Never Ending Heartbeats

Chapter 16

Chapter 16 

Hope

"It's nice to meet you, Irene." 

This will be the first time we will meet, even though I heard a lot about her being the new model of Rivera's because some staff in the building are talking about her. Hindi lang talaga kami nagkikita sa building ng Rivera because of our conflicting schedules. She is a model and to her line of work it focuses on photoshoots and endorsements not like me na kailangan yung facility ng Rivera for my practices and recordings. 

"Hi, you are Zemira, right?" Tumango naman ako sa kanya. She have a gentle and innocent face. Your first impression to her will be, she is nice and kind because I can see it in her at first glance. 

"Glad you know me, don't mind me asking but how old are you?" I asked dahil para sa'kin mukhang magka-edad lang naman kami and I don't have time to search her age on the net, not when she is in front of me. 

"I'm just 19 years old." 

"We are just the same age!" I told her. Napangiti din naman siya sa'kin but I don't know I can see that her smile is not her real smile. Yes, it's beautiful but there is something lacking. Her smiles are empty. 

Her smile is making me remember my smile when I lost Lea and Tito. The smile I am giving to everyone. Marco and my family just really help me a lot. They didn't stop until I can finally smile again, my true smile. 

Meeting Irene was nice, I want her to be my friend but Irene is a little off because I can feel when we first met that she is just trying to be nice to me but she is a little uncomfortable. Losing Marco in my life makes me become more observant to people around me. 

Gusto kong malaman kung ano ba ang iniisip nila towards me or how are they coping up on their life. I don't want to make the same mistake again that I did back then. I want to be there for people just like how my family and Marco stayed with me while I am suffering. 

I receive a lot of help and love from people that makes me survive and I want to do the same to others. 

"Ate Ellaine, do you know who is Irene's manager?" I asked while we are on our way to a mall show for my first album. It was release last week. 

"Yes, si Norlaine ang manager niya, why?" I just shook my head as an answer. I just want to know at nakahinga naman ako ng maluwag when I learn that her manager is a girl. She don't really look okay in my eyes and I am afraid that it's concern her work or people around her. 

Dumiretso na lang kami sa mall at nagulat pa ako na makita ang mga kaibigan ko sa unahan na seat. Ang alam ko may mga pasok sila pero kompleto sila na nandito sa mall show ko kasama ng mga fans ko na sinisigaw ang pangalan ko. 

I finally did it, hearing the never ending cheers of people but the exchange of this is not being with Marco. 

After telling Kairi about what happen to me, she didn't ask me to tell her the whole story. She just stick to what I can tell her and she just wait until I can finally tell her everything slowly. It happen last year and I take every step I have slowly and told Kairi everything one by one until I finish until the end. 

I am so glad that she didn't force me that day to talk even after that day she just act like nothing happen. She make me feel that she won't force me to talk about what happen in the past. She just make me feel that she is there. I am so thankful having Kairi and the others in my life. 

Siguro sila yung mga taong binigay sa'kin ni Lea at Tito. Maybe, they know that not having Marco will make me feel lonely, that is why they gave me people I can consider friends. Mostly, Kairi. The only person who knows my pain from the past other than my family.