Dawsey: Starting a Family Part 1

Chapter 4

Matt's POV: After driving Gabby home to the appartment, I smiled a bit when we both made our way in together. This was the first time that we've done that in a while and I knew that Gabby was happy about that. Turning to look at me as we stood at the door, Gabby put her hand on my chest and smiled at me. "Listen, can you just promise me that...we aren't going to yell. No matter what Matt, I am currently pregnant and that is not how we want this to end." I nodded in agreement with her. "I agree 100% when it comes to that." Gabby then went to grab my hand as we stood together at the door. Moving my arms around her, I brought her close and kissed her.

Kissing me slowly as we held each other, I went to unlock the door before looking at her. "After you." Gabby nodded and agreed with me when I said that, walking in before going to take off her jacket. Doing the same, I just looked at her to see there was a whole bunch of bags there. "How much stuff did you bring from Puerto Rico?" Gabby then looked at me and sighed. "All of it. I didn't know what we were going to do. And if we were going to try, I had to bring it back." I nodded when she said that before going to grab her jacket from her. Hanging it up in the closet, I sighed and then went to hug her. "Listen, how about you go get comfortable okay?"

Gabby then sighed. "Matt, can we just cut to the chase? I know I surprised you at the bar and that was not the place to tell you but...do you really mean it when you say you are going to support me? Or is it bull and you are just going to let me rest tonight and push for me to get an abortion tomorrow. I need to know ahead of time so that I don't get emotionally attached to the baby. If I do, it'll be just as bad as last time. But this time, it'll be our choice to end the pregnancy instead of it being out of our hands. So Matt, be honest with me. Where are you on this? Are we going forward with this or do you need me to get an appointment?"

Looking at Gabby when she said that, I sighed because I knew that this conversation was just getting started. It was also going to be a lot harder because she already has the pregnancy hormones. I saw them last time she was pregnant and it was bad. Now, she is pregnant and I can tell how bad she wants this baby. Heck, the idea of us having a baby together is all I've ever dreamed of. But how much are we willing to risk? Sure I told the guys I would put my fears aside but can I really do that? "Gabby, just listen to me...take a breath and look at me. Right now, I am just learning about this. Babe, just hear me out okay?"

Gabby then took a breath and nodded. "In the past 30 minutes, I learned you were back in town, that you are pregnant with our child and that you are moving back to Chicago. Add in the reasons why I know we didn't try to get pregnant last time around...and it's a lot to take in. So please Gabby, just take a breather...sit down and let me digest this." Gabby nodded when I said that, seemingly understanding my view on this. Going to sit down, she took a breath. Meanwhile, I went to grab her some water so that I could get her to calm down. Right now, she's pregnant and I don't want her to loose the baby.

Walking over to her with some water, I went to sit down next to her and gave her the glass. "First of all...I want to say this. You need to breathe okay? Regardless of the choice we make...I want it to be just that. I want it to be our choice. I don't want you to get overwhelmed or too stressed, then it might not be our choice whether we take the risk or whether we terminate because it could possibly cause you to miscarry. Can we both agree on that?" Gabby nodded when I said that before drinking some water and cuddling up to me. "I am just scared of what you are going to say. I have been dreading this moment since I found out I was pregnant."

I nodded and understood what she meant. She knows where I stood on this before but, I changed my mind. "Okay first, let's just start with this. Have you already gone to the doctor and checked if you are really pregnant or is it another abdominal pregnancy like last time?" Gabby looked at me and bit her lip. "I haven't checked that yet." I nodded when she said that. "Gabby, listen...I get where you are coming from. You want to make decisions on the baby. But based on our previous experience, I want to go to the hospital and check whether it is really a baby or if it is like last time again. Now, how long are you staying in Chicago?"

Gabby looked at me when I said that. "I don't know. I have stuff there. All I thought about Matt was...I need to come back, tell Matt and we need to make decisions together. I know this wasn't what you wanted. Heck, it's still not want you want." I then shook my head. "Don't be too sure about that. Babe, I've been thinking and when you left...I was just scared. I can't loose you. It's why we never got divorced. I want to be your husband. And I want to do what's best for us. Just know though...that if it comes down to you or the baby, I am picking you. And you are going to have to be okay with that." Gabby agreed with me.

"I wouldn't expect anything less." I smiled when she said that and then went to kiss her forehead softly. "Listen, think we can put this on the backburner? I haven't held you in my arms for a while and since you are already pregnant...you can't get any more pregnant." Gabby then laughed when I said that. "I need to ask you a favor and make this a celebration. Sure, we don't know what we are doing but...can we at least be happy that we are pregnant? Regardless of the aneurysm or if it's not viable...we got pregnant again and I like the thought of another little baby being here." I thought about it and nodded.

"How can I say no to intimate time with my wife? How about we go to bed and get this party started." Gabby laughed when I said that, getting up before walking away to our room. Going to take off my shirt as I got up, I smirked as I ran into the bedroom behind her...ready to hold her in my arms as soon as I get in bed with her.