If only you knew (Camren)

Chapter 41

Camila's POV

Since Lauren has been here shes had a smile on her face, but I know for a fact that the smile she has isn't real. Shes broken inside but she won't show it because she doesn't want people to think shes weak. She thinks people don't see that shes hurting but shes not fooling me one bit. I see the pain behind her eyes when she doesn't think I'm looking. The smile disappears and her eyes look sad, the memories and thoughts obviously rushing around her head.

I must have been awake for a hour now and I watch her troubled eyes resting and I fall more in love with every breath she takes. The little smile she often makes pulls on my heart stings, I wonder if I'm the one who shes dreaming of.

I slowly pulled away from her warm grasp after some thoughts whizzed around my own head, I may make things worse but right now I am trying to make things right for Lauren.

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I knew her mum leaves home early in the morning to go to work so I should just catch her in time. I grabbed my shoes, I didn't bother changing my clothes because she only lives about 20 minutes away from me. 7:30am, Lauren shouldn't wake up for a bit, if I'm lucky then she might not even know I'm gone, but i guess either way I better tell her what I am trying to do.

I walked out my front door trying not to make much noise because if my parents knew I was sneaking out I wouldn't hear the end of it and as for Lauren, she'd probably try and stop me from trying to fix things. She's really stubborn, she will just tell me not to bother because she doesn't want things sorting out when I know full well that she is hurting about this. I know she would try and do the same for me so I need to think like she does for a bit.

I was almost at Lauren's house when I stopped. What if I make things much worse than they already are? Lauren will kill me. But what if it makes things so much better? I could put her life back on track. URGH. I have no clue what to do!

After a good couple of minutes stood on the corner of the road I finally took the risk and walked the last part of the journey. 7:55am. I knew her mum left in 5 minutes or so, so I waited around the front of her house until then, I felt like I couldn't physically knock on the door... I would just freeze.

For 5 minutes I stood there pacing on the front of Lauren's family home waiting for her mum to come out, sooner or later I saw the front door open.

My heart started beating faster than its usual rate as I made eye contact with my girlfriends mum.

"Camila? Is that you?" She asked

"Erm yeah it is" I muttered

"Lauren isn't here" She replied bluntly

"I know, shes at mine, I was wondering if i could talk to you for a minute, it wont take long" I asked but felt like I was pestering

"I guess so, it will have to be quick because I can't be late for work" she agreed. I nodded and began to speak
"I know you don't approve of me and Lauren being together, I just want you to know that I love your daughter and she loves me just as much as you love your husband. Just because we are of the same gender doesn't mean it's wrong, it just means we're interested in different things. She is your daughter, your oldest child, don't you want to support her in times like this?" I said
"Look, it's not that I don't like you, I think you're an amazing person Camila and I know you love each other like crazy but I'm thinking about both of your careers. If people start giving you crap for being gay with each other then I don't know. I can't bare to think of some of the things people will say about you both" she admitted
"So you do approve of us?" I questioned
"I do, I just don't want things to get out of hand and I think it's for the best if you're not together while you're growing in the industry" Clara answered
"I can almost assure you more than 3/4 of the fans are full on camren shippers, when I log onto Twitter that's all I see, I never see any hate against it saying how it's gross, the fans already know now so telling us we can't be together isn't going to do anything. Lauren has been hiding being her smile today, I can see she's hurting inside, I know she doesn't want to fight with you about who she loves because she loves you just as much" I tried to explain
"She's very good at hiding her feelings" her mum said quietly
"Yeah I figured, can you just think about it, I understand if you don't want us to be together but everyone already knows so I doubt anything will stop us from being together" I told her "Lauren will be staying at my house just in case you're wondering, she came over yesterday. Thank you Clara, I hope you understand where I am coming from" I said with a smile and walked off before she could say anything else.
I took a deep breath as I walked around the corner, all the pros and cons of the recent conversation I just had with Lauren's mum. Hopefully she will realise where I am coming from and give me and Lauren a chance, she is her mum after all and Lauren is old enough to make her own decisions. I just hope I did the right thing and not made things ten times worse.

Sorry about the late update, I've been writing the last chapter of this story:D don't worry it's no where near the end I just had a random idea so I wrote it before I forgot. Keep up the likes and comments XD