If only you knew (Camren)

Chapter 42

Lauren's POV

I woke up to expecting Camila to be lying at the side of me...but she wasn't. Just an empty, cold space where her body had previously been. I tried not to over think it but I couldn't hear anyone downstairs or in the bathroom which was strange. Its 8am ish in the morning, she would usually be sleeping right now. When she gets time off she sleeps, no doubt about it. I grabbed my phone and scrolled through tumblr for a few minutes waiting for her to return but still nothing. Being slightly too impatient even for my own liking I decided to text her

8:09am - to Camz<3

Hey you, where have you got to? I'm worried babe please reply x

I sent the text and returned to tumblr because there was nothing else I could do. I would have gone downstairs to look for her but I don't like roaming around people's houses when I am the guest. I love both of her parents and according to Camila they love me too but I don't know, just not alone if you get what I mean. Shit but what if she was down there alone and something has happened to her... she is sick after all. She might have passed out, or lost her breath or something! Oh my god Lauren stop over thinking.

8:21 - to Camz<3

Come on Camz where are you? Please reply and come home where ever you are, im seriously worrying now and I don't even know why x

After I sent the last text I heard the front door of Camila's house close quietly. I sat up in the bed I had slept in last night and waited for Camila to come back into her bedroom. She slowly walked up the stairs like she was trying not to wake anyone but I was already awake.

The bedroom door opened and she closed it behind her, she still hadn't seen I was awake. She faced the bed and saw me watching her

"Erm hey" She said

"Hey, really? Where have you been and why haven't you replied to any of my texts? I was worried sick" I asked her quite bluntly

"You text me?" Was all she said as she got her phone out of her pocket "Oh it's dead..." She finished

"Thats still not answered my question Camila, where were you? From what I can remember last time you was sneaking off you was going to hospital appointments about your illness" I reminded her

"You promise you won't get mad at me?" she asked me with quite a sorry look on her face

"Okay I promise I guess" I replied

"I went to see your mum" she finally answered. I looked at her blankly as I tried to think why she would do that, but nothing came to mind

"Why?" Was all I said

"I tried to make things better and..." Was all she could say before I let my annoyance get the better of me.

"And made things worse I guess? You had no right to do that Camila! It's my mess and my mum I can sort things out for myself and if I wanted to I would have done it. You have probably gone and made things 10 times worse now, just think next time! Ask me before you go and get yourself involved in my situations" I snapped. She looked at me and blinked hard obviously trying to hold back tears. Great I made her cry, now I feel bad.

"Camz I didn't mean to make you cry, I'm sorry, it's just annoyed me I guess" I looked down at my hands as I picked at my nail that I had been picking at for the last few minutes while I waited anxiously for her to return.

There was a silence before Camila finally spoke again

"She does approve of us Lauren"

"She what?"

"She does approve, she is just worried about your career. She thinks it'll ruin things for you because of hate and all the media crap." Camz mumbled

"Did she say that?" I just kept questioning

"Well not in those exact words but along those lines, yes" I just sat there regretting everything I said to Camila in the last few minutes. She helped me and made things better

"and the reason I did it, it was because I saw behind the smile you was putting on all day yesterday. I knew you were hurting because I often saw you just wondering off into a world of your own obviously thinking about things. I didn't like seeing you like that, I wanted to help and I just didn't know how and that was the only thing I could think of doing" She explained. I got myself out of the bed sheets and walked over to Camila and pulled her into a big hug.

"Camz, I'm sorry I raised my voice. If only I knew, I wouldn't have done it. I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions so quickly" I apologized

"It's okay, I should of woken you up and told you to be honest, I was the one who did the wrong thing." She tried to say

"No, don't say that. You didn't do anything wrong, you helped me Camz and I am grateful for that because otherwise I wouldn't know what you just told me, you are right. I was hiding behind a smile yesterday and I did keep drifting off into my own bubble of thoughts and fantasies so all I can say is thank you and I'm sorry again"

"I love you" She said giving me a quick peck on the lips

"I love you too beautiful" I said back also with a kiss.

We pulled away from the hug and kiss and she looked at me and smiled her eyes lighting up the whole room. Wow I love her so much, what I would do without her I don't know...

"Can we go back to bed? I got up way to early" my girlfriend whined.

"Sure thing babe" I replied and she grabbed my hand as she dragged her to her bed.

We both got comfy, she was lying with her head on my chest and I had my arms wrapped around her

"I can hear your heart, its really fast" She said randomly

"Well it only beats fast for you" I said

"Smoothhhhh Lauren" She said playfully

"Don't believe me then" I playfully said back

"Fine"

"Fine" I said and lifted a head up for another kiss but she only allowed a small peck

"You jerk" I said

"I'm not a jerk!" She said as she pretended to be offended

"You're my jerk" I announced

"I am your jerk and proud" She agreed with a big cheesy smile that made me feel like the happiest person alive.

Well I finally updated and I hope you like it XD Like and comment because it means a lot and it gives me motivation to write the next chapterJ Thank youuuuu