thoughts & feelings

unspoken words

im sorry for everything
im sorry i left
i was the horrible one, i know
it was never you, it was me
and i was just romanticising abuse
so i made you out to be toxic
told everyone you were
over-exaggerated everything that happened
told myself its you, not me
but now im the stupid one
i ended it, and im regretting it
i should be over you
why do i still think about you?

i still listen to your playlist.
43 minutes and 1 second, right?
i added two songs to it though, to make it longer
one that you said was your favourite
and my favourite, that reminds me of you
im listening to it every day at the moment.

i might start listening to your other one
i listen to your music whenever i miss you,
which is all the time, by the way
in a friend way, though
its not completely how it sounds

i just miss our friendship
the voicenotes you sent me
you have a nice voice, you know
its calming
im convinced you could make anything sound nice.
i deleted our dms though,
and i cant listen to the voice notes.
do you think theres a way i can get them back?
ive been trying to, lately

thats pretty much it.
everything i wanted to tell you
all the unspoken words
im sorry for everything.