j haven't seen josh once in this past week. we've facetimed twice and texted only once a day. what the fuck. normally we're always together. it's kinda worrying me.
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josh😍🤤
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katelyn
hiii
josh
hey pretty😍
katelyn
wanna go get dinner or
something?
josh
sorry i'm working
katelyn
working? you don't have
a job.
josh
i've gotta go but i'll ttyl
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normally he says "i love you" after we text. but he didn't this time. it's probably nothing but- what if he doesn't love me anymore? and what does he mean job? he's never had a job.
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i go down and sit on the couch watching tv with my dad. for hours though all i can think of is josh. is he lying to me? or worse- is he cheating on me? i don't wanna think like this but i am. he easily cheated on nessa with me. what if he does the same thing now? he's not like that. is he? he can't be. he loves me. but what if he fell out of love with me?
dad: you alright katelyn? you seem distracted
you: y- ya. i'm good.
i try and shake my thoughts but it does not work.
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tonight there's a party at bryce's. josh and i are supposed to be going together. at the moment, i'm on facetime with him.
you: i'm not sure what i'm gonna wear. i think just some ripped mom jeans and a crop top.
i dhow him the fit.
josh: too showy. need more coverage
he plops a grape into his mouth while watching me pick another outfit.
you: this one?
it's the same jeans but with a tight long sleeve cropped shirt.
josh: too tight. guys are gonna stare at your boobs
you: fine what about this one?
same jeans but with a baggy cropped cute t shirt.
josh: ya i like that one
i nod and step out of the camera to change.
you: ok. what time are you picking me-
i'm interrupting when josh says "one second babe" and checks his phone.
josh: shit. i uh... i gotta work tonight
you: o- ok. but where do you work?
josh: i've gotta go baby!
here he goes again avoiding the question!
josh: i'll see ya at school tomorrow. love ya
you: i love you too but-
he hangs up. wtf.
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later at the party i'm standing with jaden.
jaden: where's josh?
you: at his new 'job'
jaden: why the air quotes around job *laughs
you: he won't tel me where it is. just avoids the question. he's never around anymore. do you think he's cheating on me?
jaden: no. 0% chance.
you: really? because i mean- he cheated on nessa-
jaden: because he is in love with you.
you: for all i know he could be in love with some-
jaden: i'm his bestfriend. i'd know about it. so don't sweat it. it's probably all nothing
you: thanks jaden
he gives me a brother/sister type hug to reassure me everything's alright. that's when-
nessa: oh look- it's the schools whore
mads: what the fuck katelyn? i told you to stay away from him
jaden: babe-
you: no it's fine jaden. they can think what they wanna
nessa evilly smirks.
nessa: where's joshy?
you: i think you mean josh. and he's at work.
nessa: really? cuz i saw him walking around downtown in some fancy ass sports car
you: josh doesn't have a sports car. it wasn't him.
nessa: it was definitely him. he said hi to me
you: whatever.
nessa: it was him though. probably in some girls car
you: you know what?! i-
i sigh and calm down.
you: i trust my boyfriend.
nessa: i trusted him too til he fucked you
oh fuck my bloods boiling again. luckily addison avani and bryce pulled me outside and calmed me down.
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