The Mallapers: A Rejected Mate Story

Chapter Nineteen

Leyla's Point Of View

Anger. That is what was seeping through my bones as I ran towards the library. The vibrations of Amira's emotions were pulsing through my veins, she was adding fuel to the inferno burning inside. My head was pounding as the intense emotions filled my body. I knew he felt the sparks on his body, Reginald confirmed this. I thought it would make me feel better that he could feel the bond, but it adds to the anger I feel. Small tears of fury run down my face as my feet stomp along the marble floor. 

The guards that are littered across the hallway pay me no attention, there faces continue to be passive and guarded. Amira is quiet after her time with Reginald, she knows more about what is happening and she won't tell me. I honestly thought having a mate would finally allow me to have a sense of security and family that I always wanted. I know Nona is my family but she is getting old and part of me believes that she is living to see me happy before she exits this world to be with her love. 

Amira. I whisper, searching the corner of my mind for her presence. 

Searching through my mind, I still feel her anger but delving deeper I start to feel her pain and her heartache. The smallest whimper is echoed through my brain. I internally sigh, although heartbroken at the thought of my wolf crying, I know that sweet wolf I have grown up with is still there, hiding behind the confident facade that she has developed since our visit from the moon goddess. 

I reach the library and the room is darkened. I make my way to my desk and switch the table lamp on. It flickers, warming the room with a small ambiance. I didn't want anyone to know I was in here. I wanted to be on my own and undisturbed. I am sure if the Royal family asked the guards they would immediately direct them to my location but that was unlikely, so I would have the freedom I desired to explore the library without disturbance.

Amira sniffles and her tone becomes colder than usual. Get that book Amira. 

Now you answer me. I retorted back. 

I'm not joking with you, get that book we need to finishing reading it. Her voice was filled with authority that it shook me to my core. 

I huffed. This mate bond was creating more problems than what it was worth. I always thought I would love having my mate, but since that day everything has changed. I can feel my bond with Leyla weaken as each day pass. The strong bond we had seems to be withering away due to the secrets she is keeping. Since her time with Reginald, it was like there was a tear in the fabrication and although she promised me that she would not do it again, I worry that she won't hold true to her word. It's not because I think she is weak but because how I know how desperately in love she is love with him. 

I sigh while I reminisce on a time when I thought I would get married and have a couple of pups, maybe grow old and wrinkling in Nona's cottage. That future seemed bleak and unlikely. My heart thumped as I could feel this heaviness in my heart. The heaviness was growing and there were moments where it was almost suffocating. 

I made my way to the chair and reached for the book that I had hidden earlier today, my hand grasped the book as I pulled it from it's hiding place. I was thankful it was still there and no one had discovered my new topic of reading. I returned to the desk and took a seat in the chair and placed the book on the desk and continued my search. 

I flicked through the pages and noticed the note that was once in the book was no longer there. I could hear Amira growl in my head, she was clearly frustrated at not knowing what was on that piece of paper. Maybe it fell out? I returned to the chair and went on my hands and knees searching for it, there was a small slither of hope that it might have fallen out when I picked it up.