thoughts & feelings

touch

because of you,
i realised a persons touch doesnt have to hurt anymore
that thinking of you when youre not with me isn't a bad thing
sleeping when i want to sleep, not when you want me to sleep
isn't me being the worst person in the world,
that its okay to do
and that as hard as it is,
healing can be a beautiful process
and even if i take a few steps backwards,
it could still be a step forward towards where i want to be,
i just have to rotate my axis
and know that no matter where it points
it will still be facing you

and because of you,
i feel comfortable being close to people again
i know its okay to show affection
to tell my friends i love them,
appreciate people,
even when im sober
and I'm not drowning myself
bottle beyond bottle

in order to feel a misarranged version
of love for anyone and everyone

if it wasnt for you,
i dont think i wouldve ever been able to feel what love feels like
or feel safe within someones touch;
whether its laying in your arms
or having you lay in mine
or simply holding onto you around our friends
having your hand whenever i possibly can
resting my head on your side
i feel at peace within your touch,
and i dont think i could ever get enough of the feeling
that comes along with your embrace