"Joon's Dia"

(Chapter 69: She's Really Gone)

I couldn't believe it. After riding in the taxi looking to see if I saw her coming out from hotel to hotel, then to finally just going to the airport to see if I could catch her, I finally get a glimpse of her but she was walking away.

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"BLUE! DIA! DIAAAAAAAA!" I shouted as I saw a young woman walking into the terminal. It was her. It had to be her. She had on a black hoodie with a pair of black jeans. I didn't see her face but I saw the outline of her back. I'd make out that ass and body anywhere. It was her but it looked like she was listening to music because I saw the white lines of her headphones dangling to the side of her face. SHIT! How can someone be so out-of-tune to the world around them? Then I thought: Someone who just felt like she lost everything.

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Blue told K that she would never come back. She was going to leave me alone and move on with her life because she thought I had moved on with mine. FUCK! Why did she have to see me earlier? Why couldn't she have seen me when I spoke with Yoongi, Jin and Hobi yesterday? I practically told them that I had her in my mind and heart all the time and that I still wanted to be with her.

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UGH!

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So here I was looking at the person I love walk away for me for good. Then suddenly she stopped and I saw her hesitation.

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"YESSSSS BLUEEEEEEEEEE!!! DIAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!"

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"Ahem, excuse me Sir. But you can't be shouting like that in here..." The security officer was only doing his job.

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K was panting as she just came up to me, "Did you find her?"

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I pointed, "YES. She's right there but she can't hear me." I turned to the security officer and begged like I had never begged before, "PLEASE! Please help me. I need to see that woman right there. She's the love of my life and she's about to make the worse mistake of her life. PLEASE! Let me through so I could convince her to come back to me." I was gasping, I was frantic and I was desperate.

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The guard wasn't giving in but I couldn't fault him because he was only doing his job, "I'm sorry Sir, but I must follow protocol."

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I was so desperate. I looked at him and gave him my best Yoongi line: "Do you know BTS?"

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(15 minutes later)

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I sat down, looking at the aeroplane that held my future wife and watched as it took off with her. My BTS pick-up line didn't work. I couldn't get to see her and she was gone. I even tried to purchase a ticket on her flight but it was all booked up already. I put my head down and began to cry my eyes out. K hugged me and eventually got me to go back to the entrance of the airport as I took a taxi back to my home. Alone.

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I was numb. She was gone and I had lost her forever. She had made good on her promise though: She did come to see me after I was discharged from the military but thinking I had moved on, she decided to do the same.

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I went under the shower and let the cool water flow over my body. I tried to think of her when we were together. Moments of us making love. I would think of those times and would usually come from just reliving those feelings but somehow right now I didn't see her naked body in front of me. I saw the back of her walking away from me. I hit the tiled wall of my shower.