Extra Lessons

Thirty Four

I'm really Standing here sobbing in front of these people like a fool. "Im sorry but I'm not interested in talking to you right now. I said as i was about to close the door until Sho pulled me aside saying " excuse us for a moment". As he pulled me away to the kitchen. "What are you doing?" I asked. "Don't you want to At least hear them out before shutting them out like that?" I scoff saying "oh like how they literally did me my whole life? He the shakes me saying "I know the hurt you've been through bit lets be mature about this. Don't you want closure? Don't you wanna know why? He said. I sighed saying "no". And walked away but again he pulled me back saying "T come one". "Fine okay". I said as i went back to the door.

"You can come in" i said as they waddle in with their suitcases. "Look at you. You've grown so big". The man said. "It's my biggest regret not finding you earlier." He went down onto his knees crying saying "words cannot explain how sorry we are Toru. We've failed you as parents. We missed the golden years of your childhood because of our selfish deeds. Even if you can't forgive us. I hope you can accept us." I didn't know what to say so I just helped him up saying "sit please and lets talk". Sho then excuse himself out the house to give us privacy. We then went and sat down at the table.

I couldn't find the right question to ask first so i just asked "why". They both looked at each other and then she started saying. "I got pregnant at a young age with you. Back then it was disgraceful for a young girl especially one from my family. I faced so much backlash from the public and also brought disgrace to my family. I was pressured into having an abortion so much that I even considered it once. But I finally decided that I wasn't going to and that Im going to bring my child into the world." The man then said "It was hard for us at that time. We were kicked from our parents house and had to live on our own. We were living Penney to penny and it was very hard for two 18 year olds trying to raise a child together.

It was exhausting mentally and physically. We couldn't handle it at such young ages. We couldn't provide the things you needed the way we should've. We were so stressed that we even considered suicide. But we couldn't bare the thought you you growing up to know your parents killed themselves and didn't want you to bare that pain thinking you are of the cause of it. Since we got no help from out families we decided to put up in the childcare home. Hoping that they take better care of you or hopefully get adopted into a good family. We then migrated to the states to find a bettet life.

Every day we struggled to learn english to find good jobs. We worked as janitors , babysitters, maids and so much more while's trying avoid being deported. Afterwards we found a family that took is in and helped us to become legalized there. And taught us English. We live with them for years before moving out on our own. It was hard facing hatred just for being different. But we stick through it thick and thin. Finally we heard that you got a social care worker and that you was living well.

We was so happy to know that you were okay so-"
I interrupted him saying "so you knew i was well why didn't you come back for me or even spoke to me. Send letters? Anything". She then said oh but we did keep in touch with you." I looked at them confused. "Sweetheart do you remember every Christmas your social worker would let you speak to Santa Claus and Mrs Claus?" I gasp standing up out my seat. "No way . It can't be. That was you?" She smiled slightly saying "yes. We were too ashamed to say who we were".

I sat back down asking "we're you also the genie I wrote to on my birthday that gave me three wishes ? Or the easter bunny that i wrote too during easter? And cupid who sent me the most adorable letters and chocolates on valentines?" They both said "yes". I started to feel teary eyes but they immediately stopped. "That doesn't change the fact that you know I was well and communicated with me and still didn't come for me. I waited and waited for years! You said you were embarrassed to say who you are so what changed?  Why do you care to show up now?"

"We're sorry. We should've came earlier. We know you hate us right now". She said. When i heard those words the world felt like it stopped spinning and everything was still. I thought to myself saying "I dont hate you."  Snapping out of gaze I see they both starring at me realizing that I said it out loud. They looked at me sadly asking "you dont hate us". I walked up to them both hugging them saying. "I don't hate you. I hate that I wasn't with you and I hate myself for bot thinking that It could've been a reading why this happened to me. Please forgive me." I said crying into both of their arms.

"Don't cry baby." She said- well my mom said as she wiped away my tears. "We can finally get to be a family together." Dad said.  As I released the hug I smiled awkwardly saying "I don't know where to start. It's been so long. I'm really meeting my parents after so many years. It feels so unreal."  They both laughed. "Wait I need to show you someone".  I as i walked into the room grabbing sho and bringing him back saying "meet my boyfriend."  My dad walked to him bowed and shook his hands saying "thank you thank you so much for treating her right." I look up at Sho in awe as he looked so proud.

"I love you so much". I said before I hugged him tightly