Never Ending Heartbeats

Chapter 45

Chapter 45 

Gunshots 

I promise that I will never keep any secret from him anymore. I promised but as of this moment, I can't find the courage to tell him everything I badly want. Alam ko naman na mas gugustuhin niya na magsabi ako sa kanya pero hindi ko magawa dahil ayokong putulin yung kasiyahan na meron siya. 

Kilala ko si Marco. If he knows about the threats I have been receiving, he will put me before him. Kakalimutan niya ang lahat para sa'kin. He is always like that anyway, ako muna bago siya. Noon pa man alam kong ganun na siya paano pa kaya ngayon? 

Also, when I got the courage to look at every threat I have been receiving these past few days, I learned that this person doesn't want to harm Marco. Ako ang habol niya it is me he or she wanted to hurt so bad, but he is using Marco to scare the hell out of me. 

Habang tinitingnan yun lahat nang gabing alam kong hindi biglang susulpot si Marco sa condo ko dahil kasama niya ang mga kaibigan niya naglakas loob ako na tingnan ng mabuti lahat ng cards na natatanggap ko na may kasama pang mga picture ng mga lugar na pinupuntahan ko. I am really what that person wants, not Marco. This person wanted me to suffer sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. 

I feel like the person who is sending me all of these has his eyes on me because I did something that make him so angry to the point that he badly wanted me to suffer or even to be killed based on all the threats he is giving me. Gusto niyang mawala ako sa paningin niya and by doing that he need to take me away from the stage or even killed me just to erase my existence. 

This is the first time I receive this kind of threats. Iba 'tong pagbabanta na 'to mula sa pagbabanta na natatanggap ko noon. Kung noon alam ko na hanggang ganun lang naman ang kayang gawin nila, ang takutin ako ngayon grabe ang takot na nararamdaman ko dahil ramdam ko na yung taong nagpapadala sa'kin ng mga 'to handang handa siya na gawin ang lahat just to satisfy himself. 

'For a person like you, as long as you are already on top you don't care about those people who want to be like you... You ignored them just because you are at the top. Why did you do that to her, Zemira? Why did you forget her when she asked for your help? She is just desperate, why do you promise something that you can't even fulfill? You will help her you said, but you didn't.' 

That is the message that the person sent me that sends confusion on me the moment I read it. Pilit kong inalala kung may mali ba akong nagawa sa nakaraan pero kahit anong gawin ko wala talaga akong maalala na kahit ano. I thought I am always nice to people, am I not? Hindi ko na talaga alam dahil ang tumatakbo lang sa isip ko alam kong ginawa ko ang lahat to be a good person even though I am already at the top. 

I never used my fame or being a top star in anything. Dahil nasa taas man ako katulad ng sinasabi niya marunong pa din naman akong bumalik sa kung saan ako nag-umpisa at yun ay ang pinakababa ng lugar kung nasaan ako ngayon. That is why I don't know what this person is saying. Kung meron man akong nagawa hindi ko talaga maalala kung ano yun. 

"Oh, it's new for you to come to our house at night. Akala ko busy ka na lagi kay Marco." Kairi said when she open the door of their house for me. 

Naisip ko kasi na imbes na magkulong ako sa condo ko at tingnan ang mag cards na natatanggap ko napili ko na lang puntahan siya just to calm my mind from overthinking. Nagpaalam din naman ako kay Marco at sinabi niyang tawagan ko na lang siya kung kailangan ko magpasundo. I didn't take my car dahil sobrang daming tumatakbo sa isip ko baka ma-aksidente lang ako pag nagdrive ako. 

"Anak niyo?" Tanong ko sa kanya. 

"I will just remind you 12:46 na. Ano sa tingin mo ang dapat ginagawa ng anak ko ngayon? Syempre natutulog na." Sagot niya naman sa'kin at nakapameywang pa kaya inirapan ko na lang siya.