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110. Park Jihoon | Blinded By Love

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genre: angst

member: jihoon

requested: no

summary: Jihoon means the world to you but you don't mean the world to him.

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- you have always been this shy girl that everyone knows

- you only have a few close friends you always hang out with in middle school

- but because of your personality, it's hard for you to make the first step and be friends with everyone in the class

- you know who is in your class but when you are being asked a question about this classmate, you wouldn't know anything else apart from the person's name

- so there's this guy called jihoon, who is one of the few guys in your middle school class

- although you guys didn't have much interaction, you would feel a little nervous around him because of his handsome looks

- even though he hasn't gone through puberty at that time, he is already good looking

- you haven't heard from him ever since you have graduated from middle school

- thus, jihoon kind of slipped out of your mind ever since then

- soon you entered high school

- you could still clearly remember the first day of school during your 3rd year because that is when you saw a familiar face again

- it is none other than park jihoon

- you panicked because you didn't expect that out of all classes, he is in the same class as you

- but at the same time, you don't know if he would still recognize you or not because your appearance has changed quite drastically

- likewise, for him, he has grown and he looked even better than before

- you wondered how could a person ever look this good while reflecting on yourself

- nonetheless, you stayed a distance away from jihoon

- your friendship remained the same until you guys had a mini project together

- everyone was super jealous of you and even tried begging your teacher to change partners

- this happened because just within a short period of time, jihoon's popularity increased in school which is totally expected

- his handsome face needs no explanation

- he made himself known because he went for a dance battle during break time in order to get more free food coupons

- that little dance battle made all the girls fall for him

- ever since then, girls have been trying their best to hit on him

- anyways back to that mini project

- you are so thankful that you got a chance to talk to him and he actually still remembered you

- you guys exchanged numbers and added him on social media accounts

- just within 3 days of meeting up and doing the project, you guys caught up with each other and talked about everything under the sun

- this includes reminiscing the good old times back in middle school, telling each other some secrets that happened in the past

- and within these few days, your heart is just not helping

- everything that jihoon does, it makes your heart flutter so easily

- especially when he compliments you and asks you stuff that is related to love

- you noticed everything about him, each small details about his face and his habits

- moreover, his personality fits your ideal type which is being an extrovert and has a great sense of humor

- without you knowing, you have fallen hard for jihoon

- even though you wanted to be together with him, but you're still satisfied with the close friendship you have with jihoon

- at the end of the day, the last thought you always have before falling asleep would be thinking about confession

- you're really unsure because you're afraid that this step would just spoil the whole friendship and turn things in a very awkward manner

- and you really didn't want that to happen

- so it made you so hesitant in confessing

- you thought time could wait but in reality, it doesn't

- when you and jihoon submitted the project, the both of you started drifting away

- the number of conversations just get lesser and lesser each day

- you often spot him with his usual group of friends

- you guys no longer go for the weekly coffee dates anymore

- and even in class, you guys barely speak to one another because he is just too busy hanging out

- looking at the current situation, you continued hesitating whether to talk to jihoon or not

- and by the time you decided to make a move, it was all too late

- you saw jihoon got attached to this girl called doyeon

- he posted so many photos of the times they spent together

- it was inevitable to feel upset and jealous, wishing that you are doyeon instead

- you can't help but to wonder what are you to him for the past few months especially during those times where he complimented you

- your emotions messed up really badly for a few months until you finally got over it

- but when you finally got over it, jihoon came running back to you and it was the hardest thing in life with you being so unsure of your feelings

- he started texting you out of the blue and you find it so weird

- "I kind of broke up with my girlfriend... things just don't go well in life." jihoon sighed

- at that point in time, you felt so relieved because you thought jihoon is coming back for sure

- true enough, you guys started talking again, just like what you guys did in the past

- but this time round, you could feel that jihoon has changed

- he isn't as open as he used to be and now, you're usually the one that initiates a conversation even though that is way out of your comfort zone

- but that doesn't mean your feelings have changed

- your heart is still fluttering non-stop whenever you guys chat

- just like the other time, you are still hesitant in telling him your true feelings

- now that he isn't the same in the past, it makes you wonder even more

- gradually, you guys have stopped talking because you noticed how boring jihoon replies are and you didn't want to be a burden since you could sense that he doesn't want to talk to you anymore

- once again, your feelings are left hanging

- soon after, your heart got hurt for the exact same reason again

- jihoon got attached to another girl and posted their couple photos on Instagram

- this time round, you finally told yourself to move on because you realized you're just another girl for him to come back once he has no one else to be with

- you wondered why did you only see the truth now

- that is probably because you're just too blinded by this venom called love