If only you knew (Camren)

Chapter 13

Dinahs POV
When Mila told us she wasn't going to come out with the rest of us girls I felt a wave of relief brush over me. The fact that Lauren and Camila are going to be alone does worry me but I know they won't stay in silent, the have to talk to each other. If not then something is seriously up with them. I've not asked either of them what's going on because I just want to give it a bit of time and see if that work things out by themselves.
The whole time I was out I didn't a message from either of them so I gathered things must be going okay. At least I hoped things were going okay. "Dinah?" Ally said on the car ride back to the hotel. I looked at her and nodded my head telling he to carry on
"What's going on with mila and Lauren?" She asked me seriously
"I wish I knew but I have no clue as to what's going on at all" I said honestly. I know Lauren had told Camila about her feelings but there is no way that it is because of that. Camila isn't like that, she will support Lauren all the way though it.
"It's starting to worry me Ya know, the are never like this" Normani told both me and ally. "I know what you mean" I responded.
"I've got them matching christmas presents and everything, they can't be like this forever!" Ally whined, we all laughed at ally's reaction but the rest of the car journey was silent and when we pulled up to the hotel I stared to hope that Camila and Lauren had sorted things out.
We made our way to the elevator and selected the floor where our room was on. Of course there was the odd group of fans that wanted us to sign things which we did.
"Where's Camila and Lauren?" One of the fans asked us 3 girls. "Erm they weren't feeling too well so they stayed in today"
"Yeah whatever" the girl replied in a harsh tone
"What do you mean whatever?" Normani asked
"They are obviously fucking the shit out of each other right now" she told us. The 3 of us looked at each other with wide eyes and our jaws nearly hit the floor. I thought we had gotten used to the Camren remarks but we had never had one like this said to our faces. We quickly signed the things fans wanted us to sign to avoid any more questions and snide remarks then made our was to our room.
I looked around the room to see Camila fast asleep on the sofa but no Lauren. We had been gone like 6 hours, there is no way they didn't sort whatever's going on out. I walked over to Camila to see if she was awake but she was completely zonked out and I could see visible dried up tear marks on her flushed cheeks. Now I knew something had gone on.
I went to the room where Lauren would be and I saw that she was in the bed, propped up on the headboard while on her phone. "Hey" I said to her breaking the silence
"Hi" she said, I could hear a mixer of hurt and anger in the tone of her voice. I excused myself for a moment as I went back into the other room
"Hey guys, I'm gonna talk to Lauren alone for a bit, just don't come in yeah?" I asked politely. They both nodded but couldn't speak because they had already started shoving their faces with food.
I went back into the room where Lauren was in and went to sit next to her on the double bed. "What the hell has been going on Lauren?" I asked her seriously. I looked across at her to see that she had already started crying. I pulled her into a big hug and she held on tight "Don't cry please Lauren, just talk to me" I told her trying to keep my own tears back. She slowly pulled away once she had calmed down a bit.
"I told her how I felt a-a-and now she's not talking to me-e-e" she said with stutters because of the tears. "She tried to talk to talk to me today, but I-I-i told her to leave me alone" she finally got out. "Why did you say that?" I asked her confused
"I couldn't talk to her, I knew she would just ignore me again so a saved myself the pain" she said but I could tell she regretted it and didn't have any real reason.
"Tell me everything your head is saying" I told her placing my arm around her shoulder, she placed her head on my arm and began to talk.
"I keep asking myself the same questions over and over again. Who's gonna be the first one to start the fight? Who's gonna be the first one to stop the tears from falling? Who's gonna be the last one to forget how close we was? Who's gonna be the last one to walk away and forget every single promise we ever made? It's almost like the spaces between us and getting deeper and it's getting harder and harder to reach her even though I've tried my hardest but now I've just slowly given up, they hold all our secrets that just leave us both speechless and I don't know why. She has now realised how big of a mistake she has made and is trying to get me back, but I'm not so sure whether I want to or not. The worst question that I can't get out of my head is who's gonna be the first to say goodbye? I'm only human, I can't go though this kind of pain. I crash and I break down, her words are stuck in my head and they are like knifes in my heart. She built me up but then knocked me down, I thought I was stronger than this but I guess I don't know myself as much as I thought I did" she spilled out all at once. "I don't think either of you will say goodbye, she's just shocked that you have feelings like that for her. Give her a little while for it to set it and then when she tries to talk to you just talk about it" I told her trying to be as supportive as possible
"That's the thing though, I could of spoken to her today, but when she speaks to me the anger gets the better of me and I just want to shout at her" she told me, which was true. She has always been the one to let the anger to get the better of her.
"You need to learn to control yourself more, just count to 10 when she walks up to you and try and clear your head from all the bad things and replace it with the good things" I told her.
"That's easier said than done. I just want to go back to the start and make everything better because I miss the way we were back then, how we laughed at everything. I can feel her in my heart and I thought that we would last forever, she was by my side and now she's gone, because I ruined everything and now everything has changed" She said and I could see her eyes glazing over again
"It's not your fault Lauren! You can't blame yourself for this" I objected
"Then who's fault is it dinah?" She asked sharply
"No ones, Nope of you caused this. You can't help the feelings you have whether it's for a boy or a girl, either way you love them and that's all that matters" I told her
"Urgh this is so hard! I just want it all to end!" Lauren said sounding very frustrated
"Just chill Lauren, don't let it get the better of you" I said to her firmly while looking her in the eye before standing up "come on" I said while grabbing her arm and pulling her off the bed
"What where?" She asked slightly confused
"We have food, normani and ally had already started to eat it when I came in here so don't blame me if its all gone, they were scoffing it like it was going out of fashion" I said trying to make her laugh but didn't succeed
"I'm not hungry" she said and sat back down on the bed again.
"No come on" I said dragging her up and pulling her with me into the other room
"For fucks sake" I heard her mutter under her breath but ignored her and continued to pull her into the room.
There's no way she's going to keep acting like this around me, I'll soon get hr old Lauren back im sure.