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James

The sorting ceremony.
For the past two years at has become our groups thing to guess what student is in which house each time and the fun part for us is we boo when the Sorting Hat is wrong (which actually means that we just didn't guess right but because we cannot be wrong the Sorting Hat must be).
"What do you reckon this one will be?" Asks Sirius as the first First Year takes their seat on the stool
"Ravenclaw" Remus replies
"I agree with Moony" says Sirius
"I'm going Gryffindor" says Pete
"I say Hufflepuff" I add
"What are you doing?" Asks Lily
"Well, Evans, I'm glad you asked, we are predicting the house of each First Year, as we do every year, care to join us?" I reply, adding a charming smile to the end of my sentence. After all, Lily Evans will be my wife one day, I've been certain of that since first year.
"There's no way you can predict their house based on their appearance" says Lily
"What I think you're trying to say is that we're more talented than you and you don't think you can match us" I tease
Lily doesn't like this, the thought that I could be better than her which I know will make her join in, and I'm right
"I bet this one is Hufflepuff" says Lily
"That's what I said!" I exclaim
"Shut up, Potter" says Lily but I just smile smugly
"HUFFLEPUFF!" The Sorting Hat shouts out
"BOO" shout Pete, Sirius and Remus
Lily and I cheer
"What was that you said about not being able to predict someone's house based on their appearance, Evans?" I ask smugly
"Maybe we should be predicting how many times I'm going to tell you to shut up, Potter, because I've already said it once and I'm going to make that twice; shut up, Potter" Lily remarks but I just laugh
"This one has got to be Slytherin" says Sirius and for once, we all agree, and low and behold "SLITHERIN" the Sorting Hat exclaims and we cheer, despite the kid not being in our house, which earns us some odd looks, especially from the Slytherin table.
I look over at the Slytherin table, unsure of what or who I'm searching for.
My eyes catch on to Sirius' younger brother. That's the second time today I've stared at him, he's going to think I'm a first class creep. Although, he hasn't noticed me. He's talking to his friends: Evan Rosier and Barty Crouch Jr, a bunch of tossers in my opinion but he seems to get on with them.
Then he laughs.
Christ.
His smile is...
Stop it, James, what is wrong with you?
I look over at Lily who's laughing at a joke Marlene made. Her laugh sends a flutter through my stomach, her smile makes me smile.
But Regulus' smile made me feel...different?
I shake my head and get back to the task at hand, I think I'm just being stupid.
Eventually, the sorting ceremony is over and the feast begins, there's food all along the grand tables and it's only when the food appears that I realize how hungry I am, so I fill my plate witch chicken and mash and potatoes and gravy and carrots and all sorts.
"Christ I missed Hogwarts food" says Remus before shoving a forkful of chicken into his mouth "you should see the shit they serve at the orphanage, nasty stuff" he adds
We never really know what to say when Remus talks about the orphanage because we don't know what it's like and we aren't sure what's appropriate to say. "Well with your appetite they can't afford to be feeding you this well, moons" and then Sirius opens his gob and says shit like that but it makes us all laugh so there's no issue there really.
We continue eating and talking until we spot Bellatrix Black who is, as always, being tailed by her sister, Narcissa Black. This is never a good sign.
What business do the Black sisters have at Gryffindor table?
They're walking in my direction.
No.
They're walking in Lily's direction.
Following Narcissa is...Regulus?
"Hello cousin" says Bellatrix, stopping next to Lily
"Hello, Bella" says Sirius through gritted teeth
"What're you looking at, Mudblood?" Asks Bellatrix before placing her hand on Lily's head and driving it into Lily's food.
I stand up, my legs shoving the bench behind me
"What the fuck is your problem?" I ask, pulling my wand out of my back pocket and pointing it at her
"Get away, Potter" says Regulus, holding his wand to me
"Oh I'm so scared" I mock "don't you have to wait to do what you're told? Or are you just a part time puppy?" I ask
"Watch it" Regulus warns
"Or what?" I ask, now pointing my wand at Regulus
"James stop it" says Sirius
"What the fuck? Did you not see what they did to Lily? Are you out of your fucking mind?" I ask
"Shut up, James, this is my family I'll deal with it and you can help Lily if you're so desperate to be her fucking Knight in shining armor" Sirius spits
"Whatever" I reply
I turn to Lily who's still in shock. "Come on, Lily, let's get you cleaned up" I say
"I don't need your help, Potter" says Lily
"Well look, I know I'm not your first pick or your favorite but Marlene and Mary are sitting with some Hufflepuffs right now so I'm kind of all the help you have at the moment and I don't think you should clean up alone"
"What because I can't defend myself"
"Christ, I'm trying to be nice, Lily, can you work with me here?" I ask
"I'm sorry, you're right" Lily replies, still evidently upset
"Come on, Love, let's get you cleaned up" I say softly, this time she nods and stands up, letting me guide her to the loos.
I help clean her face and I use a charm to clean her clothes. "I don't want your sympathy, you know" says Lily
"Who says I was giving you any?" I ask
"Come on, James, I'm not stupid" replies Lily
"Funnily enough I'm very aware of that fact"
"What I mean is that you don't need to rush to my defense, I'm not your damsel in distress. I know you claim to like me but it'll pass"
"Lily, I don't think you understand, I don't just like you, I'm pretty sure I love you"
"It'll pass"
With that, she turns and leaves, leaving just me. Maybe she's right. Maybe it will pass.
Later on that night when I know everyone's asleep I get out of bed. I can't sleep but I don't want to bother anyone so I decide to do a night time sneak away to the astronomy tower.
I tiptoe quietly out of the Gryffindor common room and slowly made my way to the astronomy tower.
However, when I get to the tower I notice that someone has taken my spot. When I can't sleep I tend to sit at the top of the astronomy tower for ages, with my legs dangling over the side and my head craned upwards so I can admire the stars but someone is already there.
Before I can leave the person turns in my direction and looks directly at me.
Regulus.
Suddenly I'm mad again, but part of me isn't, which is more confusing to me.
"What are you doing here?" Asks Regulus
"None of your business" I reply
"Very mature"
"Do you expect me to make polite conversation after the stunt you pulled earlier?"
"I technically didn't do anything"
"You were defending Bellatrix's actions which is just as bad"
"I had to"
"What because you agree with her?"
"What? No of course not, I was trying to get her to sit back down but she was insistent on talking to Sirius but then when you threatened her I had to stand up for her or I'd suffer the consequences later"
"Consequences? What consequences?"
"That's a bit of an invasive question don't you think?"
"I just thought you meant she'd get you a weeks detention"
Regulus let's out a cold dry laugh "of course that's what you'd think. Perfect James Potter who's never had a real consequence in his life. Perfect James Potter, Gryffindor royalty, he can do no wrong after all"
"You're a prick you know that?"
I hadn't realized but we'd moved closer together during this conflict
"Is that all you've got?" Asks Regulus "it's because you know I'm right. You don't know what a consequence is, what suffering is. You don't know what I was risking if I didn't stand up for Bella earlier"
"Just because I haven't suffered doesn't mean I don't know what it looks like. How dare you stand there and talk about suffering when you sit there and let your parents torture Sirius"
"Shut the fuck up, Potter, you don't know shit about what happens in my house"
"I know more than you think I do, and I think that you really really need to think about who you're talking to. I'm your brother's best friend, I know exactly what goes down. Why do you think Sirius comes to me for Christmas?"
"Well he won't be anymore"
"What?"
"Bella was telling him he has to return this Christmas because Cissy has met someone and Sirius is to meet him to at a Black family dinner, you can have him back after that of course but don't think you have as big a hold on him as you think you do"
"How dare you, how dare you force him to go through that"
"It's not my fault, James! Do you think I want him to go through it? Do you think I want to watch what happens? Why do you think I watch? Do you think it's free will? Or do you think it's forced because I can tell you for free that it is not out of choice. I hate seeing what they do to him but Mother hexes me so that I have to stay put"
"You're not as helpless as you make yourself out to be. Sirius isn't conforming to the family the way you do, you're a coward, Regulus Black"
"Fuck you"
"Is that all you have?"
I know we're fighting, but part of me doesn't want him to leave. I want to stay here with him. I'm not even that angry at him anymore
"I loathe you" Regulus spits
We're so close together
"If that were true you wouldn't be this close to me, would you?" I ask.
I don't know what comes over me but I grab his chin and force him to look at me "Tell me again how much you hate me, Regulus, go on, use your words" I say, moving closer to his face "I..I" Regulus stutters, but he fails to form a sentence
"That's what I thought"
"You're a dick"
"Is that really what you think?"
"It is"
"Prove it"
Before either of us can do anything about it, the space between us is closed, his lips are on mine, my lips are on his.
Let me tell you, the kiss is euphoric. It opened new realms I didn't know existed. This kiss is like a breath of fresh air, like I'm seeing the world in color for the first time.
I pull him in closer, desperate for him to be close to me, never wanting to let him go. My hands grab fist-fulls of his shirt and I fight the urge to take his shirt off of him. God what I'd do to have my hands roaming his body right now but I don't.
His hands grip my hair as he grinds his hips against me.
Eventually we both pull away for air. Realistically the kiss couldn't have lasted longer than two minutes but it felt like an age.
"If that's loathing then you can loathe me forever" I comment but Regulus does not indulge in my humor. Instead he just walks away, looking almost horrified with what we'd just done.

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