Hurt - Eddie Munson

9

*Lana's POV*

"I know you're not gonna want to talk about this, which is fine, but can you at least tell us...  just a little bit... what the hell were you doing with Billy Hargrove all that time? And why were you being so weird with us?"

I could sense how nervous Robin and Steve both were, more nervous than me even, and I took a deep breath to think for a second.

I can't blame them for wanting to know, I'd want to know too if it was one of them. But if i tell them too much they might try to do something, get me sober again or say something to the wrong person.

I need a Xanax.

"Give me a minute." I stood up and walked over to my dresser, opening my jewellery box full of essentials. There was still a nice amount of pills from my last purchase in there, so I smiled to myself and picked up three.

I know they're gonna be mad I relapsed but fuck it, they want the truth - I need some of this.

As I sat down in my previous position, both Robin and Steve staring at me, I swallowed the pills with my beer and saw Steve purse his lips angrily.

"Really Lana? Not that we didn't already know-"

"How did you know?" I asked, shocked by that response. I thought I was good at hiding it.

"You mumble and drag your feet." Robin answered quickly, making us both turn to her. "We both already clocked on that you relapsed, obviously you did how else would you think it's a good idea to run away with Billy Hargrove! But we just want to know that everything is okay and you're not going to run off and scare us like that again because I was really scared Lana! And we want to know why you've been so weird with us and what happened-"

"Oh my god Robin, chill." I laughed and cut her off. The mix of weed, alcohol and Xanax in my system was making me way more relaxed than I ever could be sober, hence why I love the stuff, and it made this conversation easier to come out of my mouth.

"Well we met through Kev-" I began.

Steve scoffed and rolled his eyes "Of course Kev, I fucking hate Kev-"

"Steve!" Robin shouted and then turned back to me with a smile. "Carry on."

"So I met him accidentally when I was picking up, we both just turned up at Kev's spot at the same time-"

"Wait so you relapsed before you even started-"

"Steve!" Robin shouted again. "Shut up!"

I weakly laughed but let out a sigh, feeling my heart hurt even thinking about Billy.

"We basically started hooking up secretly for like maybe two months... yeh about that time I think... and then we got super, out of our minds, fucked up and decided to just ditch Hawkins and drive till we got to New York or something." I laughed as I looked at the shock on Robin and Steve's faces.

The relief I felt finally saying even some of it was incredible, like a huge weight had been lifted off my chest, but I still felt a lump in my throat and didn't know how far I could go.

"That is insane even for you Lana." Steve sighed with a smile.

"Well we obviously didn't reach New York, not even close, I think we got to Fort Wayne maybe?"