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105. Kang Daniel | Mistake

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genre: angst

member: daniel

requested: no

summary: you thought Daniel would be different from others and stay by yourself but turns out, he is just like anyone one else.

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- there was never once where people value your importance

- be it your friends or your family, you always come in second

- it sucks because they don't think of you as much as you do

- they don't need you as much as you need them

-back at home, your family is always leaving you

- whenever you mentioned that you want the family to go on a holiday, there is countless of times where the question is just left hanging

- they claim that they are always busy with work but you would see them traveling overseas on their own

- slowly adapting to the situation, you gave up asking because you know you would only be upset with their replies every time

- whereas for your friends, it's pretty similar

- there's no one that you could label as a close friend, you don't have anyone that you could confide your worries too

- thus you would feel lonely anywhere you go

- because of that, it makes you so desperate to have company even if you have to do bad stuff

- you decided to join the group of friends in your class that always go to the club during the weekends

- and you have never felt so good before

- at first, you are kind of hesitating because the thoughts of your family appears in your mind but fuck that, they probably wouldn't even bother where are you now

- so you went ahead to the club and party hard

- you started drinking which you have never done before

- you joined your friends to take a puff as well

- the feeling is practically indescribable, you feel like you're in heaven

- you start to wonder why haven't you started doing all these before when your family didn't bother about you

- anyways you got to know a lot more friends in the club

- you are pretty surprised at how easily you could mix around

- during those days where the club isn't open, you don't feel like yourself, probably because of the alcohol

- the only thing that keeps you sane is those cigarettes

- at times, you would lose count of the number of times you smoke and you would curse if you found out that you ran out of a pack

- but when the club is open, the same process repeats and you got to know another group of people

- last night, you clearly remembered a guy called daniel even though you are half drunk

- he was mingling around your table and was pouring shots for you

- you remembered staring at his face because he has a mole near his eyes

- his deep voice was another thing that you noticed about him

- what you find most interesting about him is his gaze, something about it entices you to come back for more