"Joon's Dia"

(Chapter 20: Let's Agree)

"Blue." I heard his voice and couldn't help but cry. He heard me sobbing and he pleaded with me. "Baby, turn on the video camera please, so I can see you."

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I had answered his call but didn't say a word and also took off the video. Not only I didn't want him to see me crying but I was dressed in my thin strapped see through top and really short pyjama bottoms. I loved wearing almost nothing to bed. Never naked but almost and I knew if he saw me like this it would give him ideas so I answered his call without video.

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"Blue, I can hear you crying. Please let me see you too. I want to explain something to you. Please, baby. I need to see you," he begged and begged.

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Even though I told myself I wouldn't give in, when he began to tell me how much he loved me and missed me, my heart began beating again. Sigh... The temptation. I quickly washed my face, grabbed my large fleece blanket and wrapped it around me. Well at least I was covered so I pressed the video cam.

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"Hey beautiful... Hope I didn't wake you," he said as he looked at me. God. He was dressed up looking all fine. He probably was still at the show.

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I could've joked with him and said, 'Of course you woke me up' but I didn't want any too friendly conversation with him. My voice was hoarse when I answered him, "Hi. Ahem. Where are you? Are you still at the show?"

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Even though I was trying to be serious, he still smiled at me and I felt all my insides melt. Shit. Keep it together girl. Then he confirmed, "Yeah. We just wrapped up here and we're about to go back to the hotel." I saw as he rubbed the back of his neck. I seemed to remember him doing that only when he was nervous.

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"Hey Blue..." A familiar voice rang from behind him. Yoongi. It was nice that he remembered me.

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"Hey. Hi Yoongi. I'm glad you remember me."

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"Ha! How could I forget you? Remember you still have a date with me?" Both RM and I looked at him puzzled and he just laughed at the both of us. "Look at the both of you, eh? Ready to kill me. Ha! I still want to record something with you. You need to come to SK to my Genius Lab. Plus lover boy here has been moping for weeks."

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"Hey, TMI. Easy with the words, Yoongi," RM added quickly and Yoongi just laughed. Then I heard another male voice coming from the background.

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"Yeah, he's been a real sour-puss these last few weeks. Wait... Is that the girl? Can I meet her?"

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RM immediately stood up, took up his phone and began to move, "Seems as though there isn't any privacy here," and he rattled something in Korean. To which he got a response back in Korean. I giggled for even though I had no clue what they said, I realised it was of a friendly nature maybe with one of the other members. RM looked at me, "It's so good to hear you laugh, I missed that. I miss you, so much."

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I cleared my throat and tried to be serious. He noticed my solemn look too and he got quiet. As he was trying to find a safe place to have our conversation, he began to tell me about BTS's upcoming events. I watched him silently and saw that his face was drawn and he had some circles below his eyes. Something was wrong and I couldn't help the feeling of wanting to comfort and take care of him. God! I was hopeless but I couldn't ignore what I was seeing in him. I finally opened my mouth and confessed, "I missed you too."