Rhink One Shots

Secret Moments

{TEENAGE RHINK}

Warning: a bit of homophobic thoughts.

Was it even possible to love someone this much? Years. It has been years and many different experiences yet still, at his 19's, Link couldn't stop thinking about that guy with who, at this point, he has shared the biggest part of his life.

The thought of maybe one day not sharing his routine with his longtime friend genuinely scared him. This feeling for him, more than friends, had come around when they were 14. One day Link looked at Rhett when they were playing at a park, he felt butterflies in his stomach and such a big urge to embrace the other guy and be affectionate with him. The dark haired boy felt confused since then. The foreign feelings wouldn't go away and Link didn't know what to do to make them disappear.

Sometime into it, he realized that he liked Rhett. Really liked. Yet he obviously didn't do a thing about it. The only time he seen two boys kissing was at someone's 16th birthday party, as a dare for a game. Everyone laughed at the situation since the room was filled with intoxicated teenagers with their hormones jumping around, yet Link found it interesting. At the back of his head a voice echoed saying "I wouldn't mind to try that", but he quickly shook that away. Boys don't do that. It was wrong and the fact that two guys kissed at this party would never leave the room. It was hard to snap out of it though, since Rhett was also there. And he looked stunning. The plastic cup in his hand with an alcoholic drink in there and his favorite fancy shirt really complimented him with the weak lightening of the room. Link sat on the sofa, between some strangers, and admired his friend from far away. Rhett cheerfully talked with a group of people, his smile making Link smile at himself.

That night Link made out with a girl. July was one of the most popular girls at the school and the dark haired boy got really surprised when she accepted to go with him outside "just to run away from the noise for a bit". She was really nice looking and Link was almost sure she had a boyfriend. They sat at a bench that was in the middle of the small backyard of the house, and looked at the cloudless sky. She commented on how beautiful the moon was that night, and with that she put her hand on Link's, in between them. He was nervous about this whole thing, thinking that maybe he should just go home. But it was too late when July turned his face to hers with just one finger and gave him a soft kiss. As Link closed his eyes, there was a moment when he thought if kissing Rhett also felt like this. Probably not. His lips must be sharper; his weak facial hair would also make a contrast for sure.

He only stopped thinking about that when the girl backed away. He could see her shy smile through the light of the moon, and smiled too, then looking at the sky again.

When Link got back home, he wanted to slap himself. Because that kiss was supposed to mean something, make him feel something, but it didn't. He didn't felt a thing inside. Just soft nice lips pressed on his that then left a flavor of strawberries in his mouth. It took him forever to fall asleep, maybe he didn't even sleep. His mind traveled to different places, every single one of them having Rhett included.

As the years passed, Link thought he'd get over this. He convinced himself that thinking about Rhett in this way would completely ruin them, which was even worse than not kissing him. He tried to date girls, but the dating wouldn't pass longer than a month. It frustrated him. He was frustrated with himself. So quickly, Link became a really closed guy. Allowing feelings taking over his body wasn't an option. Demonstrating emotions of weakness or hurt wasn't an option either.

Rhett noticed those changes right along. When they moved into the dorms of their college and chose their room, first thing Rhett did was locking the door and having a conversation with him. Link wanted to break something when that happened. He did the impossible to remain neutral for the entire conversation and convince Rhett that everything was just fine. Then he left the room, got in his car and drove for some time until he reached the woods that were not much far away from the university. He hyperventilated and lay on the ground for an unknown amount of time, cursing himself at having such strong reaction.