josh: cause i'd like to know. why and when did y'all fuck?!
i hear in his voice that he's mad.
you: josh just- calm down ok??? i'll explain
josh: why should i calm down?! you broke up with me because you thought i cheated but now you go and cheat for real? that's fucked up katelyn!
i flinch a bit at the fact he just yelled at me. he's never yelled at me.
josh: so why?! why'd ya do it??
you: i- i- i'm sorry. i didn't cheat on you or anything
josh: you fucked jaden! i heard him earlier!!!!
he yells louder causing me to cry. anyone else could scream at me and i'd be fine with it but not with josh. i've heard him yell at other people just not me. i sit down on my bed and cry into my hands.
josh: why did you do it?!
you: p- p- p- please stop y- yelling
he stops and once i'm calmed down a bit, i start to answer.
you: the s- senior sleepover. we wer h- high and drunk. it just happened ok? we promised not to bring it up again. th- there's nothing between us. i- i promise.
i look up at him with my watery sad eyes.
you: i- i love you josh. i- it was a drunken mistake for both of us.
josh: s- so it wasn't when we together? or just when we're starting to get back to normal?
i shake my head no.
josh: a- and you really don't feel anything with jaden?
you: no. i don't like him like that. we're just friends.
he sighs and sits next to me hugging me.
josh: i believe you.
i hug him tighter, thanking him for believing me.
josh: why are we being like this lately?
you: i don't know. things just- changed
josh: ya. i've been busier with working
you: after the break in- i think i've just been different over all too.
josh: are we ok?
you: i hope so
for a while we hug.
you: can we stop keeping secrets from one another?
josh: ya. we used to tell eachother everything
you: mhm
josh: so no more secrets for either of us
i nod.
you: so i know this wasn't really a secret but um... christmas. you told me to come over if my dad wasn't home. he- he didn't make it home so i spent christmas alone
he hugs me again.
you: ok starting now we don't keep anything from eachother
josh: ya...
josh's pov~
there some really big thing i'm not telling her. i want to but i can't. i cant betray her father like that.
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