If only you knew (Camren)

Chapter 5

Lauren's POV
The last few days have been really relaxing we haven't had many interviews so we could just sit around on the bus or in the hotel. Me and Camila shared a room as per usual but this time it only had one double bed. Did that bother me? No, not one bit. I loved sleeping in the same bed as her, just knowing she is that close to me makes my stomach do flips. I have finally come to terms with the fact I might have feelings for Camila but I have no clue what to do about it. Maybe I should just play it cool and see what happens. I know for a fact she won't ever feel the same way so I just need to learn to forget then and hope they go away, but it's not going to be easy.
Today we was at the premiere of the hunger games-mockingjay. Me and Camila was really hyped up about this because we love these books and we can't wait to see the film. We was getting ready to go to the premiere in our hotel room. I had picked out a tight, short red dress with black high heels and of course I had to take my signature red lipstick for when I went to get my make up done. Camila on the other hand went for a completely different look to me. She had a white dress which was long at the back and shorter at the front and it wasn't too tight but tight enough so you could see her beautiful figure. She looked flawless.
"Wow Camila!" I said as she walked though from getting changed.
"Thanks, but seriously you need to look In the mirror, you look stunning" she told me. I couldn't help but blush at the compliment my best friend had just given me. "Aww thanks camz" I said smiling. I took her hand and we went to get our make up done. That took at least a good half an hour each so we needed a good 3 hours for all 5 of us to get our hair and make up done.
Finally we all got ready and we went outside where the limo met us. Dinah, Ally and Normani sat on the left side of the limo and me and Camila sat on the back seats. "Is it just me who is going to go crazy when we meet Jennifer Laurence?" I asked the 4 girls
"ME TOO!" Camila shouted from next to me. The other girls all agreed but they didn't seem as bothers as me and Camila.
We finally arrived at the premier and we heard fans screaming our names which was always a nice welcome. That's when I saw a familiar face.
"Camila, who's that girl I have seen her before but I don't know where"
"Oh my god, it's that girl from the airport! Let's go say hi" she said grabbing my and as she pulled me over to the young girl we had met before.
"Hey you!" Camila greeted her "how are you?" She asked.
"I'm great thank you, how are you both?" She responded politely.
"We are fine thank you" I answered for the both of us. "How is things? Are they better since we last spoke?" I asked her carefully not wanting to upset her
"They are great" you young one said with a beaming smile "I told my friend how I felt towards her and she was completely supportive and after a couple days past she told me she thinks she fed the same way"
"So are you both a couple now?" Camila asked
"Not yet, we are taking it slow, we don't want to ruin our friend ship by rushing things"
"Well that's great to hear!" I told her"
"And that picture you put on Twitter was beautiful, it is now both out our lock screens" I added while taking my phone out and showing the girl. She smiled at us both. Unfortunately we had to say our goodbyes as an interviewer wanted to talk to me and Camila.
We walked over to the woman who wanted to interview us. She seemed nice so we was happy to talk to her
"Well hey there Camila and Lauren. Or should I say Camren" the older womb said with a smirk. I chuckled at the welcome and we both said hello to the camera.
"You don't mind if I ask a few questions at all do you?" The interviewer asked
"Sure go ahead" Camila told her
"Well for a starters, do you guys know who Camren is? I'm guessing you have heard it but do you know fully?" She asked. I rolled my eyes at the question. I didn't want to but I had to show that I didn't actually mean anything by it. I was going to answer but Camila ready spoke up. "Errm yeah... It's kinda our relationship" she said. Relationship?! I thought to myself. My head started pounding, just the thought of us being in a relationship made me feel dizzy.
"Relationship?" The interviewer quizzed us
"I think she means close friendship" I said trying to save us from thousands of tweets we will be getting later with people asking us if we are in fact in a relationship.
We answered a few more questions and it went pretty smoothly.
"I have one final question for Camila, it's from @camren_is_real on Twitter. She asks you do you have a Prince Charming?" Camila laughed at this question which made me smile. I knew for a fact she didn't and from what she was telling me the other day she didn't really seem bothered by having a relationship. After her mini laughing fit she finally answered
"No I don't, any way why do I need a Prince Charming when I have my best friend" she said while looking at me with a wide smile.
"Awwww" I heard the interviewer say. Yeah it was cute but I couldn't help but die a little inside. That's just told me that she only sees me as a friend and its proved that straight away. I tried not to show that I was hurt so I just smiled and pulled Camila into a big hug.
The night was soon over and we was all extremely tired. We made our way back to the hotel and we all decided to stay in one room tonight as we hadn't really spoke much tonight and we all wanted to share our stories from tonight.
After an hour Camila was fast asleep on the bed and Normani and Ally were cuddled up to each other on the little sofa. This left just me and dinah awake and I felt like I wasn't going to sleep. I was in a day dream when dinah tried to get my attention
"Hey Lauren, are you okay?" Dinah asked sounding concerned.
"Yeah I'm fine" I said not taking my eyes of the wall I had been looking at for the past 5 minutes
"No you aren't, you can't lie to me. You haven't been right all night. I know something is up so let's try again, what's up?" She said quite firmly this time. I took a deep breath. Do I tell her or do I make something up. If I tell her she could help me get though this, but on the other hand it could make things 100 times worse. I took the risk and spoke up.
"Promise not to tell any one. None of the others can know this" I warned her
"Yeah I promise" she said while coming to sit next to me on the floor
"Ever since that kiss with Camila I have had these crazy feelings inside me. I think I am starting to love her and it's got to the point where I don't know who I am any more. She is the person I want to cuddle and talk to all night long. I love hearing the sound of her voice, whether it's just talking or singing it still sends shivers down my spine. I admit it, I am waiting for something that will never happens. Everyone knows how insecure I can be, but when I'm with her I feel a free as a bird like no one can bring me down even if they shot me there and then. Sometimes I wonder does she ever smile at my texts like I smile at hers, I just want to be with her so badly. But I know I'll never have her in the way I want her" I spilled out in one breath.
"I knew it!" She said quite loudly
"What do you mean?" I asked in a whisper.
"it's so obvious you love her. The way you look at her. Don't worry it's not that noticeable I just pay a lot of attention to these things and I think it's so god damn cute, I'm jealous" she admitted
"I don't know what to do, I know for a fact she doesn't love me back and it makes me want to cry when I realise we will never be together" I said as my voice began to crack
"How do you know that?" She asked me
"Did you see that interview with me and Camila today?" She shook her head "well let's just say to me it seemed like she only sees me as a friend and nothing more" I said looking at the ground
"You and Camila have what's called 'skinny love' "
"What's that?" I asked the younger girl
"Its's when two people love each other, but are too shy to admit it, yet they show it anyway. Look, people fall in love not knowing why or how. It's a very special feeling that it doesn't require any answer. You just love them no matter how stupid you become, But remember no regrets. You are just friends that speak like lovers, look at each other like lovers, and act like lovers. That seems enough for two teenagers who are scared to love one another" she said, we'll that was pretty deep for dinah!
"I'm scared I'm going to lose somebody who wasn't even mine, the more I talk about her, the more I fall in love with her"
"we don't have to talk about her if you don't want to? We can just end this conversation now and not bring it up again if you want?" She asked
"no I want to keep talking, the thing is I want to love her even though I know I'll end up with a broken heart. The way she looks at me, I mean she's the only one that actually looks at me like that. I just really wish emotions had an off switch. I just wanna scream and cry for hours but instead I smile and laugh. It's mentally killing me" I said as I felt the tears running down my face.
"Come here" dinah said scooting closer so she could hug me. We hugged for a good few minutes, till my tears had dried up.
"Now you listen to me" she said while holding both of my arms
"No matter what happens you have my full support. I will always be here for you and if things go wrong then you know where to come. I won't tell any one about this but if you ever do need to talk just let me know" she said firmly
I nodded my head and closed my eyes
"You're tired, come on go get in bed, Camila looks pretty lonely over there" she said smiling while standing up.
"Thank you" I said quietly
"No problem, I'm happy to help" she told me while she got into her own little bed on the floor. We said our goodnights and I got into the bed with Camila and looked at the beautiful creature sleeping. I think she must have felt my presence because as soon as I turned my back to her so I could sleep without getting distracted I felt her getting closer and she wrapped her arms around my waist pulling me in so we was basically spooning each other.
I knew for a fact that this is not going to be an easy little crush.