Never Ending Heartbeats

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Pity

"Your daughter can be a singer someday. Bata pa lang may talent na sa pagkanta eh."

Every time I will hear that I can't help but to smile because I feel proud of myself. It just prove that I really have talent in the thing that I really wanted to do at yun ay ang pagkanta. Pakiramdam ko every song that I will sing people can recognize what I am feeling.

Pakiramdam ko sa pamamagitan ng pagkanta ko malalaman nila ang lahat ng gusto kong iparating. My way of communication is through music. I love seeing my parents smiling at me while I am singing for them.

Some people will think that pwede bang mag-iba ang pangarap ko dahil bata pa naman ako but I know deep inside me it won't change. Hindi magbabago ang gusto ko, I will keep on loving music until the whole world can hear me.

"Are you sure you don't want to join on that singing contest?" My mom asked me, I shook my head as an answer.

"Hindi pa ako handa sa ganyan, Mommy. Maybe in the right time." I said and smile at her at ngumiti lang din naman siya pabalik sa'kin bago ibalik ang atensyon sa kapatid ko na busy sa paglalaro ng toy cars.

I am confident on my voice but I feel like this is not yet the right time to let the world hear me, I feel like hindi pa handa ang mundo marinig kung ano ang kayang kong iparinig sa kanila. 

Alam ko kasi na dadating yung araw kung kailan masasabi ko na sa sarili ko na kaya kong harapin ang expectation ng tao sa'kin. Hindi ko minamadali ang pangarap ko at alam kong madami pa akong kailangan matutunan bago harapin yun. At a young age that is how I think. Dahil sa pangarap na meron ako I feel like I am not  turning 11 years old kid.

"Sigurado ka ba aalis tayo ng Albay?" I heard my parents talking. Dito na ako lumaki sa Albay because my parents own a Pharmacy here in Albay. We have two branches.

"Kailangan, alam mo naman na ako na lang ang meron ang kapatid ko at ngayong may sakit siya, sino pa pagkakatiwalaan niya? He has no one at sapat na yung hinayaan niya ako na mamuhay ng tahimik ng ilang taon kasama kayo." I heard Dad said. I am sure he is talking about Tito.

Close ako sa kanya because he always call and he adore me so much kaya kung pupunta man kami sa kanya I will be happy. Masaya naman ako dito sa Albay but I don't have any friends. Sila kasi nasa isip pa rin nila ay ang paglalaro pero yung isip ko nasa pangarap ko na agad kaya siguro hindi ko makasundo ang kahit sino. I feel like no one are willing to listen to me. 

"Okay, I think it's really time for Zemira to live in the city, lumalaki na siya and I want her to live just like what other girls like her do."

Matapos ng narinig kong yun my parents already prepared everything even my requirements in school. Tinanong pa nila ako if I am okay with that at walang pagdadalawang isip ako na pumayag sa kanila. It's sad leaving the place where I grow up pero naisip ko na baka sa bagong lugar na pupuntahan ko doon ko makita yung sarili ko na ginagawa lahat ng bagay na gusto kong gawin.

When my parents arrange everything mabilis kaming bumyahe papuntang Manila and when I met Tito Noel I can't help but to cry not just because of happiness of seeing him dahil na din naisip ko na kaya hindi na siya tumatawag dahil ayaw niyang makita ko how sick he is at nalaman ko na nito lang din pala nalaman nila Dad.

"You should call me, I will take care of you naman, Tito." I told him. He laugh on what I said and pinch my cheeks.

"Ayokong mag-aalala ka. Your feelings can affect your singing, didn't you know that?"

"I know that!" Napangiti naman siya sa sinagot ko.

We have our own house but I insist on staying with Tito for a while at pumayag naman din ang parents ko doon mostly si Dad because he also want to look at Tito. Nagsimula na din si Mommy na ayusin yung papasukan namin ng kapatid ko na school and we start going around Manila para may idea na kami sa lugar.