If only you knew (Camren)

Chapter 48

Camila's POV
I woke up with that sense of security I always feel when Lauren is around. I looked up at her and saw her eyes were still shut tight and her breathing was shallow so I stayed put as I didn't want to wake her. I grabbed my phone which was only just reachable. I didn't have many notifications which was good, just a couple messages from the other girls and the tour manager telling us the times we need to be at the airport in the next couple days. As well as those there was an Instagram notification. Lauren had tagged me in something. Without thinking of what it could be I just opened up the app and waited for the post to load.
It finally loaded and I saw a picture of me and her at one of the meet and greets, we were hugging one another and we both looked incredibly happy, below the picture was a paragraph so I decided to read it.
'@ camila_cabello, where do I start. Well for starters I love you and I want the whole world to know it, I love you all the way to the moon and back. Well to be honest words can't describe how much I love you because you make me feel like a completely different person and to do that you must be a very special person to me as not many people can bring out the real me. You have something about you I have never really noticed in anyone else and for someone to have that effect on me must mean I am crazy over you and I am definitely falling for you. I have always wanted someone in my life who could love all of my insecurities and you do. Thank you for that because it makes me feel like a better person. This may sound weird and creepy but as I watch you sleeping in my arms right now I can't help but smile at how cute you look. Don't you ever forget that if you ever need to fall I'll be there to catch you and put you on your feet because you're my back bone and I'll happily be yours, feel free to tell me your secrets and ask me your questions because I will always be there for you. No one said it'll be easy but I love you so I'll do what it takes to keep on spending everyone of my living days with you. You don't have to do anything at all but be yourself to make me fall in love more and more. You dress up so nice but all I can see is your eyes, those beautiful brown orbs locking with mine sends tingles through me making my hairs stand on end. I would do absolutely anything for you and nothing really had prepared me for the feeling of having you I my life, I wish you could see the way you smile when you blush and the way you curl your lip when you concentrate enough, because all of that is what I live for. I live for you Camila. You have a way with words that can dazzle anyone, your kisses are truly touching and your touch has a reassuring feeling, the feeling that you'll always be there for me. I'll surrender who I am for who your are because nothing makes me strong than your loving heart. I knew we would have a story even without being a couple and I knew that both of us together would tell it well. As cheesy as all this sounds it's all true and while I am in this sappy mood I have decided to share it with everyone. No matter what we go through we will get through it because as a brilliant author once said 'a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor' oh and by the way I have plans for us later so don't sleep in to long okay babe?"
I finished reading the message and wiped the tears that I didn't even realise was falling down my cheeks. I was speechless to be honest, no one has ever made me feel this way and to feel like it was amazing because I know she loves me, no matter what people say I know she does.
It's a nice feeling to know you're loved by that one person who means to world to you, and now I have that feeling I don't know what it would be like to be without it because I makes me feel whole, makes me feel better about myself and in this industry you need a person like that to love you and be there for you. The amount of crap we get thrown at us daily makes all 5 of us as well as other celebrities feel shitty about themselves. I just wish no one would give the hate.
If I ever catch someone giving Lauren hate or even hating on our relationship they will get it, I don't give a fuck what the manager says or what the media says, those bitches aren't gonna get aways with it.
"Camila" my mum said interrupting my thoughts.
"Shhh Lauren's sleeping still" I informed her
"Sorry" she said as she walked into my bedroom "this letter came for you today, I didn't want to open it because I don't know what it is but let me know once you find out" she told me
"Okay, just leave it on the side here" I pointed.
She did as I asked and left me and a sleeping Lauren alone again. I picked up the letter "the hospital" I said to myself....fuck
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"Good morning beautiful" I said as I saw Lauren's eyes finally fluttering awake
"Halloooo" she said in a cheery tone along raspiness of her morning voice which make me smile.
"Someone's happy?" I asked her
"Yeah I am, I don't know why but I think it has something to do with waking up with you in my arms still" she said proudly
"Aww stop it with the soppy stuff! You had me crying at freakin 7:30 this morning because of that Instagram post, honestly Lauren you say my way with words is good but you should really look at your own, they're truly touching" I told her
"I guess I was kinda in a bit of a sappy mood last night" she chuckled
"A bit?!" I exclaimed which made her laugh.
"Fancy some breakfast?" I asked her
"Nope I fancy you" she said biting her lip
"Smooth Lauren, so smooth. Come on get your ass out the bed and come get some waffle with me, I think I can smell them cooking downstairs"
"Waffles? Nooo they smell like pancakes" she corrected
"Waffles, pancakes what ever they are I want them" I informed her and took her hand as I got out my bed. No matter what I thought of or what I was doing the thought of that unopened letter haunted my mind. What was it? When would I open it? Is it bad? Or is it good? I have no fucking clue and it's driving me crazy. The fact Lauren is completely oblivious of it and has made plans for us today makes me feel incredibly guilty because I have no clue how my mood is going to be with this on my shoulders.
I'm gonna have to open it sooner or later right, I can't just not open it.
For fucks sake camila get your shit together I thought to myself as shook my head to get the thoughts away.
By the time Lauren and I reached the bottom of the stairs my clouded mind has slightly cleared so I could hopefully spend the day well with my girlfriend.

Comment and like! I've got free wifi in some shop so I though I would update this. I'll be home in a bit so expect another update soon as I have a couple ideas:)