"Joon's Dia"

(Chapter 1: Change of Plans)

(Two years and 9 months earlier)

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"Mommy! Mommy! Look at this!" Anni shouts at the top of her lungs.

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"What is it, Anni?"

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"Look! It says here that RM is going to Brazil for his solo performance. He's having his concert there. Can we go? Pleasssssssssse Eommmmmma?"

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My 8 year old daughter Anita and I were big BTS fans. We knew that our little twin island of Trinidad and Tobago was too small to host the likes of BTS: the biggest and most popular boy band in the world so I promised her that once they were coming near to our shores, we would definitely be there. We were waiting for the entire group to have a concert close to our country so Brazil will have to suffice. Hmmmm... Unfortunately it wasn't the entire band but just my bias... my love: Kim Namjoon aka RM aka Joonie as I loved to refer to the leader of the group. I was definitely in love with him.

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Sigh.... Kim Namjoon. What a man! Born 12th September 1994 in South Korea, just 2 years younger than me. At age 26 he already had so many accomplishments under his belt. He was the leader of BTS, highly intelligent and acing all his studies, talented rapper and dancer, handsome, strong, lover of art and all woodsy products but most of all he had such a beautiful heart and soul.

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I had never felt an attraction to someone whom I never met but from all their videos and activities, I felt Joonie was the perfect man with imperfections that were bearable. I probably was in a daze thinking about going to his concert because my daughter's face was totally the best.

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"Eomma, you're daydreaming again. Is it about RM again?" She smirked at me. She was 8 going on 80. Just an old fussy woman in a baby's body. Plus she was very observant. We always talked openly with each other so I guess I had a little mini-me in the making. "Are you dreaming of kissing him again?" Sheesh... See... Lol. She really is a darling.

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"Hmmm sorry babe. Joonie is such a sweetheart. I've been waiting so long to see him perform live. This is perfect. When is the concert?"

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Anni pulls up the post from her phone to show me, "Its two nights. July the 9th and 10th. Omg! I'm so excited, mom. Finally we'll get to see at least a member of BTS perform."

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I pulled my eyebrows down as those dates seemed familiar. Anni saw my hesitation. I couldn't hide from her or anyone else for that matter. My face was literally like a talking book.

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"Mom... What's wrong?"

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Then I remembered. I couldn't burst her bubble but then I was about to, "I'm so sorry baby. It was supposed to be a surprise. But you remember us organizing your VISA..." She nodded silently. Gosh I was about to break her heart and also a promise. "Anita, your dad and I organized for you to go with him to Disney World for your vacation. You leave as soon as school closes."

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"WHAT? OMG!!!!!!!! DISNEY WORLD!!!!! I've always wanted to go....." She was jumping up and down for joy but then it hit her, "But wait..... Oh NOOOOOO!!!"

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I held my child in my arms as she cried. I tried to comfort her but she only made me cry too. "I'm so sorry babe. Everything has already been arranged. It was supposed to be a surprise. I promised your dad that I would keep it a secret but I had to tell you because you'll be leaving on the 9th." That's why the date was so familiar. I had to make all the necessary plans for her before that date and that I did.