Never Ending Heartbeats

Chapter 27

Chapter 27 

Once 

Past is already done and you can't do anything about it anymore no matter how much you tried. No one can change the past but some people will choose to just let it go but some people decide to hold on. 

I am the kind of person who is holding on to my past not until Marco and I met again and he make me realize that I don't need to hold on to that anymore because no matter how much I tried nothing will change and the past will remain in the past. What is already done is done. 

Not until I saw him wearing the necklace I gave him. I expected him to throw it away already. When we met again I know he is not the one who like holding on to things, mostly if it comes from a person like me. 

"What is the top star thinking?" I look at Carlo. I roll my eyes at him. 

I am here at his office here in ASH Records. Mahigit isang linggo na akong nandito at ilang araw ko na ding hindi nakikita si Marco after what I said. Katie said na ganun daw talaga ang kapatid niya pag nagsusulat na kanta. He will disappear all of a sudden and come back with a song. 

Sa ilang araw na yun si Katie lang ang nakakasama ko pati si Reese dahil si Ate Ellaine kinailangan na bumalik ng Pilipinas dahil may aayusin pero babalik din naman daw siya. I am also busy because while spending my days here nadagdagan ng nadagdagan din yung mga schedule ko. 

"Carlo, do you miss Lea?" I asked making him stop what he is doing. 

Sa ilang araw na nakakausap ko siya sa phone man o sa personal I never bring up the topic about Lea because I want to make sure that asking about my best friend will not affect him. I don't want to destroy what he work hard for in the past years. 

I can see he work so hard to live his tomorrow without Lea and I don't want to destroy it just because I asked. 

"Every time. Walang oras na hindi." He said with a small smile on his lips kaya napangiti na din ako. "But, I know she is okay now. She is happy, and so am I. Moving forward is what she wanted us to do." 

"What about you?" 

"Of course, I always miss Lea." I said pero umiling siya sa'kin. 

"Do you miss Marco?" He asked and that make me too stunned to speak. 

I also want to answer that question. Kung noon I know to myself that I miss him, god knows how I long for him but after what happened almost a year ago parang ang hirap niya ng sagutin. Do I miss him or I am just shocked that we met again? 

Nasa kalagitnaan na ako ng pag-usad ko pero dahil sa mga nalalaman at nakikita ko sa kanya sa ilang araw pa lang na nagkakaharap kami parang hindi ko na alam kung kakayanin ko pa bang ituloy ang pag-usad na ginagawa ko. 

"The teenager Marco? Yes, so much. That Marco is my everything back then. When I lost Lea and you then next is Tito. He become my everything to the point that I am so scared to lose him but eventually, I did lost him." I said and laugh painfully. 

"Sorry... I also left you." Umiling naman ako sa kanya. 

"I understand your reason, you needed that. Healing and accepting is never easy and I know that." I told him and smile bago tingnan yung mga magazine na nasa center table. 

"You can understand my reason, I am sure Marco's too. Sa'ting dalawa alam kong mas kilala mo siya, Zemira. He also needs healing, Zem. You know his life before you came, it's not easy... I  know his every reason but I am not in the position to tell it all to you... But one thing I can say is, he never left you just like that."