"Joon's Dia"

(Chapter 55: Sasaeng)

WTF! Namjoon was in a fucking mess. From the time the show was finished and he didn't see Blue, he became hysterical. She wasn't at the VIP booth and my brother Geum-jae said that his seat was changed last minute so he didn't see her either.

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"Where are you, Blue?" I whispered and I went to get our phones.

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Unfortunately some idiot gave the order to pack some of our personal items while we were performing so right now our personal phones were off on a 13 hour flight to South Korea with one of the staff members. Needless to say Namjoon was cussing and trashing the changing room. He demanded to know where Blue was but no one had any answers for him. Not even T.

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When she eventually came Namjoon let her have it, "Where the fuck is she? You better had tell me, T. Where the fuck is Blue?"

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T was adamant though, "I don't know. I didn't see her leave. I was busy doing my job, RM. I can't keep tabs on your girlfriend too."

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Blue had told me that I needed to watch T more closely so I began to look at her expressions a bit more. She seemed unaffected by everything. I knew she didn't like Blue but would she go so far as to separate them like this? After searching everywhere we thought that maybe she could be back at the hotel so we rushed back but she wasn't there either. When we found out that she was seen leaving the hotel, Namjoon was bawling and screaming and made a mess of his room too. We couldn't have him like this so eventually I got him to calm down a bit.

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"Something doesn't feel right, bro. Let me handle this. I'll find out what's going on," and I suggested to him to take some tablets to calm down. He held on to me and sobbed,

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"What if something happened to her? How could she just disappear like that? If something happened to her, I'll never forgive myself."

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I patted him on his back and I saw as Jimin came up to us with a bottle of water and something in his hand.

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"Take this, Hyung. It's Valium. It will help you calm down." I saw the doubt in Namjoon's eyes. He wasn't one to take medicine at all but Jimin told him, "It's from my own personal med-bag," and with that Jimin literally threw the tablets in Namjoon mouth. He held on to Jimin's legs and continued crying.

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He kept crying how much he was missing her and that he couldn't understand why she would leave without telling him. I looked at Jimin and behind him was Jungkook. We helped Jimin take Namjoon to his bed where he kept whimpering like a beaten puppy. I took Jungkook aside and told him, "Look after him. Make sure no one but us comes in here."

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Jungkook nodded, "Sure Hyung," and he went about packing Namjoon's bags with his clothes and toiletries.

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The six of us were going to stay in LA a bit longer but because of what just happened, we knew our leader needed us. He was always there for us so now that he needed help we were all ready to pitch in and give up our little break. It was only Tae who groused.

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"Aww... I was looking forward to the water park."

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Hobi reassured him, "We'll come back soon, Dongsaeng. But right now RM needs us."

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I went into my room and immediately changed our plans for the members to travel back to South Korea tomorrow but I made the arrangements for most of the staff to leave immediately, including T. I got them all into my room to make the announcement. Of course the staff members were disappointed but I put my foot down and gave the direct order which they followed. When they all left, only one remained. T came up to me and tried to negotiate. I observed her closely.