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103. Kim Jaehwan | Never Again

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genre: fluff

member: jaehwan

requested: yess!

summary: you thought it is perfectly fine to ditch your best friend for your favorite band but turns out, you made a wrong choice.

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"you're going to see them again, y/n!" jaehwan groaned
"how can i ever lose this chance to see them!" you explained
you must be wondering who you're going to see right?
it is none other than your favorite boy band
produce 101
(i couldn't think of a better name,, pls forgive me)
when they announced that they are going to have a fan meet
you almost lost your mind
you are definitely gonna go
because you are a big fan of produce 101 for the longest time ever
in fact, you're a fan of them even way before their debut
you still remember the first day where you discovered them
you were on your way home while they were doing a busking performance at hongdae
that performance caught your attention
you were blown away by their talent
all of their voices
their dance
everything about them is absolutely breathtaking
and all it takes is just that one performance to make you fall in love with them
ever since that day where you discovered them, there is never a time where you missed their busking
you would always be there whenever they are performing
even though they would cover boy group dance covers from time to time
that is all to make you go crazy
their performance is definitely the highlight of your day
until a day where they stopped performing
they stopped appearing at hongdae
even when you tried to look for them at other places, there is still no signs of them
at that time, you were so down
it feels like the stars in your sky is taken away
even your best friend, jaehwan, couldn't do anything to bring your mood up
you convinced yourself that it is probably the end of them and you should move on in life
shortly after, you saw them on m countdown
making their first debut
you scream on top of your voice, making jaehwan suffer with you
ever since then, you continued being their fan
and today, they announced that they are going to have a fan meet
there is no way you're going to miss it
you have been waiting for them for the longest time
"do you really want to waste your money on them?" you heard jaehwan complained for the thousandth time
"it's my only time where i could see them so yes"
and when the details of the fan meet got released, both you and jaehwan got a different reaction once again
for you, you squealed in happiness
but when you saw the benefits, you lost yourself once again
they are having hi-touch
and some lucky fans will get a backstage pass
ASFHGKHRG why am i getting excited as i write this
those benefits immediately made you decide your mind
but on the other hand
jaehwan isn't too happy seeing you in this state
you look like you're about to lose yourself anytime
but this time round, it makes jaehwan a little more upset
because the concert falls on his birthday
he knows he is going to have a hard time trying to convince you to come for his birthday party instead
"the concert is on my birthday, can you celebrate my birthday with me instead?" jaehwan suggested
"but this is my only time where i could see them!"
"so is my birthday! it falls only once a year!" jaehwan grumbled
that made you speechless
"ah fine, i'll celebrate your birthday with you" you give in
however, when the day of the ticket sales comes, your promise with jaehwan totally slipped out of your mind
you're too whipped for produce 101 to a point that
that everything else on your mind is wiped out
be it your classes or anything that falls on the concert day, everything is completely out of your mind
so you went on to buy the tickets without thinking about anything else
seeing produce 101 is the only thing that matter
time skipppp
"let's eat at my favorite restaurant tomorrow at 6 okay!" jaehwan told you as you bid goodbye to him
"o-okay" you gulped
that's when you realized you're dead
you totally forgot about jaehwan's birthday and you didn't even tell him that you're still going for the concert
what's worse is that the concert starts at 6 as well
making everything even more complicated than before
how are you gonna for the concert and celebrate jaehwan's birthday at the same time?
at that moment, you know you're doomed
because you could only choose one
for the rest of the night, you contemplated between both choices
but most of the time, you know your mind is leaning towards the concert
"jaehwan would understand anyway, he knows how whipped i'm for them" you concluded
with that, you went to the concert instead everything went passed so quickly
before you know it, you're heading home already
and when you check your phone, you know you're really dead this time round
jaehwan....
"i'm at the restaurant now!"
"where are you, y/n?"
"did something happened?"
"yA DON'T TELL ME YOU WENT FOR THE CONCERT?"
"hello y/n....."
"seems like you really went for the concert huh"
"it's fine."
jaehwan not only messaged you, but he gave you plenty of missed calls too
your first instinct is to call him
but things are worse than you thought
jaehwan didn't bother answering
and after so many calls later, you realized jaehwan switched his phone off
"i'm dead this time round" you sighed
instead of going home, you decided to drop by jaehwan's house to make sure he is okay
even after so many knocks on his door, he is still not answering
"jaehwan, please open up..." you prayed
you eventually went home after getting the hint that jaehwan doesn't want to talk to you
for some reason, you didn't have a good feeling about this
this is the first time that jaehwan got angry at you
and jaehwan has never ignored you once
but looking at the situation now, it makes you feel so much more anxious
how is jaehwan going to react when you see in school?
"will he avoid me? i really hope not" you sighed
knowing that jaehwan is someone that doesn't stay angry for long, you know everything is okay when monday comes
"jaehwan ah!" you spotted him in front
"jaehwan!"
"i was calling you-" you grab onto jaehwan's arm
but he soon flicks your wrist hard and gave you a hard stare
that one stare made you understand everything
jaehwan is really angry this time round
before you could carry on, jaehwan has already stormed off
"i guess i really went overboard this time..." you lowered your head
and for the next few hours
or even days
jaehwan has been giving you a cold shoulder
he hasn't been answering any texts or calls that you sent
in school, he would pretend you're not there and would always walk past you
even when you call his name, he wouldn't reply
and no matter how much you tried to talk to jaehwan, he would find his way out
you did everything you could but you could tell jaehwan is still mad at you
you ended up in tears when the thoughts of your friendship with jaehwan appeared in your mind
you realized how sorry you are
you realized how selfish you are to ignore jaehwan just to pursue what you like
what scares you the most is that "what if jaehwan will never forgive you?"
you really didn't want things to end just like this
with that, you decided to make sure to apologize to jaehwan no matter how hard he tries to avoid you
since you guys are best friends for a long time, you know his class schedule well
and right after class, you run after jaehwan
"jaehwan, please give me a chance" you grab onto him hard
"please let go of me"
"i'm sorry, jaehwan. i realized i'm in the wrong and it hurts me to see you avoiding me..." you apologized and hope jaehwan would hear you out
"let go, y/n" jaehwan struggled out of your arms and started walking away
"what else can i do to make you forgive me?" you kneeled down and broke down in tears in the middle of the hallway
"jaehwan, i'm really sorry" you covered your eyes
you cried your heart out, realizing that your friendship has really ended
you just lost your best friend
while thinking of all those warming moments that you spent with jaehwan, you felt a pair of arms wrapping you
you thought it is just another person that tries to pity you
but when you saw it's jaehwan, your tears immediately stopped
"stop crying, silly" he gave you a faint smile while wiping your tears away
"do you forgive me, jaehwan?" you asked as more tears are threatening to fall
"how can i ever stay mad for long with my best friend?"
upon hearing that statement, you went to jaehwan's arm instantly
a feeling of relief runs through your body, knowing that jaehwan has forgiven you
"i will never make you upset again, i promise"