If only you knew (Camren)

Chapter 3

Lauren's POV
When mine and Camila's lips disconnected I felt my heart pounding and it wouldn't slow down. The 3 other girls in the room looked gobsmacked so I looked at Camila and she looked at me and bit her bottom lip. I could see her cheeks were flushed which made mine redden more than they already were. Thankfully Ally ended the game by telling us she was going to bed. I don't think I could have continued if there was heated dares like that. I helped clear up and I went straight to my bunk after saying night to the girls.
I laid there while the bus was quiet, just the sound of the engine breaking that silence. Since the kiss I had with Camila that's all that was on my mind, the feel of her lips were there and I could still taste her lips on mine. I wonder if she has been thinking of the things I have been thinking about. I took a deep breath while telling myself that I'm stupid for thinking that she would be thinking the same things of me. It was only a dare; it didn't mean anything I had to keep reminding myself.
A few more minutes of lying there passed. I knew for a fact I wouldn't be able to sleep, not tonight. The only way I would be able to get a good night's sleep is with my arms wrapped around Camila. She always has been the one who helps me get to sleep easily and she knew that, so I decided to get my phone out and text her.
About 5 minutes later I found myself in her bunk with my arms wrapped around her. I'm glad she was still awake and was so inviting. My hand played with hers as I listened to the soothing breathing of the younger that was curled up next to me.
"You are a great kisser by the way" I heard myself saying. I didn't indent on saying that, it just kinda slipped out.
"Thank you, so are you" she replied quite quickly. Well I'm glad I didn't make anything awkward there. I told her I was going to sleep and we said goodnight to each other. I then found myself telling her that I love her. Luckily she said she loves me back. Of course I love her, as a friend any way. But for some reason since that kiss I had started to question it.
Finally I fell asleep but I had quite the dream and I have never had a dream like that before.

Laurens dream
It was my 20th birthday and us 5 girls had been given a 6 month break from the music business so we could catch up with family, friends but most importantly our sleep. As me and Camila both live in Miami we spent the day together. She came round my house at around 10am, of course I was still in my PJs but I didn't care. I invited her into the house and she passed me the present she had got for me.
"Awww thanks Camila" I said kissing her on the cheek "No problem, a good friend deserves a good present" she replied smiling. I told my mum I was going up to my bedroom for a while and Camila followed me close behind. I jumped on my bed and she jumped next to me.
"Sooooo are you gonna open it?" she asked. I didn't even realise I was staring at her perfect lips. "Oh shit yeah, sorry I was in a world of my own" I said quickly trying not to sound awkward. She laughed to herself and watched me carefully tearing open the beautifully wrapped gift. For some reason I felt my heart pounding out of my chest but I managed to hold myself together. I got all the paper off the present and saw the most beautiful handmade scrapbook in my hands.
she had got me the most perfect gift ever. I noticed she had been taking a lot of pictures of me when we are out on tour, and the selfies had been increasing but now I know why.
I opened the first page to reveal a page full of writing
"Woah Camila, I know I like to read but this is loads!" I said really shocked
"Ahah I guess I can write loads about you" she admitted
I started to read the message and I knew straight away it was going to make me tear up.

"Well, we'll do I start. I'm not much of a writer unlike you but I'll give it a go. You Lauren Jauregui are my world. You are the salt to my pepper, the moon to my sun, we are like batman and robin and I promise we will be together till we are old and grey. You make me smile when I am down, I know you will always be there for me and I will happily repay the favour. You know me better than I know my self, you know me inside out and it is a privilege to call you my best friend. I want you to know that our friendship means a lot to me... you cry, I cry, you laugh, I laugh, you jump off the window, I ain't gonna jump. Instead, I'll catch you with my arms and hug you tight! I can't ever let you go never ever ever. You mean to much to me and I would be lost without you. Life is unpredictable. You may not live long and miss out telling your friends that they're appreciated. So I'm telling you now that life won't be the same without you as one of my friends. I may be gone for a minute, second, hours and for a day, but I will always be here for you. I might not be able to greet you "good morning", "good evening" or "good night", but I will never say goodbye! I know for a fact we have had many ups and downs in our crazy friendship but without them we won't be the people we are today. We learn from our mistakes and they make us better people. I'm happy to say that you are a part of my life and I honestly can't imagine a world without you now, to be honest I don't want to imagine a world without you because that would be utter torture. You are the one person in this world that I would never trade with anyone else. You've given me memories so unique in you and what else?! Guess they'll never understand unless they get the chance to get to know you. Please always remember to walk with me when you feel your heart needs company. Take my hand when you feel all alone. Turn to me when you need someone to lean on because I'm a friend you can always depend on. You are my best friend, you are crazy and when people think they have reached the bottom of your craziness I know that there is another crazy underground garage and I love that about you. Don't get me started on those prefect green eyes of yours. They are so hypnotising and anyone would be able to get lost in them. I know I have said this many times but my life would really suck without you and I am so glad I met you. Any one would be lucky to have you in their life. I hope you have a great 20th birthday because you deserved it. I love you Lauren,
Lots of from your best friend Camila xxx"

Once I finished reading I felt my eyes welling up. I looked up at her and she was grinning at me. I literally jumped at her and wrapped my arms around her and squeezed her tight
"Camila how do you do that?"
"Do what?" She asked
"Make me feel so special and make me realise I'm not as strong as I think"
"I don't really know, just speaking from my heart I guess" she said blushing.
"I fucking love you!" I told her
"I love you too" she said while I was looking though all the pictures she had stuck into the scrapbook. Once I reached the end I shut the book and smiled at her.
"I have something else too" she said pulling something out of her pocket. She passed it to me and I began to unwrap it. It was a necklace with a little note taped to it. The note read
"To my best friend, make a wish and put on your necklace. I believe we are meant to be friends. Let your necklace be a daily reminder that your love and friendship is an amazing gift to me"
I hugged her once again and made my wish then put the necklace on.
"Lauren?" Camila began
"Yeah?" I asked
"If I tell you something, you promise it's not going to make things awkward"
"You can tell me anything" i reassured her
"Okay" she took a deep breath before she spoke again "I think I love you, but more than a friend. I understand if you don't feel the same way and I can try and forget about these but..." I couldn't help myself, so I decided to shut her up by connecting our lips. As I kissed her she seemed tense but when I gently cupped her cheek she started to kiss back
"I think I love you too" I told her
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I was woken up by Camila gently shaking my shoulder "hey, you" she said when I opened my eyes "good morning camz" I said smiling
"We need to get up we have a busy day" she reminded me
"Ahh crap yeah, I best get out then" I said laughing because I had completely blocked the exit for her to get out. I walked into the front of the bus
"Morning guys, who's in the shower?" I asked
"No one at the minute" ally told me
"You don't mind if I go for one?"
"Sure, just don't be too long" ally replied. I nodded and walked towards the bathroom. On the way I bumped into Camila and I accidentally knocked her over which caused me to land on top of her. Our lips were so close to touching "why hello again" she said laughing
"Shit I'm sorry" I said chuckling and getting up so she could stand. She laughed at me and moved out of the way so I could go past.
When I got in the bathroom and toon my clothes off and stepped into the shower. The cold water running off my skin but I didn't move. All of the thoughts about Camila came running to me. The kiss, the dream and now I fell on top of her and nearly kissed her.
No I can't, I don't love my best friend. Not like they any way, it would ruin everything if I did. I can't love her like that. Thoughts both good and bad running through my head sending me crazy. Why am I even thinking about this it didn't even mean anything to her it was only a dare. I'm sure it's just the spur of the moment. It'll pass I kept telling myself, at least that's what I want to happen. What if I do love her more than a friend?