"Are you making fun of me? kung 'oo' pwede ba huwag ako. Dahil wala akong oras para makipaglaro at magsayang ng panahon para sayo" serysoso niyang sambit. Alam niyang pinagti-tripan lang siya nito lalo na at halos kauri ng lalalki at mga manloloko. Kaya, kung binibiro man siya nito. Mabuti nalang na diretsyahin niya ito. Seroyoso din siya. Kahit pa na tinulongan siya nito noon sa ama niya at ngayon ay nagpapanggap lang sila para sa kapakanan ng ama niya. Mas mabuti nang alam nila ang mga role kung ano sila sa isa't isa.
"Better stop it Lucas" matapang niyang sabi pero, yung kamay niya na nakahawak sa handbag niya ay napakahigpit. Nagpapatunay na kabado siya. Yung kalooban niya parang may nagkarambola dahil sa tindi ng tibok. Even herself cannot put it into words. At sa isipin na yung situwasyon na kinakaharap niya ngayon ay... ewan, natatakot na kinakabahan, na eexcite. samo't saring emosyon ang nararamdaman niya na siyang bago sa kanya at ang kabagohang yun ay hindi niya gusto. Araw araw nalang siyang na bbother at hindi kagaya noon na wala siyang iniisip at pinoproblema na iba kundi ang sarili niya lang. Argh! kung sana nilukob nalang din siya ng lupa dahil sa kagagahan niya.
Lucas still looks at her intently and never averted his stare at her and just keep it intact "Do I look like I'm lying?" he said seriously. His tone changes too in which makes Mei shock in a bit anticipation. Compare to the Lucas she sees everyday, now, is a different and it is new to her. The Lucas she is talking right now isn't the Lucas she knew and met before. She meant, he's totally different. Mei is still in dazed and in between overthinking when Lucas held her right hand that was holding the strap tightly. She gasped silently then looks away. Damn her face begins to heat up! Ni hindi niya nga alam kung matingnan niya pa ito ulit na sa ganitong situwasyon niya. lalo na kung iniisip niya ang sariling mukha sa reaksyon niya ngayon. Panigurado hindi niya maatim na malaman din.
"B-bitawan mo ko" aniya na nauutal dahil sa tindi ng kaba.
"I admit, that the first time I saw you ay hindi talaga kita gusto. Naiinis ako sayo dahil pinapagalitan mo yung kapatid mo. But at a the same time, you captured my curiousity to know you. Especially that night I came to meet and approach you. You are different to me in which makes me want to know you more. Noong sinabi mo na.. maganda yung mata ko. No one did say that they like them and that they are pretty to them too. Only you. Even people is scared at it. The main reason why I cover it with my hair. When you say that word.. 'like' It somehow gives me hope and like myself even just a bit. I hate myself not until when you say they are beautiful to you." Mei is surprised. Was he that sad that everyone hates his eyes? damn! bakit pa ba niya tinanong yun? ang gaga niya talaga. May tao bang masaya na jinajudge ng mga tao? Baliw nalang siguro ang magsasabi ng OO.
"I said that because your eyes captivates me, and they are totally different at totoo na nagugustohan ko yun! Pero, that isn't the only reason to like me Lucas. Natural lang yun para sakin dahil deserve mo din ma compliment dahil sa katangian ng mata na meron ka. I mean, I can't seem to understand.. on why you like me that instant na buwan pa lang naman tayong magkakilala." kung ano man ang sinabi niya ay yun talaga ang totoo. Bakit ang bilis naman ata siya nitong magustohan kung kakakilala palang nila. E hindi nga niya ito kilala talaga ng lubosan.
Oo, at napamangha siya nito. May mga araw na naiinis siya dito pero may mga araw na magkasama sila na napapaaliw at napapamangha siya nito. Pero, parang hindi niya makikinitaan ng eksaktong rason kung bakit ang bilis. He is handsome. Hindi niya e d-deny yun. Tiyak na may maraming babae na nagkakandarapa at nagkakagusto nito dito. Pero ang malaking tanong.. bakit siya? She meant for, wala namang kaganda ganda sa kanya kompara sa iba. Nakakainis man isipin na ikinompara niya ang sarili s aiba pero nagpakatotoo lang siya. Aalam niyang maganda siya pero, mas marami naman kase na mas maganda pa at mas deserve na iba sa tabi tabi.
"I know that. But, is that important? Is that really a big deal of liking you this instant?" He sounds irritating a siyang nagpa waver sa kanya. Bigla siyang natakot pero, hindi yun dahilan para magpadala siya. She won't back down nor waver more than that. She is who she is. If it not her parents.. She will never waver to anyone. Not to him. Pinalaki siyang mapanindigan at matapang. Now, that she is questioned. She will answer it directly and precise.
"Ang sagot ko sa tanong mo, 'Oo' it does matter to me. Bakit? kase, kakakilala ko pa lang sayo. I do not even know you and you just came from somewhere and then get closer to me that instant. I don't even know why you keeps on chasing me. On why you keep on tailing me. Kahit naman talaga na walang nag uugnay sa atin. Oo, pinsan mo yung kaibigan ko. pero, bakit ako? Ang hindi ko lang maintindihan is, bakit bigla bigla mo nalang sabihin sakin na gusto mo ko when we just met months ago. I do not get you at all! We both know that there are girls down there that are much better and prettier than me. While me? none! In this case, It just gave me negative guts na may kailangan ka sakin. Na may sadya ka sakin na hindi ko alam. Kung ganun man, ano ba ang pakay mo sakin?" It's right. Sudden makes her suspicious. And it is not only her who felt that way, anyone could if you are just cautious. And in her state she's just being careful and at the same time cautious.
Lucas got shock at nakita niya iyon. He stunned at her sudden reaction. It didn't slipped her sight of how he reacted. Now, may pakiramdam na siya that she hit a button. Pero, she is not that sure. It is just her guts. Agad naman nakabawi si Lucas at pantay siyang tiningnan.
"Mei, I confess to you because that is how I feel towards you. I do not believe that time matters to being in love when you captures my interest. I like you and that is the truth. I hope you wouldn't judge my feelings. I'm sorry if I make you mad. I am sorry for all the inconvenience I cause to you. If it makes you happy and comfortable of me not near you. I will do that. I will stay away from you. I will not also chase you and tail you around. I will stop and will try to forget you myself. That's all, thank you for hearing me out" He is sad. She can tell. But, the moment he said he will stop. He changes. He turned to a cold guy and is expressionless. Na siyang hindi na niya mabasa ang emosyon ni Lucas na kagaya ng nagagawa niya kanina. It is the very first time too that Lucas showed emotions to her. But, unfortunately, In a bad situation.. It faded.
"I'll get going now" the last words he had said and leave her unspoken.
TO BE CONTINUED...
BINABASA MO ANG
True Love Sweet Lies
Teen FictionFrancine Mei Zaldua is known as one of the top students at university of Asturias in Cebu province. She is a talented and a smart woman who dreamt to succeed and give her family a new life in the future. She has the beauty of simplicity that screams...
