Never Ending Heartbeats

Chapter 47

Chapter 47 

Promise 

Since I met Marco I watch him cry a lot of times. I saw how he tried so hard not to cry. All those years I manage to see different kinds of tears that are falling in Marco's eyes. Mostly, when we become together I saw him cry a lot of times but this is the first time I will see him cry like this. 

He cried like he is in deep pain because of something that I still don't know. I know this will not be the first time he cried like this because Marco is the kind of person who will choose to cry alone and hide his pain than show it but at this moment he can't hide the pain and he completely breakdown in front of me. 

"Marco, love? What is it?" I asked while tears are also falling in my eyes. 

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari because the moment he saw me when he enter my unit he completely breakdown in front of me. His knees become weak and he starts crying. Wala akong nagawa kung hindi ang lapitan lang siya at lumuhod to give him a hug and his crying makes me cry too. 

I cupped his cheeks and make him look at me and I can see how red his eyes are from crying and his face is now full of tears. This is the first time that I saw him cry this way. Yung klase ng iyak na alam mong talagang nahihirapan siya at nasasaktan. 

Habang yakap ko siya ngayon naiiyak ako kasi naiisip ko na baka ganito din siya noong panahon na pinili niya akong iwan. I remember Katie's word on how miserable Marco back then when he come to their lives. 

"Zemira, I'm sorry." He said in between his sob. 

Humiwalay ako sa pagkakayakap sa kanya at hinawakan ang pisngi niya para makita niya ang mga mata ko. I won't force him to talk now dahil alam kong mahirap ang magsalita kung ang gusto mo lang ay umiyak but I want to let him know that I am just here. 

Kahit ano pang sasabihin niya at kung ano pa ang dahilan bakit siya nagkakaganito pakikinggan ko siya. Nandito lang ako. I  just let him cry while I am looking at his eyes until he stop crying and now he is the on wiping my tears. 

"Hindi pala ako pwedeng umiyak, mas iiyak ka." He said in hoarse voice kaya nahampas ko na lang yung balikat niya at nag-indian seat na ako sa sahig dahil kanina pa kami nakaluhod ang sakit na kaya sa tuhod. Ganun din naman ang ginawa niya at tinuloy ang pagpunas sa mukha ko kaya yun na lang din ginawa ko sa kanya. 

I can't believe that we are now laughing after crying so hard. I cried without knowing the reason why and he cried because of something that I don't know and now we are laughing like we didn't even shed tears. 

Hindi kami umalis sa pagkakaupo namin sa sahig at siya naman hawak lang yung dalawang kamay ko at nilalaro yun at nandoon lang ang tingin niya. I want to ask him pero mas pinili kong hayaan na lang muna siya. I watch him play with both of my hands and when he look up he saw me looking at him kaya ngumiti naman siya sa'kin. 

I also smile at him. Ang cute niya din kasi maga at namumula yung mata dahil sa pag-iyak, he looks like a baby. My baby. 

"Are you ready to tell me what made you cry like that? Anong sinabi ni Jesiah? Inaway ka ba?" Natawa naman siya sa huling tinanong ko. Sa yun kasi naisip ko, malay ko ba na bigla silang nag-away ni Jesiah.  

"No... He just told me the person behind everything, even behind the shooting and behind the person who leak some of the songs in Ash Records." He said carefully. 

So, tama nga ako. Iisa lang talaga ang may pakana ng lahat ng nangyayari. Tama lang pala ang hinala ko na ang nangyari sa Ash Records tungkol sa pagleak ng mga kanta ay sign nga na merong hindi magandang mangyayari.