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129. Lai Guanlin | Friends to lovers!

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genre: fluff

member: guanlin

requested: yess!

summary: what happens if you find out if that your secret admirer is also your best friend?

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"what does it say today?" guanlin peeked into the letter that you are reading
"please keep on that beautiful smile on your face" you smile to yourself as you read the message out
just like any other day, you have been receiving anonymous letters or even gifts in your locker
or at your table
it's been a week since you realized you have been getting gifts lately
it never fails to put a smile on your face every single day
it would put an even brighter smile on your face if you know who this person is
as much as you are happy receiving so much love from this anonymous
but you really wanted to know who this person is
whenever you receive the gift in the morning
you always pray that the person would leave a note
or maybe to even leave a trace
but no
he disappears before you know it
you did try going to school earlier but you still couldn't catch the person
even when you went around to ask, but you couldn't find any clues to this person
"i really want to find out who he is! my heart is beating fast just by the thought of figuring out who he is" you confessed
"i'm sure you will catch him one day" guanlin smiled
little did you know, your secret admirer has always been someone you meet everyday
he is always beside you
yesss that's right
your secret admirer is guanlin
since you guys are friends ever since young, guanlin grew up with you
he saw how much you have changed
and no matter how much you have changed, your caring heart stays the same
you are still that same girl he knew from the first day of preschool
as silly as it might sounds, guanlin had a small crush on you back then
he could still remember the reason why
it was the day where you guys could play at the playground
and there was this classmate that was playing rough with everyone
while there's you
who isn't afraid of him and told him to stop pushing people
even though it was a small gesture, but to guanlin, it made you look like you are a hero
from that instance onwards, guanlin decided to approach you
and that was the best decision ever even until today
that small crush he had back then developed into a even bigger one
guanlin falls for you deeper each day after knowing that you guys are going to be in the same class for the next couple of years
guanlin doesn't know why but his love for you has always be growing
even when you fell for other guys
he still patiently wait for you
even when other guys are beside you
guanlin has never showed you his jealously sight in front of you
because he knows you're are someone worth waiting for
that being said so, guanlin has never thought of telling you his true feelings
because he is afraid of the response you will give
what if you don't feel the same way as he does?
instead of progressing, guanlin is worried that this whole confession would ruin this friendship
every kind of scenario went through guanlin's mind whenever he thought of telling you his true feelings
he even imagined the worst
which is you avoiding him
because of all those terrifying thoughts, guanlin decided not to take the risk
and keep his feelings to himself
but it turns out harder than he thought
every little action that you did made guanlin's heart soft
especially when you get confused in class
that expression of yours is more than enough to make guanlin smile
in fact, whenever he spend time with you, he would always find himself smiling regardless
that is probably the main reason why guanlin likes you
because you make him feel like he is the happiest man on earth
that when is when it all started
guanlin coming out with the idea of giving you gifts
just like how you make him feel happy, guanlin wants to be the reason behind your happiness as well
at first, he was worried that you would catch him sneakily
but thank god
you're not that attentive
when you received his first gift, he was there beside you
watching how your expression changed
just the smile on your face makes guanlin feel so full
full of love
and he is certain that he wants to do this everyday
so yesss
that's how guanlin became your secret admirer
anywaysss
so you're on the way home with guanlin
and the thought of your secret admirer pops into your mind
you find yourself unconsciously smiling just by thinking of what will he be giving you tomorrow
"why are you smiling to yourself?" guanlin began
"i was just thinking about my secret admirer and i really want to know him"
"w-what if you finds out his identity? what will you do?" guanlin answered
"if i ever get to know him, i think i would shower him with all my love"
"regardless of who the person is?" guanlin questioned somemore
"yes! but... you seemed like you know him, who is he!" you started suspected guanlin at that moment
looking at how tense guanlin became suddenly, you laughed at him and told him it was a joke
"i really do want to meet him and i wonder if i will ever get to..." you sighed as you looked at your feet
so you eventually got home and continued dreaming about your secret date
you thought of every guy you knew in school and even those that you have never talked to
but you still couldn't figure who it is
and you don't know how but this thought suddenly appeared in your mind
"what if guanlin is my secret admirer?"
guanlin is someone you knew since young and you thought it is possible for him to like you
but at the same time
you told yourself that is ridiculous
you recalled hearing guanlin say that he already has a girl in mind
so no
definitely no
and at that moment, you felt a hint of disappointment in your heart
are you expecting guanlin to be your secret admirer?
you clearly know that guanlin likes someone else and you still hold onto that tiny hope that it would be him
you went to bed with that frustrating thought in mind, praying that your secret admirer would appear soon
while on the other hand
guanlin is just like you, overthinking about everything
his mind is preoccupied with thoughts about you
"should i confess?"
"or should i not?"
looking at how happy you are whenever you talk about your secret admirer gives him hope
after all those tossing and turning, guanlin decided to confess his heart to you
with that, he left a note in your locker the next day
instead of having the usual exciting feeling of looking at you open the gifts and letter, guanlin felt extra nervous
today is the day where guanlin is going to reveal his identity to you
"so what does your secret admirer say?"
"OMG GUANLIN! he said he is finally going to tell me who he is! he will be waiting for me at the rooftop garden after school!" you announced
even though guanlin replied you with a smile
but deep down, being nervous is an understatement
he is really nervous about your reaction
when the bell rings, you pack your bag as fast as you could
and rush straight to the rooftop with your heart beating fast
your heart feels like it is about to burst any moment now
and when you opened the door, your smile slowly disappeared
your secret admirer didn't appear
you couldn't help but to think if all of these was a prank
and that he wanted to make fun of you
feeling disappointed, you decided to wait at the bench
you tell yourself to wait for just 5 minutes and if he doesn't appear, you're going home
you looked at your watch count down and 4 minutes just past like it was nothing
"i guess this was all a joke huh" you sighed
"but i'm sure my feelings for you is not a joke" you jumped at the voice and when you turned around, you continued getting shocked
"g-guanlin?!" you gasped
"you're my secret admirer!"
looking at how wide guanlin's smile is, it's true that he is your secret admirer
you hugged him out of happiness
"you have no idea how happy i am to know that you're the one"
"but you should have just told me straight!" you push him away and pout
"i was afraid of confessing and ruining our friendship... but seems like i made the right decision" guanlin explained
you couldn't help but to fall back into his arms
"i think it's time for me to make a decision" you changed your tone into a serious one which caught guanlin off guard
"my decision is... to love you wholeheartedly, guanlin" you laughed and went straight to his arms
never have you thought that you're that girl on guanlin's mind
but now, you're in guanlin's arms ♡