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99. Ong Seongwu | Promise

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genre: angst & fluff

member: seongwoo

requested: yess!

summary: seongwoo is the reason why you stopped believing in love and also, the same reason why you fell in love again.

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whenever someone asks you if you're satisfied with your life now, you would say yes
but you would end up questioning yourself at times
are you really happy now?
even after what seongwoo have done?
seongwoo used to be your boyfriend
keyword here: used to be
when you were with seongwoo, you thought you finally knew what is love
you thought you knew what is the meaning for being loved
you thought whatever seongwoo did, is the meaning of love
until the day where he found out you're pregnant
it has been weeks since you started getting nauseous and having all those cravings for food that you swear that you'll never eat
at first, you thought you're just feeling stressed up from all those work that is pilling up
and the thought of being pregnant has never crossed your mind
not until the day where you entered the pharmacy to get some medicine
and you happened to pass by the section where the pregnancy kit is at
you told yourself
no harm trying
but little did you know, that turns out totally differently
you thought your eyes were playing tricks on you when you first saw 2 lines
you tossed the kit aside, not trying to bring yourself to accept the truth
and after hours have passed, the 2 lines are still visible
that's when you finally realized the situation right now
you're pregnant with seongwoo's kid
at that point in time, you felt a mixture of feelings
and the question that was bothering you the most is
"to tell seongwoo or not?"
feeling frustrated and lost, you decided to keep quiet
whenever seongwoo returns home at night with a loving smile on his face, you just can't bring yourself to tell him the truth
you promised yourself you will tell him tomorrow
and tomorrow becomes the day after
the cycle goes on until the day where seongwoo was waiting for you at home
"hey seongwoo, i told you i'll be home late and you don't have to wait for me" you started
the atmosphere instantly turned cold whenever seongwoo didn't replied you
and you finally knew why
the pregnancy kit was on the table
"explain this" seongwoo said
you blamed yourself for not disposing the kit outside and now, all you could only say is to confess the truth
"i-i'm pregnant with your kid"
"my kid? i told you we can't have a kid, especially not now when i'm focused on my career" seongwoo coldly replied
before you could even think of what to do next, seongwoo continued
"you either abort it or we're breaking up"
your heart momentarily stop
"w-what did you say?" you stuttered
you know for sure aborting your baby isn't a choice on your list
before you know it, you're already packing up your clothes and heading out
even at the last moment, seongwoo never looked at you and give you a chance
that night, you walked out of the door in tears
and although it hurts to say, but you told yourself never to go back to someone who doesn't deserve you at your lowest
with that, you started surviving on your own
you decided to keep your baby and get through everything yourself
you continued working over time even though it is harmful to your body
you worked as hard as you could to give a good life to your kid
no matter how tough it seemed like right now, you know it is all going to be worthwhile
and true enough, when you first saw your baby
all of the sacrifices that you made
all those sweat and tears
it was all worth it
it is a baby girl and even though it has some of seongwoo's features, she still look pretty
and precious
you have no idea how you're going to be a mom
but you know you will still get through it
time skippppp
your daughter, minseo is already 6 years old
before you know it, she is all grown up
despite being only 6 years old, she is just like your best friend
someone who you can always laugh with
someone who always keep you accompany
without minseo, you're probably nothing
practically, she means the whole world to you
you guys do everything together
things like eating, checking out new places together and even grocery shopping
just like now, where you guys are at the mart, trying to stock up food at home
while you are busy picking out noodles, you felt someone pulling your shirt
"omma! can i go to the cereal section to pick up my favorite cereal?" minseo pulled the hem of your shirt to call for your attention
"are you sure you know where the cereal section is?"
looking at how bubbly her eyes is, how can you ever say no?
"alright, promise me that you will grab it and come back to omma fast okay?" you smiled as you watch her run
after you're done picking noodles, you decided to just get minseo and you wondered why is she taking so long
when you first spotted minseo, you let out a sigh of relief
but when you take a closer look, that's when you realized why did she take so long
"minseo! didn't omma tell you not to talk to strangers?" you lowered yourself and explained to her
"but he is a good guy! he helped me to get my cereal when i couldn't reach it" you got flustered at minseo's answer
just when you're about to thank the guy, you felt like the world stopped when you guys faced one another
this can't be true
never have you expected to see seongwoo again
especially not when he chased you out and broke up with you
even after years have passed, he is still the same
maybe he has lost some weight
but he is still that same guy that you knew
and even after all these years, a bitter feeling hit you instead
"y/n?" seongwoo asked
instead of acknowledging him, you decided that it is better to walk away
"come on, let's go minseo" you brought minseo into your arms and carried her away
you never expected to meet seongwoo in this manner
especially when minseo is his daughter
and because of everything that he did, you planned to keep seongwoo a secret from minseo right from the start
you told her before that her dad is not here
and minseo being a filial daughter, she understood everything and have hardly talked about it after you explained about the whole situation
you thought that after all these years, seongwoo would eventually leave your mind
you really did try your best
and at some point in time, seongwoo have already slipped off your mind
but when you saw him just now
it feels like whatever you guys shared started flashing in front of you
all those memories started appearing back in your mind
if you could, you wish you could forget this painful past
and start anew with minseo
no seongwoo in the picture
anywaysss
after that night, you pretended nothing happen and carried on with your life with minseo
just when you're busy washing dishes while minseo is playing on her own
you heard the doorbell rang
"omma! i will get the door!" you heard her scream
after putting the dishes aside, you quickly went to check who is it at the door
because you don't remember having any delivery
but when you look over, your eyes immediately widen
"omma! it's the guy at the mart that day!" minseo laughed while your face turned dark
"y/n... can we talk?" seongwoo started
before i could even agree, minseo pulled him in
"minseo, it's time for bed, let's get you ready for bed alright?" you hurried her in the bedroom before returning back to seongwoo
"what do you want from me, seongwoo?"
"she's our daughter right?"
you stared at him and wondered where did he even get that courage to ask about minseo when he never bothered caring about you right from the start
"i don't think it's right for you to say that and there's nothing more we can talk about, seongwoo"
you walked towards the door and waited for him to get out
"y/n... i know it's ridiculous but could you give me a chance and let me amend my mistake?"
"please just stay away from the both of us, we don't need you" you cut him with the truth
"but-" before you can hear what seongwoo has to say, you pushed him out and locked the door
you sighed and pray that seongwoo would never come back looking for you
because one, you know how persistent seongwoo is when you guys were still together
and two, you don't know how long more you can say no to him
your heart is always soft when it comes to seongwoo
and you only learned it hard way of letting him go when he treated you coldly back then
after that night, seongwoo would occasionally turn up at your door
there are times where you would ignore him
there are also times where you would also open up and see what he got to say
the whole situation of seongwoo appearing at your door and asking for a new chance happened over a month
and even a month past, you could still see how hard seongwoo is trying to prove himself
prove that he still loves you
and he has also showed that he loves minseo too
whenever minseo knows that seongwoo is at the door, she would let him in without hesitation
and for the first time, seongwoo is the first person that minseo could get so comfortable with
whenever you see the both of them having fun together, the corner of your lips would go up naturally
honestly, you don't know what's happening to your heart
are you slowly accepting seongwoo already?
your heart is getting soft every single time when you let seongwoo in and he would ask for another chance
whenever he tells you how much he regrets letting you and minseo go, you could really feel his sincerity
at the same time, you don't know if you could trust him once more
your feelings is in a turmoil
until a day where you saw seongwoo calling you
that night, you are expecting him to come over
but whenever you answered his call, you got worried immediately from the tone of his voice
you could tell seongwoo is clearly drunk
"y/n... i miss you so much" seongwoo slurred his speech
before you could carry on, seongwoo cut your words
"i hate myself for being that heartless idiot, who chased you out when you needed me the most... and now, it hurts me so much to know that i can never make up for my mistake..."
"i'm really happy seeing minseo but it hurts me to know that she will never have a complete family. y/n, what can i ever do to make up for my mistake? could you please give me a chance, y/n?"
before you could even answer, you decided to just pick seongwoo up first
strangely, you're dying to meet seongwoo
you just want to see him safe and sound in front of you
and when you finally got to see him
your heart got relieved immediately
the moment when his eyes meet yours, you recalled everything he said through the phone just now
for the first time, your heart says yes
you hate to admit it but this is when you finally realized you do need seongwoo once more
his eyes give you a feeling of assurance and that he would promise to protect you
you don't know what has taken over you but when you fall into his arms a feeling of warmth embrace you "y/n..." seongwoo started
"does this mean- yes, seongwoo, i trust you once more."
instead of hearing his reply, you felt a pair of arms wrapping around you
"i will never let you go this time and i promise, y/n"