thoughts & feelings

regret

i wish you didnt have to leave so soon
i had so many more things to tell you
like how much i love you
i dont think i told you that enough
did i ever tell you how much i need you?
i don't think i did

i regret not opening up more with you
not letting you in as much as i couldve
i think it wouldve been more comforting
if i knew that you know who i am now
but you dont, ive changed
and i hate it
i hate every part of me that changed
but we cant stay 13 forever, right?
or at least i cant,
i wish you didnt have to.

why did you have to leave so soon?
i only had two years with you
half of one was wasted
so does it really count as two years?

i regret many things about what i did and didnt do with you before you left
but most importantly,
i hate it being you,
and wish it was me instead.