If only you knew (Camren)

Chapter 40

Lauren's POV

I walked for about 20 minutes and I had a slight feeling where I was going to end up, and my instincts were right. I stood on the drive of my ex-girlfriends drive thinking of things I could say to her. I walked up the drive and stopped when I reached the door. I didn't know what to do next.

I paced slightly on her porch muttering possible things to myself when I finally knock. I heard loads of footsteps and the high pitched squeals of her little sister running down the stairs. I stepped back slightly so I wouldn't be seen stood at their door otherwise they might think I am some psycho or something.

It took me a good few minutes until I reached to knock on the door. "Just do it Lauren" I scolded myself.

With a deep breath I shut my eyes and knocked on the Cabello's door.

"I'll GET IT!" I heard Sofi shout along with something else which wasn't audible enough to hear. Her little head popped up in front of the door and she reached up for the keys. It took her a while to find the right key and then realise which way the key actually turns to open it but soon the door began to open. My heart started to beat so much faster than its usual rate as the door was opening more and more and my mouth went all dry. I stood awkwardly as Sofi looked at me

"LAUREN!" She shouted and looked to the left where I was presuming Camila was.

"Errm is Camz there?" I asked shyly

"Yeah I'll get her!" Sofi said, maybe a little too enthusiastically as she nearly tripped on her way to get her older sister.

Sooner or later I was face to face with Camila. "Wow, she has loads of energy" I said and awkwardly laughed to myself but Camila stayed silent and looked down at her feet.

"I'm sorry Camila, let me explain" I said

"I guess you better come in then" she answered and stepped back so I could enter her house but still kept her eyes on her feet and never once took a glance at me but me on the other hand couldn't stop looking at her. She looked so tired and pale. This wasn't the Camila I last saw, she had colour in her cheeks and a big perky smile. Her eyes looked puffy like she had been crying recently and that made me feel even worse than I already did. Had I really affected her this bad?

I followed her into her living room and Sofi grinned at me, I gave her a slight smile back but I just felt guilt drowning all my other emotions out. "Sofi, can you go upstairs? I'll be up in a bit don't worry. Me and Lauren need to talk" Camila told her little sister. She nodded and ran upstairs.

"Okay, then explain" she said bluntly

"Can I ask you something first?" I questioned "mmhhmm" was her reply

"Do you still love me? I know I still love you and nothing can ever change that" I asked

"Do I still love you? Well answer this for yourself. Ever since we broke up I haven't gone a day without thinking about you then crying. I'm always thinking things like 'was she using me' or 'is she feeling like shit like me'. The amount of times I have picked up my phone and read all our old messages and broken down into tears. Of course I still fucking love you Lauren" She assured me

"Okay" I said with a slight sigh of relief "Now I need to explain. I never wanted to break up with you; I would never have dreamed of doing it, it's just my mum. She doesn't approve of us and she said that if I didn't end it then she will so I didn't want to risk it because that seems like a promise to me. Being the fucked up person I am I did as she said and broke up with you, but I can swear to you that none of it was me wanting to break up with you" I explained

"If she doesn't approve then why come here today?" She replied and started to make eye contact with me finally

"Because Dinah talked some sense into me. She told me to fuck what my mum said, to tell her what I think about her opinion and do what my heart wants the most so that's what I did. I followed my heart and it lead me here." I spoke

"What did your mum say? Has she changed her mind?" Camila asked

"Well let's just say I won't be seeing her in a while...she chucked me out, that's why I have this" I said and pointed to my bag.

"She kicked you out?!" Camila gasped "How can she do that, you're her daughter"

"Well I guess she doesn't understand, don't worry I will find somewhere I guess, we go on tour soon anyway. I'll see if some friends can have me round for a week or so" I shrugged

"Lauren, if only I knew then maybe I could of helped, I wish you had told me" She said

"Well I didn't want to fuck anything else up so I stayed quiet" I admitted

"No! don't say that, you didn't fuck anything up, you was in a tough situation so I now understand why you did it because to be honest I probably would have done the same thing, now you listen to me. I love you Lauren"

"I love you to, I made a mistake, please take me back" I pleaded as I felt tears for the second time today leaving my eyes.

"I'll happily do that, and don't worry about calling a friend and asking for a place to stay, you can just stay here I'm sure my mum will let you. She will treat you as one of her own" Camila suggested

"No i can't do..."

"Lauren" she said sternly "You are staying here okay?"

"Okay" I agreed, and looked down at my feet

"Look at me" Camila said. I looked up at the beautiful brown eyes and felt her brush her lips against mine into a soft kiss. I smiled into it and I felt her smile back. We pulled apart and we both smiled at each other. Something made me look at the top of the stairs and I saw Sofi stood there clinging onto the banister, grinning like a kid in a sweet shop.

"Can Lauren play with us?!" She asked Camila

"Sure thing" My girlfriend replied, took my hand and lead me upstairs

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