thoughts & feelings

boys

im trying to replace you
with all these other boys
but nothings working,
because they're not you

its not even like i see parts of you in them
theyre just random people
that like me,
and i guess if they like me that's enough
they give me the attention i wish i could get from you
but its selfish, really
because while theyre pretty much kissing the ground i walk on,
im sat here wishing they were you

its stupid, really
because no boy will ever be you
mainly because you seem different from them
or maybe because ive idolised you
put you on the hightest pedestal
made you into this perfect human being
that can do no wrong
then get shattered everytime you prove that wrong