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Chapter 27 - No matter how hard I try.

"MuFinn!" Travis yells "Finally!" He hollas, grinning at the twin standing next to me. 

"Finny!" Zoe grins, waving brighlty at my boyfriend. He waves at the table as we walk down to the empty seats. It wasn't too hard to spot the mass of loud people sitting in a usually quiet restuarant. We definitely weren't lost. 

Sawyer sat at the head at the table. Down the left it went Alfie, Zoe, Dan, Phil, Louis, Cyr, Kian and Jack sat down across from us. down the right it went Caspar, Marcus, Maz, Sam P, Layla, Travis, me, Finn then Sam sat on the other end.

"What are you having?" Finn asked me, as he snaked his arm around my waist and pulled me in for a side hug. i grinned up at him and pecked his lips. I loved his lips. They were so soft. 

"Not sure yet" I shrug. We all spent about another fifteen minutes on deciding what we were going to eat, which kind of annoyed the other customers. We were being really loud. Oops?

After we all ordered, Finn was in a deep conversation with Sam about the trip and I was listening to Kian tell Travis about the new lense Travis had gotten earlier.

I looked over to Jack and frowned. He was stabbing a napkin with his knife and had a sour look on his face. What's up with him? I hope the fight between Layla wasn't too bad. I want them to be like they were before. Before I interfered. as much as I want Jack to myself, I want Layla to have him. I want them to love eachother as much as possible. 

"You okay?" Travis asks, nudging my arm. I nodded over towards Jack and gave Trav a worrying look.  "Oi Jack" Travis calls. He looks up from the knife and smiles slightly at us.

"Yeah man?" He asks

"You do the toast" Travis replies, holding out his glass and tapping the side with his fork lightly. Everyone watched as Jack stood up and cleared his throat. I couldn't help but giggle at how scared he looked. I'm not quite sure why, but it was funny.

"Uh..To YouTube" he grins, holding his beer up in the air "and Friendship" His eyes travelled around the table then at the last minute they landed on me "To love" he says softly, his eyes not leaving mine. 

I tore my gaze away and frown. Why was he looking at me? He was supposed to be looking at Layla. Not me. I don't understand this guy.

"FOOD!"

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"That was an amazing night" I sigh happily, throwing my black cardigan on the bed. It honestly was. I made heaps of new friends, had a really good meal, and I'm finally back with my boyfriend.

"It was" Finn smiled, pulling off his shirt. I grinned as his back muscles rippled slightly when he reached for his belt buckle. My boyfriend was hot. 

"Unzip me?' I ask him, pulling my blonde hair over my shoulder. His cold fingers brushed across my back making me shiver, but he didn't seem to undo it. "You okay?" I ask him, turning around, and putting my hand on his arm

He looked at me with a determined look, and inched his head closer towards me"I love you" He huskily whispers in my ear. It sent shivers down my back, but I swear it just got ten times more heated in here. 

"I love you too" I whisper back. I wanted to sound confident, but my voice came out vulnarable. I knew something was going to happen any minute now. I'm not quite sure what, but something was going to happen. I could feel it. 

As if on queue, Finn grabbed my waist and kissed me roughly. I was surprised, but I didn't mind. This is the most rough he's been with me since we've been together, and I'm not complaining. I ran my fingers through his hair and grabbed big chunkes of it, bringing  his face closer to mine -If that was even possible. This was amazing.

He ran me up against the bedroom wall and started kissing down my neck. This was familiar. This felt very familiar. 

Jack

I quivkly pushed the name to the back of my mind and wrapped my leg around his hips.I didn't need him in my mind right now. It's not the time. I moaned out when Finn reached my weak point. Damn him. He continued to suck on the one spot for a couple moments. I could feeling him grinning against my skin, Probably knowing that it was giving me pleasure. 

Jack shot through my mind again, and I squinted my eyes, trying to consentrate on Finn, who was currently sucking on the joint between my shoulder and neck. Not now.

Jack

His hair was softer and longer than Finn's. I loved he way he held me when we kissed that ti- Stop. 

Finn

I grabbed his cheeks and smashed his lips back onto mine, hoping it would erase any thoughts of Jack. 

It didn't work. No matter how much I tried, how much i pushed him away, he still popped back up into my mind. This wasn't fair. He is Layla's. I'm Finn's. I wish things were different.

I couldn't do it anymore.

"Finn" I huff out

"Yeah?" He huskily whispers

"Let go" I mumble, touching his hand that was holding me around his waist. He hesitated for a minute, before he let go and stepped away. His went back to being the familiar Finn i'm used to. The sweet, awkward one.

"Sorry" He mutters, scratching his neck  "Caught in the moment" 

"Um yeah" I mumble "Me too um I will be back" I tell him, before rushing out of the room and Into the upstairs bathroom that was right across the hall. I was still in my dress, but right now i didn't care. I locked the door, then cried. 

And cried. 

And cried more. 

i didn't love Finn anymore

I'm inlove with my boyfriends twin brother and there was nothing I could do about it. Everytime I looked at Finn, I wonder what it would be like if that was Jack and not Finn. What it would be like if i was with Jack. Would everything me different? Would me and him have the same friendship, or would it all just be love? 

Me and Finn were in love. For like three weeks. But I don't love him anymore. How can I love someone who lives in Leeds? We always knew long distance was going to be hard, but I never realised I would fall for his twin! 

I love Jack. 

What the fuck am I going to do? 

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