thoughts & feelings

just friends

i know we're just friends
and im incredibly selfish for wanting more
i already kind of have someone,
someone i dont even want,
who im stringing along to cover up my mental, one-sided affair
and i could pine endlessly over you for months,
or even years
but i dont think i would ever have the guts to do anything
3 small words could ruin what we have
and id rather be secretly in love with you,
than tear apart everything ive tried so hard to build up with you
just because i wanted more
how much more selfish could i be?