A Taste of You || TaeJin [Completed]

45. Too Late to Apologize

!Trigger Warning!

Seokjin’s P.O.V.

“I didn’t say you could leave”

I stood stunned as the door got slammed loudly, my breath caught in my throat as I tried to understand what just happened. I could feel his fuming breaths hit at the side of my face and truly speaking I have never felt so threatened by his actions even when he was actually a rival of mine.

I tried not to look at him, fearing getting more intimidated as I tried to harp on my anger that came bubbling back up as I told myself he had no right to stop me and no fucking right to get angry!

“I d-don’t need your permission to do anything…move” I growled at him as his hand stayed barring my intention to leave but he stayed unmoved by my words “move..” I tried again using force this time, as I scraped at his arm trying to pull it away.

“I had told you at the very beginning …you won’t be allowed to leave midway”

His words made me gulp as I remembered the day he had demanded that we move in together to make our fake bond look more real because I had mindlessly dragged him into marriage.

“I agreed to that without knowing how much of a sic-“ “What was so wrong about those contracts anyway when with each one I made sure that you got what you wanted!? You wanted a contract when you got threatened by your parents…why is it wrong when I did the same? Why is it okay when you’re the one at fault?”

“Don’t you dare turn this around on to me Tae!”

“I’m not putting it on you!” He huffed, frowning at me, and I could see the desperation burn in his troubled gaze to make me understand him. “You always had a foot out of what I was trying to create, always ready to run…leave me without a thought the first chance you’d get. You have no fucking idea how much it cut through me when you treated me like that.”

He growled at me, and seriously I felt like I had wasted my emotions on him, he doesn't understand me one bit! Sure I was the one who had suggested this, the one who planned to use each other for our mutual benefits. But I came clean about everything I wanted, unlike him.

“I’ll accept my faults, yes I have done some stupid stuff, didn’t clear with you about things you had the right to know but you can’t blame it all on me…you know why I had to do it?”

I stared at him in utter confusion as he stalked closer making me take a step backward. I gulped realizing how deathly enraged he looks right now, glaring at me with wildfire burning in his eyes as he fumed and his voice grew darker.

“You made me feel so threatened all the time, every minute I had you near me I lived in constant fear that the next moment you might run away…you won’t even try to see how much you mean to me! I was literally out here, begging you to see how I love you and there’s nothing I won’t do just to know that you loved me back! But I was never good enough! How could I trust you to stay by me as you had vowed at the altar when you still treated me like an afterthought, uncaring about how your moody whims could hurt me too!?”

“People don’t make contracts to make the one they want love them back!” I am losing my shit now…what the hell is wrong with his conscience?! I’m seriously judging if he even has one!

“Why?!! Why is the contract the only thing you can see?!! Why can’t you see all those times when you treated me like trash and I was still there for you?! Why can’t you see how I was the only one who fought for you when you didn’t even want to fight for yourself?! Why can’t you see how every single thing I ever did I did to ensure that your dreams remained unharmed? Why then can’t I be just a little selfish to want to have you by my side?”