A Taste of You || TaeJin [Completed]

61. Looks Like We Made It

#Warning: Mature Content

Third Person’s P.O.V.

Jin had to sit down as he read the letter his mum had left him.

Tae had fallen asleep, it was too deep into the night but he couldn’t sleep till he checked what she had left to him and right now he was glad that the house was silent and felt oddly empty as he pressed his chin onto his palm.

‘I am sorry that you feel I took away your childhood Jinnie but I cherish every bit of what you n Ju gave me…I know I was a horrible mother to you and this isn’t an excuse but I too had taken decisions out of my loneliness and anxiety…I too was selfish, I was actually terribly scared to see you become the person I had become…I ruined my life Jinnie and when you felt I was being mean to you…all I was trying to do was look out for you so that you wouldn’t ruin yours n I guess that was my biggest mistake. Unlike me you knew what you wanted, you fought for it with all you got n struggled on your own. I still don’t trust Taehyung, that boy is simply ridiculous…I never thought you’d actually be happy living with someone like him…especially after everything that had happened...I know you'd probably never breathe a word about your troubles to me but I get it. Yes I agree I have flaws, but who doesn't...maybe I have more flaws than good n that's why God took away even the little love that was left in my life.

I have hurt too many people due to my pride n actions Jinnie n I realised a little too late that I have hurt myself each time I have hurt the ones who are dear to me...

…however, I am really glad you found your share of love darling…and I am sorry and ashamed that I couldn’t be the one to give you that…just one request, bring the boys around sometimes…you don’t know how lonely I am with Ju gone n you taking away the kids, I have nothing left Jinnie…I have lost everything...

stay happy and healthy’ 

Jin put the letter down, his hand edging towards the grainy old polaroid picture she had wrapped along…it was from years ago at Chuseok, he was lanky n dressed in loose traditional clothes n Ju smiling widely even with half her teeth gone…their parents happy and young, embracing them close. It had only one sentence at the back ‘somethings never come back…so live every moment to its full.’

He clutched at it, a tear slipping down his brimming eyes as he remembered the time before walking to where the boys slept. His head was a mess at the moment, more so because he understood a part of his mother's need to get away from the life here...she too had ran away feeling hopelessly alone in her struggles and yet all that running away never let her have anything as her own.

“Funny how I always wanted to leave everything back and run, yet ended up here” he chuckled to himself, hand caressing Jeno’s head “I did everything possible to stay alone and mess up my life my way…believed if I am alone nothing could hurt me” he tucked in Jisung a little more snugly than the kid already was “thank goodness to life having other plans”.

He kissed their heads “I promise you Ju…I will do my best to give them a better childhood than what we had, and no matter how much I struggle I’ll put them first…I might fall weak n mess up but I promise I won’t run this time.”

And when he walked into their bedroom to see Tae clutching onto his pillow in his sleep, he smiled a bit to himself.

He crawled into the bed, pulling the pillow away to snuggle against the other and hugged him close, trying to go back to sleep to the sound of Tae’s light snores, who instinctively wrapped him in his arms in his sleep, as always.

However, Tae was back to his usual tantrums the very next day…

“No…” Jin groggily pushed away the sly hand that had slipped under his t shirt, warm touches against his chest, teasing the more he wanted to get him to stop.