Chapter 21

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Tuesday
Beep beep beep
Lexie's pov
I woke up hearing Jaden's alarm going off and I felt him getting up but I grabbed onto his arm not wanting him to leave just yet and I felt him get back in the bed and stroke my hair and I put my head on his chest.
End of pov
Lexie: don't leave
Jaden: I have to go to the studio today sis and you have class with Rafy
Lexie: ugh fine (let's go of Jaden and lays her head on Josh's chest)
Josh: oh I see I am second favorite (opens his eyes)
Lexie: noooo
Jaden: face it josh she likes me better
Josh: no she doesn't right lex
Lexie: I don't like either of you
Josh: oh is that so (starts tickling her)
Lexie: no stop! (Laughing) it's too early
Jaden: (gets back on the bed and starts ticking her) tell josh I am your favorite
Lexie: no I can't (laughs) stop
Josh: fine then say you love both of us
Lexie: that would be lying though (laughs from them tickling her)
Jaden: oh your in for it now kiddo
Lexie: noooo
(Lexie quickly escapes Josh and Jaden and gets off the bed and starts running downstairs but gets caught by Josh who goes back to tickling her)
Lexie: stoppp I am sorry okay I love both of you!!
(Griffin walks downstairs right as josh stops tickling her)
Griffin: do I want to know?
Lexie: nope
Griffin: fair enough (walks into the kitchen)
Jaden: I have to go get ready or I am going to be late
Lexie: nooo (leaves josh and grabs onto Jaden) don't leave me
Jaden: let go of me baby koala
Lexie: stay
Jaden: I can't but I won't take a long time either okay?
Lexie: fine (let's go of Jaden) are you going anywhere today josh?
Josh: no I think I am filming with Blake today you can do the video with us if your done with school
Lexie: okay
Josh: alright I am gonna go work out
Lexie: can I do it with you?
Josh: sure I am gonna make a protein shake first though
Lexie: okay I am gonna get dressed (walks upstairs and runs into Bryce)
Bryce: is Lexie actually in a good mood this morning
Griffin: surprisingly
Lexie's pov
I heard Bryce and griffin but just ignored it and walked upstairs to change into a gray sports bra and matching shorts and then walked downstairs with my phone and headphones to see josh outside drinking his protein shake and the other boys about to join him. I walked over to my little area I had yesterday and started stretching and decided I would focus on my abs and core today since I need to flatten my stomach so I started with crunches and did forty of those and alternated between sit ups so in total i did eighty. Then I did some bicycles and twists and did thirty of each so sixty in total, after that i got up and did some squats, lunges and straddles and disappointingly i lost a lot of my flexibility since I stopped dancing... I miss it but that part of my life is over. I am not a dancer anymore not that I was even good enough to call myself a dancer. About an hour and yes an hour later I would have done two but Noah told me not to overwork myself today and I went to take a shower since I was all sweaty. After my shower I walked downstairs and I realized that this was the second day I have managed to skip breakfast because the boys haven't noticed which isn't a bad thing... I mean it's one meal it's not going to kill me especially since all the boys eat are crappy fast food. I walked into the living room to see the boys talking about what they were going to film and noticed that Rafy was going to be here in an hour.
End of pov
Griffin: lex did you take your ADHD pill yet?
Lexie: no I don't even know where they are
Griffin: oh okay come with me (walks to the kitchen and grabs the pill bottle from the high shelf and takes out one) wait did you eat breakfast?
Lexie: yeah after my shower
Griffin: okay here (hands it to her)
Lexie's pov
Griffin handed me the pill... did I mention I hate pills and swallowing pills, I don't care if they are big or small I just get the worst anxiety with them so when griffin handed me the pill I just stared at it.
End of pov
Griffin: do you want water?
Lexie: hmm
(Griffin hands her a cup of water and waits for her to take the pill just as Bryce is walking in)
Griffin: lex what's wrong just take the pill
Lexie: what if I choke on it?
Bryce: that's what she said (laughs)
(Griffin smacks Bryce upside the head)
Griffin: Bryce!
Bryce: what? Like she hasn't done it
Griffin: I don't care you don't need to say that around her
Bryce: fine I am sorry lex it was inappropriate
Lexie: I don't care
(Lexie keeps looking at the pill and josh walks in)
Josh: lex it's not going to bite you
Lexie: I know that
Josh: then what are you waiting for?
Lexie: I don't want to take it, what if I choke?
Griffin: your not going to choke lex I promise
(Anthony walks into the kitchen)
Anthony: and if you do you have a nurse that knows CPR right here
Lexie: not helping ant (glares at him)
griffin: have you ever taken a pill before?
Lexie: no I always got the liquid meds or the most an Advil but this pill looks bigger (whines)
Josh: take it like a shot put it in your mouth, drink the water and swallow that's it
Lexie's pov
I looked at josh and picked up the pill and placed it on my tongue and instantly my gag reflexes kicked in because of the taste of the pill and I spit it out on a napkin.
End of pov
Lexie: I can't do it (crosses her arms)
Griffin: am I going to have to crush it and feed it to you like a baby (looks at her)
Lexie: no
Anthony: then take the pill
Lexie: but I am going to choke
Josh: no your not lex and like ant said griffin's here if anything but your not going to choke on it
Lexie: you don't know that
Griffin: ninety eight percent of population take pills Lexie and they are fine
Lexie: well I don't care I am not part of that percentage
Griffin: looks like I am crushing it, Bryce pass me a yogurt cup
Bryce: your unbelievable you know that (Bryce looks at Lexie and opens the fridge and passes griffin a yogurt and he takes the pill and cuts it open to put the powder on a spoonful of yogurt and gives it to Lexie)
Lexie: that's gross (drinks the water)
Josh: yeah that's why your supposed to just swallow it (shakes his head)
Bryce: swallow it (laughs) that sounded so wrong
Josh: you know what I meant (smacks him behind the head)
Bryce: chill that's the second time I have gotten hit!!
Griffin: you deserve it for being an idiot and making inappropriate jokes in front of the baby
Lexie: I am not a baby
Josh: says the one that literally just got spoon fed
Lexie: you guys are mean (walks away to Kio and Anthony) josh and Bryce were being mean
Kio: what did they do?
Lexie: called me a baby
Anthony: technically you are sway's baby so their right
Lexie: ugh you guys are annoying
Lexie's pov
I walked away from Kio and Anthony and headed to my room and took out my vape pen and walked to the balcony and took a few hits. I know they didn't mean to bother me with the baby comment but it did like I already know I have issues going on so technically they do need to treat me like one but doesn't mean they have to say it. Ugh I should just be able to take a joke like really Lexie it's not that deep so why are you making it deep oh I know because your mind just has to overthink every little thing and detail that anyone says to me and spend hours analyzing it. I hate that like why can't I just take things with a grain of salt instead of take everything to heart. I take the Instagram comments to heart, I take what Jake, Katherine and Samantha to heart.. what's wrong with me? My thoughts were interrupted when I heard the balcony door open so I quickly put my vape pen in my pocket and hoped that whoever was behind me wouldn't suspect anything.
End of pov
Josh: you know Bryce and I were just playing with you know right? We didn't mean to actually hurt your feelings
Lexie: yeah I know it's fine I mean your right anyway so I can't really be upset
Josh: lex your not actually a baby yeah you might be sway's baby but your not actually one
Lexie: I might as well be it's not like I can do anything by myself... I can't even sleep by myself without having some stupid nightmare, my brain learns things at an eighth grade level and I can't even take a stupid pill without thinking I am going to choke... that's not normal josh I am not normal
Josh: come here (picks her up and sits her on his lap) first of all your nightmares are not your fault okay, you can't help it when your sleeping and it happens and second everyone's brain learns at a different pace and if yours just takes a little time to catch up then that's okay
Lexie: but it's not normal
Josh: who likes normal? Normal's boring you think our lives are normal
Lexie: no
Josh: then look at what not being normal gives you
Lexie: (laughs) that's true
Griffin: LEXIE COME DOWN RAFY IS HERE!!!
Lexie: I don't want to take class...
josh: i know kiddo but you have to, I'll carry you (picks her up and takes her downstairs)
Lexie: see you guys do thinks like that
Josh: because you like it and don't pretend you don't because you literally asked Jaden to carry you yesterday
(Lexie stays quiet)
Josh: and that's okay if you do like it, the guys and I like carrying you okay (kisses her on the cheek)
Lexie: okay
Rafy: morning Lex how are you?
Lexie: I am good
Rafy: are you ready to start school?
Lexie: I guess
Josh: we'll be in the game room if you guys need anything
Rafy: okay sounds good
Josh: be good okay lex
Lexie: I will
(Josh walks away and Rafy and Lexie walk to the dining room)
Rafy: okay so I figured we could just start off easy today maybe do English, then math and then science and social studies
Lexie: okay
Rafy: now don't be afraid to tell me if your overwhelmed of spacing out, it's probably gonna take a couple days before the pill actually kicks in
Lexie: okay
Rafy: alright let's get started (takes out a text book)
Lexie's pov
This time around I decided that I would actually try and pay attention but the more she kept talking the more I felt like dozing off and going into space. Ugh I don't even know why Jaden wants me to be in school anymore it's not like I am actually ever going to pass it because I am dumb and I don't need a reminder of it everyday which is exactly what school does for me. I don't understand any of it and if I tell Rafy it's just gonna make me that annoying student but if I don't tell her I am going to just act like I don't care. A little while later I saw her put the reading textbook away and took out the math, and once again I tried to focus really I did but my brain just wouldn't let me because it won't shut up long enough for me to actually get out of my damn head for once.
End of pov
Rafy: Lexie what's the answer
Lexie: huh what sorry
Rafy: did you space out?
Lexie: yeah I am sorry
Rafy: it's okay why don't you take a five minute break and come back
Lexie: okay thanks
Rafy: your welcome I am gonna see if the boys need anything
Lexie's pov
Rafy walked out of the room and I went to the boys room to get my phone and walked out to my balcony with my vape pen and started scrolling through insta when I saw TikTok room posted and normally I would scroll past it but the caption was "you know the saying what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas well that's not the case for the sway boys" and then there was a video of josh and Jaden in a club and they kissed! I didn't have a problem with it honestly but have the boys seen this yet? I quickly put my pen away and went downstairs to see the boys talking with Rafy in the business room.
End of pov
Lexie: josh just a quick question... have you checked tik tok room?
Josh: no why?
Lexie: you might want to look and for the record if there is anything going on between you and my brother it's okay I am happy
Josh: lex what are you talking about?
Lexie: just pull out your phone and go on Tik tok room
Josh's pov
I did what Lexie said and went to tik tok room and sure enough there was a video of when Jaden and I were at the club in Miami, we were both drunk which was our first time since Lexie moved in with us because we try not to drink in front of her so we may have gone a little overboard and while the boys were on the dance floor Jaden and I were talking and next thing I remember is us both leaning in and we kissed. We haven't talked about it since but it's not like it's the first time either but it's usually as a joke or a bit for YouTube this time we were in public and of course the camera's caught us. I don't know if I should feel upset about it or play it out like a joke, I decided to just comment saying "you guys act like homies don't kiss each other it was just a peck chill" and put my phone away because I knew the comments were about to start blowing up. I looked up at Lexie who was just looking at me trying to figure out whether or not I was upset and I could tell she was waiting for me to say something.
End of pov
Josh: it was a drunken kiss lex don't worry about it
Lexie: are you sure because if it's not it's totally fine with me if you two you know..
Josh: very funny lex but I don't see Jaden like that he's my best friend and you know that now I appreciate you telling me but get back to doing your school work.
Lexie:(sighs) okay
Scene change
Travis: so we talked to the label and we think you should wait till after Christmas and the new year to put out your album because we don't want people thinking it's a Christmas album which is usually the only thing that gets put out this time of year
Jaden: yeah I agree and I was going to talk to you about that at some point
Travis: okay cool and the next thing I wanted to ask was I have been talking to Nessa's manager and we were wondering if you would be open to do doing a collab with her I know you haven't exactly talked since the drama but this could be a good opportunity for the both of you
Jaden: can I have some time to think about it?
Travis: yeah and if you feel uncomfortable or whatever then don't worry about it
Jaden: okay thanks
Travis: also I'd get it if you wanted to talk to josh or whatever before
Jaden: I mean yeah only because it's out of respect he's my best friend
Travis: come on Jaden you can tell me if he's more then that
Jaden: (laughs) what are you talking about?
Travis: you know you two kissing in Miami
Jaden: how do you know about that?
Travis: it's all over social media when was the last time you checked Instagram?
Jaden: not since yesterday wait is there a video going around with josh and I?
Travis: yeah I thought you knew about it which is why I brought it up
Jaden: no but thanks for letting me know can you give me a second to call josh?
Travis: yeah we were just finishing up anyway so you can go and I'll just listen to the album and let you know if there's any finishing touches that need to get done
Jaden: okay sounds good thanks Travis have a good day
Travis: you too also try and get your sister to come back to the studio soon
Jaden: I'll try (walks out of the door)
Jaden's pov
I left the studio and started driving home which took about thirty minutes and as soon as I stepped into the door I could hear Lexie yelling about something so I decided to walk over to the dining room because that's where the screaming was coming from.
End of pov
Lexie: FACE IT RAFY I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANY OF THIS AND I NEVER WILL!!!
Rafy: Lexie yes you will but if you keep telling yourself that it's not going to happen
Lexie: NO IT'S JUST NOT GOING TO HAPPEN BECAUSE I AM MENTALLY STUPID!
Bryce: no your not lex don't say that and stop yelling I understand that your frustrated but screaming isn't going to resolve anything
Lexie: BRYCE SHUT THE FUCK UP BECAUSE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO LOOK AT THESE NUMBERS AND FORMULAS AND JUST NOT UNDERSTAND EVEN THOUGH RAFY KEEPS EXPLAINING IT AND EVERY TIME SHE DOES IT'S STILL NOT CLICKING IN THIS STUPID BRAIN OF MINE!!!
Jaden: HEY! THAT'S ENOUGH LEXIE GO OUTSIDE AND TAKE A BREATHER NOW!!
Lexie: UGH!!! (Walks outside of the dining room to the backyard and starts throwing rocks and Jaden looks at Bryce and Rafy)
Jaden: (sighs) now does anyone want to tell me what the fuck is going on?
Rafy: I was going over some linear equations in math and I kept explaining it to her as much as I could and I could tell she was trying but she just kept getting frustrated and she lost her temper so Bryce came in and you heard the rest
Jaden: alright I think that's enough for today you can pick it up again on Thursday, I am gonna give lex some time to cool off do you know where josh is?
Bryce: yeah he's in the kitchen helping Blake set things up to start filming F Boy kitchen which I think Lexie is doing with them
Jaden: okay thanks (walks to the kitchen)
Blake: we heard screaming is everything okay?
Jaden: just lex getting frustrated with school but josh can we talk for a minute
Josh: yeah I'll be back Blake
Blake: alright
(Josh and Jaden walk to the living room)
Josh: I am guessing you saw the post?
Jaden: yeah Travis told me about it and then I saw it did Michael talk to you or anything?
Josh: nah I don't think he really cares and I just played it off as a joke in the comment section so you can comment back if you want or just leave it alone it's up to you
Jaden: I'll comment back just so the fans know everything's good
Josh: alright, you know lex was the one that told me about it first
Jaden: what did she say?
Josh: she said if it was real she would be cool with it
Jaden: yeah but it was just a drunken kiss right?
Josh: yeah I don't know why fans are making it a big deal honestly it's not like we haven't pecked each other on the lips before
Jaden: true alright I am gonna comment and then go talk to Lexie
Josh: alright ask her if she's doing the video with us
Jaden: okay
(Jaden walks out to the backyard and josh walks into the kitchen while Lexi has her feet in the pool and looking down at the water and Jaden goes to sit next to her)
Lexie: I am sorry I lost my temper (whispers)
Jaden: it's okay your aloud to express yourself as long as it's not disrespectful
Lexie: yeah I know
Jaden: do you want to talk about it?
Lexie: Rafy explained it the first time and I didn't get it so she repeated it and then showed me the steps and I still didn't understand and so she just kept doing different ones and explaining the steps to find the solution but I either mixed up one of the steps or I got it wrong and I got mad at myself for not understanding until I just came to the conclusion that I am just stupid
Jaden: you are not stupid Lexie Marie what did griffin say about talking yourself down like that?
Lexie: to not to
Jaden: okay then don't I am not kidding lex I don't want to hear you talk bad about yourself anymore more I am going to wash that mouth out with soap
Lexie: your joking I thought that only happens when kids curse
Jaden: yeah but I might have to change up the rules a bit or maybe we create a jar and you have to put a penny in every time you talk down to yourself
Lexie: okay now I know your joking (splashes him with the water)
Jaden: hey! I have my phone in my pocket
Lexie: too bad (laughs)
Jaden: alright alright we should probably go inside because I think Blake and josh are going to film do you want to be in it with them?
Lexie: I don't feel like being on camera right now but I'll watch them
Jaden: okay let's go make sure they don'f burn the house down
Lexie: (laughs) yeah definitely
(Lexie and Jaden walk inside and see josh, Blake, and Griffin in the kitchen filming while Bryce was sitting in the chair)
Bryce: you said you sucked toes before
Griffin: no I did not
Blake: moral of the story josh and I are the non freaky ones
Bryce: no josh has definitely sucked toes before
Josh: I have literally never sucked a toe
Bryce: you spit in a girls mouth
(Josh's jaw drops and he starts laughing)
Jaden: what the fuck did we just walk into
Lexie: I don't know but I am going to pretend I never heard that
Jaden: please do (smacks Bryce upside the head)
Bryce: ow! That's like the third time I have been smacked in the head
Griffin: you deserved it
Lexie: shame on you for saying that in front of virgin ears
Bryce: (scoffs) you are not a virgin
Lexie: okay true but still I don't need an image of josh spitting in a girl's mouth
Blake: (smirks) your right It'll be Jaden's
Griffin: guys you do realize the camera is still on and we are filming your gonna have to cut this entire part out
Lexie: at least it's Blake's video and not Josh's
Josh: what's that supposed to mean?
Lexie: knowing you, you would have uploaded this version on "accident" (puts two fingers up)
Josh: that was one time!
Lexie: nah I think it was twice
Josh: fine whatever twice just let it go already
Lexie's pov
The boys finished filming and In the end griffin won and the boys teased him for losing on his own channel and after that they decided to order actual food so they ordered McDonald's through Uber and I got six chicken nuggets with fries and Anthony and Kio insisted I should have gotten something else but I didn't want to because if I did I am just gonna gain more weight and that's the last thing I need. After eating we just chilled until it was time for bed.
End of pov
Bryce: oh lex I was talking to addi and she was wondering if she could take you out tomorrow for lunch you know like a girls day
Lexie: uh yeah I guess... tell her it's okay with me
Bryce: okay I am gonna head upstairs and call her night guys
Boys: night
Lexie: Jaden...
Jaden: yeah lex
Lexie: can I sleep with you and josh again tonight I don't want to have another nightmare...
(Jaden looks at josh who nods his head)
Jaden: yeah you can sleep with us it's fine
Lexie: are you sure I don't want to bother you guys
Josh: princess it's fine if your scared to sleep alone just stay with us okay?
Lexie: okay
Josh: good now go on up Jaden and I will be there in a minute
Lexie: okay (walks upstairs)
Jaden: it's not that I mind having Lexie with us because I don't but what I am worried about is her getting so used to it that the only thing she's going to want to sleep is with us, what happens the next time we go out of town?
Josh: maybe we talk to the therapist about easing her back into her room slowly I don't she's going to react very well if we just tell her to sleep in her room by herself one night
Jaden: yeah we'll talk to Callie about it on Thursday
Josh: alright let's go upstairs I am tired
Jaden: me too, night guys
Boys: night
Lexie's pov
I had brushed my teeth and got in the middle of the bed and scrolled through Instagram and saw the post from earlier and apparently Jaden had commented on it too and of course tik tok room took a screen shot at it, so I just scrolled through the comments and saw a lot of people were actually shipping Jaden and josh and not gonna lie I am starting to low key ship them too but I don't even know how they feel about it. A few minutes later they came upstairs and I put my phone away while they got in the bed and josh turned the tv on looking for something to watch and eventually we decided on Fred Claus because it's funny and eventually I felt my eye lids doze off.
End of pov
Jaden: hey josh I don't know what I should do with lex for Christmas this year
Josh: what do you mean like what to get her?
Jaden: no I mean the guys are probably all going to go home with the girls so it'll most likely me lex and I and I want to make sure it's somewhat of a decent Christmas
Josh: why don't you guys come to Canada with me? Lex could see the snow and meet Olivia and you haven't been to my house since tour and my parents love you so why not
Jaden: are you sure? That's Christmas with your family though
Josh: you guys are my family too plus I would miss Lexie to much (jokes)
Jaden: oh I see so I am just going to tag along
Josh: yeah pretty much
Jaden: I hate you (laughs and throws a pillow at him)
Josh: yo chill Jae before you wake the baby (laughs)
Jaden: oh shit your right
Josh: no but in all seriousness come to Canada with me
Jaden: okay you've convinced me I guess we are spending Christmas in Canada, we are gonna have to take lex shopping though because I doubt she has anything for the cold
Josh: yeah we'll do that at some point this week and we'll book the tickets tomorrow
Jaden: okay now let's actually get some sleep because we aren't gonna want to wake up and work our tomorrow
Josh: true
(Josh turns the tv off and they go to sleep)

*okay guys this isn't part of the chapter but I don't know if you saw Josh's tik tok live today but he said that like Jaden is his best friend but that he would also get like a matching tattoo and Idk I wanted to mention it because I think their friendship is so cute 😂*

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