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106. Kang Daniel | Love Kills

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genre: angst

member: daniel

requested: no

summary: you wish daniel is the key to your happiness but sadly, he's the reason behind your death.

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if you are given just one wish in this world, you would wish for more love
having more money or more friends doesn't matter in your eyes
you just want to receive love so that you would recover from the Hanahaki disease
Hanahaki disease is an illness that happens from a one-sided love and you would cough out petals while sufferingand surgery is the only method to recover it has been months since you sufferedand the worst has yet to arrive
days are gradually getting harder to live
especially when you have to stop yourself from coughing out petals whenever you see the person that caused this disease every day
and that person is none other than the school's popular guy
kang daniel
you hated yourself for falling in love with him when you clearly know that he's the popular guy in school and all those heart breaking moments you possibly will go through
you also hated yourself because you did whatever you could to get his attention but nothing works
kang daniel drives you nuts to a point where the moment you see him, you would get so nervous
and you would still choose to suffer this disease if that is the only way to continue getting close to him
why is he having so much control over your world and you can't even do the same to his
and today is not an exception
"y/n! wait up!" daniel called you from far and he greeted you with his killer smile
that's one of the reasons why you love him
or rather that is what kills you the most
as you walk to class with him, you felt something warm in your hands and you realized it's daniel's coffee
"i know you haven't had your breakfast so please at least drink something, kid"
daniel knows every single habit of yours
and this is one of them
you always have the habit of skipping breakfast because you hated eating in the morning and daniel always make sure you eat
there are times where you would find cookies or milk on your desk
and your friends would tease you for having a secret admirer
but no one knows that made your condition worse
you could resist coughing for now but how long more?
you wish you could seek some kind of help from someone
but minhyun, who previously got the same condition told you that surgery is the only way
he's the only person that knows what's happening to you because there was once you accidentally coughed out petals in class
you thought there isn't anyone left in class when it's break time but minhyun caught you
he shared with you his experience and it's too painful to hearespecially when you know that is something you're facing now he promised he wouldn't tell anyone but he told you to receive treatment soon doing that surgery means losing all feelings you have for daniel
although it's painful living this way, but you still want to love him
that's what you thought until you see your best friend, doyeon hanging together with daniel without you
the three of you are literally the closest buddies in this world
you guys shared the deepest secret with one another but when you start seeing doyeon and daniel hanging out frequently, it hurts you more the thorns on a rose
you always have this intuition that daniel likes doyeon
and a girl's intuition can never goes wrong
daniel told you on one night whenever he comes to your house for dinner since you guys are neighbors
you remembered all those praises he was going on and on for hours about doyeon that was when you wanted to face the truth
"daniel, do you like doyeon?"
"I don't know, y/n... do i? i think i do." he smiled
and he carried on with all those times where doyeon makes him crazydaniel is obviously in love with herthat was the night where you realized you got the Hanahaki disease
daniel left your room with a smile while tears appeared on your face
you told yourself, it's fine
as long as you're not throwing up roses, it's fine
because minhyun told you roses means death so you continued seeing daniel getting close to doyeon
flashing his killer smile at doyeon
showing off his boyfriend manners in front of her
giving doyeon his jacket whenever he sees her shiveringprotecting her from all the guys that tried harassing her
basically, doing everything that a crush would do
at that point in time, everything is still going fine
you are still able to cope with your condition
until doyeon appears at your house one night
she looked really pretty that night and you wondered why
at the same time, you regretted knowing why because that night, the both of them went out on a date
and that night was the worse
"y/n.... i think i like daniel. what do i do!" she squealed and shared with you what happened just now
you, as her closest friend, could only be happy for her
telling her what she should do now little did she know, that killed you even more
just like daniel, she left with a smile while you throw up
this time round, it's your very first night where you saw roses coming out of your mouth
it is more than the usual amount that you coughed
the basin is practically filled with roses
is it... time?
although you feel like you're gonna die that night, but you still manage to get your cough under control and went to school as usual the next day
but as days pass, the number of times you tried to hold your cough in seems harder
the tendency to cough is much morelooking at how the both of them exchange looks makes you sick
and you always have to excuse yourself to the toilet
although they have never ask you why, but you wish they would looking at how bad things are going, you wondered how long you could go on
apparently, there is still a long way
none of them has even confessed
every night when daniel or doyeon takes turn to come to your house, it is the worse time of the day
you had to look happy for them they appeared at your house just to talk about each other
ask about things that each other like
tell you what they noticed about each other"doyeon likes roses right? i'm thinking of giving her those as a confession. what do you think?" daniel suggested
"yeah that's a great idea, she would love it"
rose is the flower that signifies their happiness while roses means death to you
what a difference
making you the middle person doesn't seem helpful at all
you constantly wonder why you are in the position
and what did you ever do to deserve thisbecause you have been coughing out roses to a point where you couldn't be bothered about throwing up in the toilet
you just let all those roses out in your bedroom
and because you didn't have the strength to sweep all those roses up, it starts to fill the room
you started asking the both of them to stop coming to your house
so that none of them would suspect anythingevery day started getting harder and harder to survive
until one night where you are about to sleep, you received a text from the both of them
"omg y/n! DANIEL JUST FREAKING CONFESSED TO ME OMG HELP HELP HELP" doyeon said
"doyeon said YES OMFG Y/N I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS SHIT" daniel said
you replied congratulations to the both of them and wish them happiness
once again, you coughed your lungs out and this time round, you noticed the color of the petals changed
it turned black
you didn't know what it means but you smiled, thinking of how the both of them finally got what they wanted
at the same time, a few tears escaped because you know it's time for you to get that surgery
and be over daniel
but you never got to do that
because you never wake up the next morning
when doyeon and daniel enters your room, shocked is just an understatement of their feelings
your room is filled with dead roses and of course, with you in the middle of all those roses
no matter how much they cried for you to come back, it's too late
knowing doyeon and daniel getting together is the last news you will ever hear
and the last reason for your Hanahaki disease