thoughts & feelings

10pm

i usually go to sleep around 10pm
i cant usually stay up longer;
im too permanently exhausted
but when im talking to you, all of that goes away

you're nervous for tomorrow,
and i know youll be awake late
so i bought coffee
two of them for me
so i can stay awake as long as you need me
and keep you company
then wake up early tomorrow
despite the tiredness,
the lack of sleep im not used to feeling
and come and comfort you
just because you joked about wanting me there

its times like this i realise,
how much i really do love you
yet i could never tell you
out of fear of losing you,
and all of this that comes with having you