thoughts & feelings

soon

you say you love me
and you think you mean it
but i think its too soon
am i bad for thinking that?
for not feeling my own emotions
and accepting that i have to open myself up again eventually
and not letting the realisation settle in
that i will break again
it will happen everytime,
there is no avoiding it

i want to tell you how i feel
i want to say it without being terrified of it
because i know when i say it theres no going back
or maybe there is,
but its scary still
what if i hurt you?
what if you hurt me?
all these 'what ifs',
will there ever be any certainty?