like everything happening was out of your control so you did the only thing you could think of that gave you control back which was your hair and clothes, you can't change what's happening around you or the situation so you changed yourself
Lexie: nice observation Callie do you want a medal?
Callie: no but I do want you to talk to me we have talked about this before I can't
Lexie: help me if you don't help yourself blah blah I have heard it before and you know what I think, I think i am officially done with therapy so you can take your notes or whatever it is that you write down and store in your brain and go fuck yourself (gets off the couch and walks out of the room)
Jaden's pov
I was scrolling through my phone and answering texts when I saw Lexie walk out to waiting room and then looked at the time and saw it was only twelve twenty which means she still had another twenty minutes before I got called in so i put my phone in my pocket and walked over to her.
End of pov
Jaden: where are you going? Therapy isn't over yet
Lexie: yeah it is, I quit therapy
Jaden: what do you mean you quit therapy? You can't quit therapy because you don't have a choice
Lexie: actually yeah I do so I quit and told Callie to go fuck herself and walked away (continues walking to the front door but Jaden pulls her back)
Jaden: you did what!?!?!?
Lexie: I told her to go fuck herself and walked away what do you not understand now let go of me
Jaden: no you are going to go back there and apologize to Callie right now!
Lexie: no I am not now I am just saying if you don't want me to do something I regret you'll let go of my arm
Jaden: alright I am sick of this first it was yesterday and I am not dealing with it today
(Jade tries to turn Lexie around but she kicks him in the knee and he lets go, she runs out of the building where mike is waiting for her at the entrance she hops into the passenger seat and looks at him)
Lexie: no time for questions just drive
Jaden: LEXIE MARIE HOSSLER YOU GET BACK HERE RIGHT NOW!! (Chases after her)
Lexie: drive!! (Looks at mike)
Mike: okay okay (puts the car in drive and drives off)
Jaden: FUCK!!
(Callie walks outside to the front of the building)
Callie: is everything okay Jaden?
Jaden: no Callie with all due respect nothing is okay right now
Callie: do you want to come with me inside and we can talk?
Jaden: (looks at her) you have patient confidentiality agreements right?
Callie: yeah
Jaden: (takes a deep breath) then I would love to talk
Callie: come inside (smiles)
Scene change
Mike: what just happened? (Laughs)
Lexie: ran away from Jaden and the therapist and might I say you were the perfect escape I can't believe that actually worked!! (Rolls the window down and turns up the music) so where are we going?
Mike: wherever you want?
Lexie: anywhere there's alcohol sounds good to me (takes out a pill bottle from her purse)
Mike: what's that?
Lexie: OxyContin
Mike: shit lex let me guess you got it from Jason
Lexie: yup (pops the pill in her mouth)
Mike: your crazy you know that (shakes his head)
Lexie: yup but you love it (kisses his cheek)
Mike: I mean would have preferred a kiss on the lips but a cheek works too
Lexie: just wait till we get to wherever we are going and I'll give you more then just a kiss
Mike: is that a promise?
Lexie: hmm maybe (winks at him)
Mike: I know the perfect place we can go (makes a right turn)
Scene change
(Jaden is in Callie's office explaining the situation to her)
Callie: wow Jaden I am so sorry I had no idea a management team or record label can do that like I know people set up Hollywood couples all the time but I always thought both people agreed to it
Jaden: not all the time and now I don't know what to do (puts his head in his hands) I can't tell Lexie because she'd run to the media and expose everything but I hate having to put her through this I know behind all the black and the hair she's hurting and she's just pushing me away again and blaming me which I can't be mad at because technically this is all my fault not only that but I literally went on my first public date with nessa last night, the paparazzi is eating it up of course but fifty percent of fans are saying all these things to me like how could I do that to josh, and I am the backstabber and then on the other half there are the fans that actually are happy about nessa and I am so overwhelmed Callie and I miss being with my boyfriend (tears start streaming down his face)
Callie: (hands him a tissue) you know Jaden there are clouds that people have to go through before you see the sun and from what I have heard you have a story to tell on this album, yes Lexie's important and you do so much for her as it is but you can't put everything on hold for her either or you'll end up resenting her...
Jaden: I could never do that she's my baby sister (wipes his tears)
Callie: you say that now but what happens five years from now and you didn't put out the album and got dropped from the label, you would blame her and that's the last thing that little girl needs, right now what she needs more then ever is her big brother to tell her everything is going to be okay despite what she sees in front of her, tell her she can push you away all she wants it's not going to change anything your there for her that's what she needs even if she's angry
Jaden: thank you Callie... and I am sorry for what she said to you today I don't know why in the world she would think that was okay
Callie: it's okay I understand the situation now and she's just lashing out I am still going to be her therapist and I expect to see her next Tuesday okay? (Smiles)
Jaden: okay thank you so much Callie (hugs her)
Callie: your welcome
Scene change
Lexie's pov
Turns out the place that mike thought of was his house because his parents are out of town and he has alcohol so we decided to just chill at his house. We took tequila shots and now we are currently skinny dipping in the pool when my phone started ringing and I got a FaceTime call from josh. I didn't bother answering it for obvious reasons and it kept ringing but I just ignored it and went back to making out with mike.
End of pov
Mike: you are so hot you know that?
Lexie: hmm so are you (kisses his neck)
Mike: show me what else those lips can do baby girl
Lexie: w what d did you just call me?
Mike: babygirl why?
Lexie: d don't call me that
Mike: why not? (Pulls her closer to him) I thought girls liked being called baby girl (whispers in her ear)
Lexie: you know what I don't feel like doing this anymore (pulls away from him)
Mike: oh come on lex don't be such a tease now (pouts)
Lexie: I am not I just I want to go home I'll see you later Mike
Lexie's pov
I quickly got out of the pool and grabbed my outfit and looked at myself in the mirror but I automatically felt uncomfortable in it and wanted it off so I walked back over to mike.
End of pov
Lexie: c can I h have a h hoodie or something? (Wraps a towel around her)
Mike: yeah sure upstairs in my closet, do you want me to drop you off at home?
Lexie: can you take me to sway?
Mike: yeah get dressed and I'll take you
Lexie: t thanks
Mike: no problem
Lexie's pov
I walked back inside his house and towards his closet where I found a dark blue hoodie and some sweats and put them on and grabbed my outfit and walked downstairs where Mike was waiting for me with his keys in his hand and we got in his car and drove to sway. Twenty minutes later we were pulling into the driveway and mike parked the car.
End of pov
Mike: listen lex I am sorry if I said or did anything that triggered you I didn't mean to... I forgot about your past for a minute and
Lexie: it's fine I don't care just don't call me baby girl again okay (gets out of the car)
Mike: yeah sure and again I am sorry
Lexie: I said it's fine bye Mike I'll text you
Lexie's pov
I didn't bother waiting for mike to respond because I was already walking towards the front door and knocked on it and two seconds later Noah opened the door and immediately pulled me into a hug.
End of pov
Noah: where have you been!? Do you know Jaden told us what you did at the therapist office! What were you thinking kicking him and getting in the car of some boy we don't even know!!!
Lexie: p please n Noah just d don't y yell at m m me right now
Noah's pov
I looked at Lexie when she started stuttering and noticed she was practically shaking so I stopped yelling at her and just held her until she stopped shaking.
End of pov
Noah: do you want to talk about it?
Lexie: n no
Noah: okay what do you want to do?
Lexie: I don't want to say it (looks down)
Noah: what's wrong lex just please talk to me
Lexie: I i w want to b b b be
Noah: you want to be little?
Lexie: (nods her head) I I had a nightmare last n night and j just now I w was with m mike a a and
Noah: and what? Did he do anything to you!?
Lexie: (shakes her head) h h he c called m me b baby girl and t that's w what j Jake u used to c call me a so i got flashbacks (cries)
Noah: shh shh it's okay (picks her up) you can be little if you want, if it's going to help take your mind off everything it's okay to slip into little space honey
Lexie: are you sure?
Noah: yeah come on let's go make a bottle and you can see the rest of the boys yeah?
Lexie: yeah
(Noah walks into the kitchen where the others boys are and Bryce looks like he's ready to yell again so Lexie hides her head in the crook of his neck)
Noah: not now Bryce okay?
Bryce: fine but I am going to text Jaden and josh that your safe and here they are freaking out right now (pulls out his phone)
Text convo
Bryce: Lexie's here
Jaden: thank god is she drunk? High? Anything?
Bryce: I don't think so I was going to yell but Noah said to let it go and he's making her a bottle now we are going to try and get her into little space
Jaden: good she needs it
Josh: sorry it took a while I was filming BFF'S but when was the last time she was little?
Jaden: it's been a couple days, all this stress might be finally catching up to her, can you call me when she's in little space so I can go pick her up?
Bryce: yeah don't worry
Jaden: thanks
End of text convo
Noah's pov
The bottle was ready and I sat on the couch with her and turned the tv onto Barbie knowing she would slip quicker and pressed the bottle to her lips and she started sucking on the milk and ten minutes later she finished it.
End of pov
Lexie: where bubba? (Looks at Noah)
Noah: he's not here but do you want me to call him?
Lexie: and dada
Kio: baby dada's in Miami right now
Lexie: b b but I w want d dada and b bubba (whines)
Bryce: I'll call bubba and then we can FaceTime dada okay?
Lexie: otay
A few minutes later
Ring ring ring
Blake: josh is calling back
Lexie: dada
(Lexie claps her hands while Blake answers the FaceTime call and Lexie let's put a squeal when she sees josh)
Josh: (laughs) hey baby
Lexie: I miss you (pouts)
Josh: I miss you too but I'll be home soon, what are you doing now?
Lexie: I watch Barbie wif Noah, where you?
Josh: I am in Miami with griffin you want to say hi to him?
Lexie: yeah!
Josh: okay (hands the phone to griffin)
Griffin: hey cutie!
Lexie: griff griff!! Where you?
Griffin: I am with josh in Miami but we'll be home soon okay?
Lexie: otay
Josh: we gotta go get ready for a dinner baby but we'll call you soon okay?
Lexie: otay I love you dada (blows a kiss through the phone)
Josh: I love you too princess (blows a kiss back)
End of FaceTime
Lexie: bubba? (Looks up at Noah)
Bryce: I called him and he should be
Knock knock... here I'll go get it (gets up and opens the door) hey bro
Jaden: hey B where is she?
Bryce: living room come on (they walk into the living room)
Lexie: bubba!!! (Gets off Noah and runs to him and makes grabby hands)
Jaden: (picks her up and places her on his hip) hey princess what were you doing?
Lexie: watch Barbie, you watch too?
Jaden: we can watch it when we get home but it's getting late and we have to get going okay?
Lexie: go where? (Looks at him curiously)
Jaden's pov
Fuck I forgot little Lexie pretty much has no idea what's going on and i know this sounds selfish but right now little Lexie doesn't want to kill me and I want to keep it that way but at the same time she's going to flip if I tell her we are going to a new house. What if tell her it's cooper's house? No I can't do that I can't keep lying to her, I was having a mental battle in my mind until Blake took me out of my thoughts.
End of pov
Blake: what Jaden meant to say was he can't cuddle because he has to go get dinner for tonight but Noah and I will go so you can watch Barbie with him okay?
Lexie: otay, cuddle time? (Looks at Jaden)
Jaden: yeah sure come on
(Jaden sits on the couch with Lexie wrapping her arms around him and a little while later she closes her eyes and falls asleep)
Two hours later
Lexie's pov
I opened my eyes and the first thing I realized I was laying on someone and at first I thought it was Noah since he was the last person I cuddled with but when I saw the tattooed arm I knew it was Jaden. I quickly got off his lap which caused him to wake up.
End of pov
Lexie: what the fuck are you doing here?
Jaden: well I see your back
Lexie: you didn't answer my question (crosses her arms)
Jaden: you went into little space and wanted me to come over here
Lexie: ew well you can go now (starts to walk away)
Jaden: (gets off the couch and pulls her arm back) alright listen to me Lexie you can push me away all you want but just know that I am still here and I always will be regardless of how angry you are
Lexie: really? Even if I tell you I hate you like I did this morning
Jaden: yeah because I know you didn't mean it
Lexie: yes I did
Jaden: no you didn't and you know how I know that? Because you love me and you don't want to say it right now
Lexie: yeah because I am angry at you! I am angry that you caught feelings for nessa and turned our entire lives around!!! (Cries)
Jaden's pov
I walked towards Lexie to pull her into my arms and calm her down but she just backed away and then a few minutes later I heard a door slam meaning she went to her room and I sighed and sat down on the couch when I heard footsteps come into the living room and I looked up to see cooper.
End of pov
Cooper: you know she'll come around right
Jaden: everyone keeps telling me that but I don't know, you know she told her therapist to go fuck herself today like where in the world did she logically think that was okay
Cooper: she's angry (shrugs her shoulders) she's going to take it out anyone she wants
Jaden: maybe I should see if she wants to go to the dance studio and let off some steam
Cooper: that's a good idea by the way what should we do for dinner?
Jaden: let's just order Chinese
Cooper: alright (pulls out his phone)
Jaden: I am going to try and talk to her (gets off the couch and knocks on the door)
Lexie: go away!
Jaden: Lexie just open the door please
Lexie: no I want to be alone!
Jaden: how about I take you to the dance studio? Maybe it'll help
Lexie: I don't feel like dancing, I just want to be alone Jaden go away
Jaden: fine I'll come get you when dinner's here which you are going to eat understand?
Lexie: fuck off
(Jaden sighs and walks away)
Lexie's pov
I was in "my" room but this will never be my room just like this will never be my home I don't care what anyone else says. I don't want to be here, I don't feel safe here and I just want to go to my actual house. I decided to get off the bed and take a shower hoping that would calm me down since being in little space isn't really working right now so I took off the hoodie and sweats I had on along with my bra and underwear and turned the water on. I adjusted the temperature to steaming hot since I hadn't done that in a while and almost screamed when my skin hit the water but I stopped myself and eventually got used to it, I washed myself and my hair and then just sat in the water lost in my thoughts until I heard a knock on the door and groaned what the fuck does he want now.
End of pov
Lexie: what!?
Quinton: Jaden says to get out and come eat
Lexie: tell him I am not hungry
Quinton: you know that's not going to work and if you don't want to end up in the hospital one of these days I suggest you come down and eat
Lexie: that's a low blow even for you (takes the plug out of the drain) I'll be out in five
Quinton: okay
Lexie's pov
I got dressed and walked to the kitchen where I saw Chinese food which we hadn't had in a while so I grabbed a bowl and served myself and sat at the table and began to eat without talking to any of them.
End of pov
Twenty minutes Later
Lexie: I am going to bed (puts her bowl in the sink)
Cooper: it's still early why don't we watch a movie
Lexie: I don't want too (walks away)
(The boys sigh and decide to just give her space and go on twitch and start streaming)
Many hours later
Lexie's pov
Well I still haven't slept and I have just been tossing and turning in this bed and It's now four in the morning and I have to be awake at nine to go to high water. I groaned in frustration I didn't want to go to Quinton because I slept with him two nights in a row and I am not close with coop like that yet so the only other option I have is Jaden... ugh I really don't want to but I can't sleep. After tossing and turning another ten minutes I got out of bedroom and walked over to Jaden's room and opened the door. I got under the covers and wrapped my arms around him which woke him up.
End of pov
Lexie: don't talk I am still mad but I tired (buries her head in his chest)
Jaden's pov
A minute later Lex was passed out in my arms and I wrapped them around her waist because I knew tomorrow morning she was going to be back to this new version of herself but for right now she's my baby sister and letting me hold her again so with that thought I closed my eyes and finally fell asleep.
End of pov